Shaking At A Frequency That Could Shatter Glass I Know I've Been Here Not Too Long Ago, But. Please.

Neurotypicals should NOT be using the words “hyperfixation” or “special interest” to describe things they’re passionate about. Their experiences with liking or loving something will not even come close to the experiences of ADHD and autistic people hyperfixating on something. If you’re neurotypical and you call something you love your hyperfixation or special interest, that is ABLEIST and you should stop.

Why is it ableist, you ask? When I was a young, undiagnosed child, my hyperfixations often tended to wind up controlling nearly every aspect of my life. When I hyperfixated on Star Wars, for example, Star Wars was all I could think about. I watched every movie repeatedly (although this didn’t include the new trilogy because they weren’t out yet), I watched every show, including the campy LEGO ones. I read the cheap Star Wars Universe paperback novels cover-to-cover and when I finished, I’d start again. (There was one of them in my school library that I became INFAMOUS for checking out.) I crawled through holes searching for Star Wars content. I had a huge plastic box in my bedroom filled with the Star Wars fanfiction I’d written. The same things happened when I hyperfixated on Hamilton, Wings of Fire, Doctor Who, Robin Hood, or any of my hyperfixations.

And guess what? I got bullied. Holy shit, did I get bullied for these things. And not only by students, but by adults too. When I was ten, I was banned from talking about Minecraft, my hyperfixation at the time, by my fourth-grade teacher. True story. I became know as a “book wrecker” because I read my paperback books so often (and I tended to stim while reading them which resulted in the book being thrown across the room, or it’s cover being ripped off, or something similar). All my teachers complained about my obsessions, as they put it. (“All she ever talks about is [hyperfixation]!”) Hell, I’ve even LOST FRIENDS over my hyperfixations in the past.

Bottom line: ADHD and autistic people’s hyperfixations and special interests aren’t things we like a little, or things we choose to be passionate about. They’re things we quite literally can’t live without. Our brains go crawling through holes, searching for dopamine, and when they find something they like, they fixate on it until they’ve wrung every last neurotransmitter out of it. Hyperfixations can be fun, but eventually, they’ll just leave you feeling spent.

It’s not like that for neurotypicals. Their passions don’t invade every part of their lives. Their passions aren’t all they can think about. Their passions aren’t something they need to survive, as surely as water and air.

That’s not even all. For autistic children especially, their special interests have been a source of constant ableist stigma. Many children with ASD are forced into what’s essentially conversion therapy for autistic children. It’s “therapy” meant to beat the divergence out of them, and essentially force them to be neurotypical. They’re punished for having special interests. Their special interests are seen as something inherently bad, almost evil, that they need to let go of in order to “live full lives.” Often, they’re separated from their special interest, and forbidden from talking about it. For a neurodivergent child, that’s like not being allowed to sleep.

And for a long time, fandom space has been made up mostly of neurodivergent people. We’re the originals. “Cringe culture” was made up by neurotypicals who didn’t like nds realistically hyperfixating within their “controlled fandom space.” They wanted fandom community, but they didn’t want the baggage that came along with it. Cringe culture has become so prevalent that even in fandom, a space meant to be neurodivergent nirvana, ableism has become ingrained and nds are ostracized.

And more often than not, they’re the ones bullying neurodivergent kids for having hyperfixations or special interests. They call kids freaks for thinking/talking about one thing every waking moment, then they turn write around and say, “[X] is my hyperfixation, lol.” Y’all love neurodivergency until it doesn’t fit your cute uwu aesthetic.

If you’re neurotypical, please don’t describe something you love as your hyperfixation or special interest. That’s really not what it is, and saying that is just perpetuating the ableism in fandom space, and, more generally, in society. Look, we know it’s fun to have a word to describe stuff. But those are our words. Please use your own.

Yandere ROTTMNT Vampire Headcanons

A/N, not important: I am so sorry this is so late. I haven't been doing very well lately. I have one more vampire thing in the works, and I'm also going to start getting as many of my requests done as possible. Feel free to ask questions if you need clarification or want a certain thing answered. Any criticism is welcome, constructive or not. This is supposed to be a gender neutral reader, so if I screwed up somewhere, please tell me.

-Ollie

CW: Food insecurity, withholding of food, vampires, bites, dark themes, violence, yandere

Words: 1696

Summary: Yandere ROTTMNT Vampire Headcanons

Tag list: @f1oricide @itsyagurlchip @lordfreg @acutiewithagun @rottmnttmnt2012 @lixnininotnay

Michelangelo:

Mikey tries to hide it from you for a while, mostly because he doesn’t want you to be aware of his added abilities. He thinks it’s just funny now when you try to plot an escape or fight back, since now you really have no chance. Most likely, you never even realized he was a vampire until he first sinks his fangs in your wrist.

He thinks biting you is like, subtly romantic since you’re more or less blessing him with your blood. You’re allowing him to live off your own life, and it just pulls him further into his delusions of love. Obviously you’d fight back harder if you truly hated him. I mean, so far, he only has to chain you down!

Mikey will constantly talk about your future with him. Now that he’s going to live forever, he knows he actually means it when he says he’s never leaving your side. He’ll track down the original mutant to get them to infect you, ensuring that you’ll be with him until the sun goes out. He’s absolutely giddy at the thought, updating you every day on his hunt for the mutant until he finds them.

Before he can infect you, he’s even clingier than before. His skin always feels cold now, so he’s drawn to your natural warmth and just likes to be near you.

Watches you sleep a lot as he lays with you. Now that he can see in the dark, he doesn’t want to waste a single moment where he could be admiring you.

Once he finally turns you, he’s ecstatic. His only grief is that he can’t feed from you any more, but he’s plenty happy with the certainty you’ll never be able to leave him.

If you complain about being turned, he’ll get upset. He did this for you! He ensured both of you would be together forever more, and now you’re being ungrateful. He’ll pout for a while, trying to convince you of all the ways your life is better now.

He’ll withhold blood from you if you misbehave. Because you obviously can’t hunt yourself, you rely on Mikey to get you your food. If he thinks you’re being unfair, or aren’t listening, he’ll conveniently ‘forget’ to get enough food to feed you as well.

He gets surprised when you fight back more after being turned, your enhanced strength and speed making him question his choice for a small while. He doesn’t like that you have a better chance of leaving now. He obviously wins, but he’s afraid he’ll slip up and you’ll get away. He keeps you chained tighter for a while, at least until you’ve calmed down. No matter how long that takes.

Donatello:

He doesn’t tell you of his new infection, but he doesn’t hide it either. It’s just another mutation to him, one that’s more beneficial in a lot of ways once he realizes how much more he can do. He doesn’t really see why he should tell you, especially when you’re fighting him at every turn anyways. You’ll probably find out after seeing him storing blood bags in the fridge in his lab, which causes you to freak out.

Once you’re aware he’s a vampire, he’ll start feeding off you more since he finds it more convenient than going out. He likes holding you and just sinking his teeth into your shoulder while he works. It keeps you both still and close, and it prevents him from having to find his own food. He claims the prolonged contact helps you both bond whenever you try to fight him.

Donnie is obsessed with getting you infected as well. He’s terrified of losing you somehow now that he knows he doesn’t ever have to. He’ll hunt down the original mutant to get you bit, not even telling you of his plan until you’re already bit. He doesn’t want to give you a chance to try something stupid before he’s able to secure your place by his side, even if he knows he won’t be able to feed on you anymore.

He has two new punishments for you now that you joined him in the undead. While he isn’t afraid to withhold blood from you for misbehaving, he’s more likely to either force feed you normal food, which tastes awful and can make you nauseous, or he’ll only give you human blood. Both options leave you paranoid with the blood/food he gives you. If you ever try to refuse what he gives you, he’s not afraid to force it down your throat himself.

Threatens to give you blood from your family or friends if you continue to try and cause problems. While he wouldn’t ever really want to actually give you blood from a loved one, he’s not above lying and telling you the blood you're drinking is from them.

The new strength and speed you gain from being turned makes Donnie paranoid. Theoretically, you now have a better chance at escaping. To negate this problem, Donnie makes you wrist and ankle weights to slow you down. At least, until you give him a reason to slow you down permanently.

Raphael:

Raph only feeds off you when he’s too tired to go find his own food. He’s paranoid he’ll drain you, even when his brothers insist it’s impossible. He doesn’t see a reason to feed off you when he has a supply of animal blood at the ready. The difference in taste isn’t a big thing to him, and he doesn’t mind having to find his own food while he’s out. The sewers have plenty of small critters living around.

He’s terrified of hurting you. Raph knows he’s strong, and he’s not always the most sure footed because of his large size. When he accidentally hurt you before, he would coddle you for weeks, but now that he’s nearly twice as strong normally? He knows he’s going to have a lot of accidents, so he practically babies you until he’s adjusted to his new strength. He doesn’t care how suffocating you say he’s being, he refuses to let you be hurt when you don’t need to be.

Waits till you're older to turn you. He wants you to stay human for as long as possible. While he knows turning you would be beneficial as you’d be less likely to get hurt, he doesn’t like the idea of taking your humanity until he has to. Refuses to argue about turning you when he finally does. He mentions it once and doesn’t care how much you protest. He’s let you stay human for years longer than needed. You should be thanking him in his eyes.

Likes to hold you a lot more. He’ll keep you in his arms as he moves from room to room, or be cuddling you whenever you’re both alone. Having you with him forever makes him so happy, and he doesn’t want any time to go by without you feeling loved, or how he perceives loving you anyways.

Hates you when leave his sight. Now that you’re faster and stronger, he’s afraid you’ll do something stupid and try to run. He sees keeping you near him as him protecting you from yourself.

Doesn’t let up on his protective behavior, even though you’re now tougher. He’s not taking any chances with you and your safety. Any plea to leave and go outside is instantly shut down. You’re no longer human, you don’t need to go up top anymore. Your place is with him, forever.

Leonardo:

He doesn’t tell you until he feels it’ll help him. He likes having the extra strength you won’t know about, at least until telling you benefits him. If you’re throwing a fit or have refused to talk to him for a while, he’ll flash his fangs and threaten to drain you until you pass out. After you know, he’ll constantly remind you of his heightened senses and strength. He doesn’t want you to forget how hard it will be to ever leave his side.

Is always a bit worried he’ll get too rough with you and hurt you more than he means to. His upgraded strength makes him more confident, but he doesn’t always remember how much strength he gained. Even as he teases you, he’s hesitant to actually try and mess with you in case he goes too far.

Dry bites a lot. He likes just sinking his fangs in your shoulder while he holds you close, liking the fact you’ll have the imprint of his teeth in your skin for a while. He doesn’t like to feed from you, since it makes him feel like a parasite, but he likes to see the faces you make when he touches the holes his teeth made in your skin.

Waits a while to turn you, mostly because he knows you’ll be able to run faster if you ever do get away. Before he turns you, he’ll start keeping you locked away more. He’ll have you turned while you’re asleep so you don’t even know what happened. In Leo’s opinion, the less you know about this, the better.

He’s ecstatic now that you’re going to be by his side forever. His worst nightmare was losing you, and now he’ll never have to worry about that again. You don’t have to worry about most diseases, death, or being alone now that you have him. Leo treats turning you like a huge favor, ignoring the fact he knows you never wanted it. He plays off hiding it like it was a surprise.

Pretty much solely feeds you animal blood at first, only giving you human if he feels you’re acting out too much. He doesn’t tell you of the change, but he knows it tastes different, and you do too. He doesn’t want to mess with your food too much, since blood is now the only thing you can consume.

If you ever do escape, he’ll probably go straight to an extreme now. You’re stronger, and you're more agile due to the mutation, which makes you harder to contain. He’s not willing to lose you, even if it means hurting you.

I noticed just now but the anon asks are not working🚶‍♂️. Does anyone know how to activate it on mobile?

And the ones who already requested want to be anonymous or is ok to show your names??

KOSA really highlights how much american law and companies dictate everything for the entire world, but how, unless you're american, there is not much you can do about it. i can't call or write a rep about KOSA because i'm not american, my representatives have no sway here, but if KOSA passes i'd have to give ID to access anything hosted in america. and because of how the world works, most things are based in the USA.

it affects the privacy and safety of non-citizens, of people who don't even live in the country, and yet because we aren't american, there's nothing we can do.

you know what, shoutout to the neurodivergent people with "scary" symptoms.

the ones who:

-say dark things without realizing

-talk to themselves

-have homicidal thoughts

-get really, really angry

-make others uncomfortable on accident

-don't tolerate bullshit

-can't/won't mask

-have dark interests

-have genuinely hurt others before

-have been in a psych ward before

-obsess over people

-have intrusive thoughts about hurting people

-have sexual intrusive thoughts

-don't really care about others much

-always choose themselves first

-have low/no empathy

-are seen as creepy or scary by others

this goes out to my folks with autism that isn't "uwu cute". personality disorder havers. schizospec people. ocders. odd and ied havers. and anyone and everyone else.

this post does not support intentionally hurting people. but people who have hurt others in the past and have changed or are trying to change/in the process of changing are more than welcome here.

Ainda Estou Aqui (2024) Dir. Walter Salles

an angel on letterboxd just dropped a whole playlist of films free on youtube I was filled with so much love and light I had to share with you guys

the reze movie will be sticking to fujimoto’s art style, who else cheered. I’m over the moon.

some soft, sweet and domestic moments for the boys this valentines day!