I love him đ€đ€
summary â spencer goes easy on you in a game of chess
pairings â s1!spence x shybaufem!reader
a/n â part 2 of this also requested so thank u! also when they talk they sound so nerdy so just smile and nod
The gentle hum of the jet engines had become a familiar soundtrack to these impromptu moments with Spencer. This time, the battlefield was a chessboard, the pieces miniature soldiers poised for strategic combat on the small pull-down table.
"Your move," Spencer said softly, his gaze steady across the board.
You considered your options, a nervous flutter in your stomach mixing with a spark of anticipation. He had a remarkable ability to make you feel both challenged and completely at ease, though the former often made your cheeks flush. You moved your knight, a calculated risk, your gaze flicking up to meet his shyly before quickly returning to the board.
Spencerâs eyes flickered over the board, a thoughtful pause before he responded. His move was swift and precise, countering your advance while subtly positioning his own pieces. You couldnât help but notice that he seemed less intensely focused than usual. Almost indulgent.
"Interesting," you murmured, studying the new configuration. "Are you perhaps taking pity on my distinct lack of chess prowess, Dr. Reid?" The question was soft, laced with a hint of self-deprecation.
A faint smile touched the corners of his lips. "Pity? My analysis indicates that you possess a developing strategic mind. Though perhaps lacking in aggressive tendencies."
"Aggressive?" you echoed quietly, fiddling with the base of your queen. "I prefer a more cautious approach. Less confrontational."
He chuckled softly, a low rumble that made you jump slightly. "A pacifist on the chessboard. A novel approach." His eyes flickered up to meet yours, a hint of amusement in their depths. "Though sometimes, a well-timed offensive can be surprisingly effective."
"Perhaps," you conceded, a small, shy smile gracing your lips. "But I find a well-defended position rather comforting." You moved your rook, a safe, predictable move.
"Comforting, perhaps," Spencer replied, making his next move. "But comfort rarely leads to victory."
"Maybe not victory in the traditional sense," you countered softly, your gaze lingering on his thoughtful expression. "But perhaps a quiet draw has its own merits."
"A draw," Spencer echoed, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. "An interesting proposition. Though I confess, I find the pursuit of a decisive outcome rather compelling."
"I can imagine you do," you murmured, your cheeks warming slightly. "You do seem to have a⊠decisive nature."
"I believe in efficiency," he corrected gently. "And in identifying the optimal solution."
"Even if the optimal solution involves letting me one across the board almost capture your knight?" you teased softly, your gaze finally meeting his with a touch more confidence.
A genuine smile now touched Spencer's lips. "Sometimes," he said, his voice softer than usual, "the optimal solution involves a more nuanced approach."
@sleepysongbirdsings @spencerreid66 @starrii-sturns @khxna @raysmayhem-72
I love him đ«¶
derek morgan x shy!reader (908 words)
in which derek kisses you for the first time and you say âthank youâ
warnings: none, tooth rotting fluff đ«¶đ»
note!: inspired by gilmore girls!!
You run through the raining street, giggles escaping your lips at the circumstances. Derek has his coat over the both of you, trying to protect you from getting wet as you speed to your house. Your hand clutches him arm to make sure he's going on the right way.
You feel giddy, it's your fourth date and you wonder if it can get any better than this. It feels well deserved after months of pining and flirting. Or better, him flirting with you endlessly while you fluster every single time.
Now that there's actually something going on between you, he takes things more gently and your heart warms at him being overly respectful with you. Small gestures as holding your hand whenever you're walking side by side, always taking the side closest to the road when you're on a side walk and insisting to pay the bill at every chance he gets.
Once you reach the porch, your breathing is uneven - the giggling mess not helping much on it. Derek throws the jacket over your shoulders, rubbing your arms up and down to warm you up.
"You okay?" He asks, way less affected by the running than you. Damn him and always being in shape.
"Yeah- yeah, i'm okay." You breath out, pulling the coat tighter around yourself. You find yourself hoping he forgets to take it back so you can have it for a little longer.
"Cosy?" He teases with a smile. Warmth spreads across your chest and neck, feeling suddenly embarrassed that he noticed your attention for his coat.
"Mhm. You sure you don't wanna come in?" You look at the raining pouring and the way the sky is starting to get dark. The idea of him going back there doesn't please you at all.
"Yeah, don't worry about me, sweetheart. Get yourself warm, don't want you catching a cold." He takes a step closer, wiping a droplet of water from your cheek.
You all but manage to nod before saying, "See you tomorrow?" You know you will, you work together. But you can barely think when he's standing so close.
"See you tomorrow." Derek confirms, not bothering to tease you about it and you feel grateful for it. You wait for him to make a move to leave, not daring to do it before him.
But instead, he moves even closer. His hands cup your face gently, giving you time to pull away. When you don't, he leans in to connect your lips with his in a gentle kiss. You heart races, hands coming up to rest on his chest as your mouth moves against his.
Before it can get any further, he slowly pulls away. Leaving a small peck on your lips before letting go of your face.
"Thank you." You practically squeak out, heat covering your cheeks.
Derek smiles slightly confused and without thinking you rush out a 'bye' before unlocking the door and slamming it shut behind you.
"He kissed you and you said 'thank you'?" Penelope asks.
"Yes! I'm so embarrassed, i can't believe i did that." You sigh exasperatedly, face falling to your hands. You've been thinking about what you're going to do when you see him all morning. You made sure to tell Pen to arrive earlier so you could seek for her help.
"Well that was very polite." She smiles, trying to lighten the mood.
"No, it was stupid." You pull your head up only to drop it on her shoulder right after. "He's gonna start thinking i'm so weird." You know that's probably too dramatic, but the insecurity is eating you up.
"Oh, angel. He's head over heels for you, i don't think he'd ever find you weird." She rubs your back in a comforting manner.
Once you get yourself together, you thank her quickly before heading to the kitchenette for some coffee. Maybe that will lighten your mood.
Too engrossed in choosing between oat or regular milk, you don't notice Derek approach you. His hands touch your waist and you jump almost immediately. Mug almost flying off your hand if it wasn't for him reaching to steady your hand.
"Didn't mean to spook you, angel." He turns you to face him, your back against the counter as he stands close to you.
"Hi. S'okay." You mumble shily, grateful that he seems to act as if nothing happened.
"Hi." Derek's voice sounds gentle, looking around to make sure there's no one around before saying, "Do i get a good morning kiss?"
You grow hot but can't help but feel tempted, making note to not embarrass yourself again. With a small nod, you lay one hand on his arm to steady yourself and press a small kiss to his lips. His lips chase yours once you pull away, leaving a slightly longer kiss on them.
"Thank you." Derek says, a smile spreading across his lips.
"Derek!" You gasp embarrassed, hands covering your face. You were foolish enough to think he hadn't noticed.
"Sorry, sorry." He chuckles amusingly, pulling your hands away from your face and kissing both of them.
"You're mean." You mumble with a pout that makes him think this is even more endearing.
"You're adorable." He retorts, making all the anxieties you had earlier disappear. He pulls you in a hug, squeezing you tightly before kissing your temple reassuringly.
"Let me help you make that coffee." He adds. You're just grateful that he's him after all.
love you,
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Perfection.
hotchner!reader (hotchâs daughter) whoâs married/dating Spencer, and then telling her dad sheâs pregnant, lots of fluff please!! :)<3
telling your dad (who is also your boss) you're having a baby ends in him giving spencer a hard time
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: fluff content warnings: accidental pregnancy, missed period, hotchner!reader, pregnant!reader, not proofread, dad!hotch, established relationship word count: 1.01k a/n: i have been so down and out about writing recently but i had so much fun writing this. i firmly believe that if spencer was dating hotch's daughter hotch would never let that man have a moment of peace.
âHeâs going to throttle me,â your boyfriend announced mournfully, holding the door open for you to enter headquarters, the two of you flashing your badges at security before passing through the metal detectors together.
Rolling your eyes, you reached your hand out and nearly dragged him into the elevator with you. He had been digging his heels in the mud all morning, even going so far as to propose playing hooky, which you were fairly certain he had never done in the history of ever. âHe is not going to throttle you. I mean, just imagine the HR implications,â you gently chastised, watching Spencer as he leaned against the wall of the elevator. âHey,â you said, standing in front of him, you placed a hand on his chest, âWe donât have to tell him today, you know. It could be our little secret for a while.â
Quicker than you expected, Spencer shook his head, âOf course, we have to tell him today. What would happen if you got sent out into the field?â He self-consciously readjusted the strap of his shoulder bag before looking up to watch the floor numbers rise as the elevator went up, âIf we didnât tell him because of my own reservations and then something happened to you, itâd⊠IâdâŠâ
Your chest clenched as his voice trailed off and you thought of the positive pregnancy tests that were still sitting on your bathroom counter. The tiny wad of cells that had been settling in your womb for weeks without your knowledge â until Spencer asked if you needed pads while you had been grocery shopping â was already so loved.
The first test had come back with such a faint line that you convinced yourself it was just a shadow of an indent on the fragile plastic, but the test you took this morning had been glaringly positive. Slowly, you reached out and took Spencerâs hand, intertwining your fingers as the door to the elevator opened and the two of you stepped out together, âNothingâs going to happen to me, okay?â
Taking a deep breath, he nodded while holding the glass door to the bullpen open for you, glancing up, you saw that your dadâs office door was open. As soon as you set your things at your desk, you looked at Spencer, nodding up the steps, figuring it was better to do this now than wait.
By Spencerâs math, you were approximately five weeks pregnant, much earlier than people usually elect to share their news. Still, both of you immediately decided it was in your best interest to let your dad know right away.
Leading the way, you knocked on the heavy wooden door to get his attention, his head snapped up in the direction of the noise, shoulders relaxing slightly when he saw it was you, likely having thought a case was being brought in. âDo you have a second?â You asked softly, nerves creeping up as your father waved the both of you in.
âFor you, of course,â he responded, nodding at Spencer in acknowledgment before watching suspiciously as the two of you sat in the chairs in front of his desk. âWhatâs wrong?â He asked, watching you fold and unfold your hands in your lap, it didnât help that Spencer looked like he had been called into the principalâs office.
You shook your head, âNothingâs wrong, Dad. We just needed to have a chat,â you told him.
Frowning, his curiosity deepened, âA chat?â Hotch questioned the word that wasnât a frequent flyer in your lexicon.
âA talk?â You tried again meekly, knowing that heâd start making his own conclusions if you didnât say something soon.
He looked over at your boyfriend, âIf itâs just a talk then why is Reid avoiding eye contact?â
Pinching the bridge of your nose, you exhaled heavily, âWe shouldâve waited,â you muttered to no one in particular.
âWaited for what, exactly? Youâre not splitting up, are you?â He inquired, likely developing a list of forms that would need to be filled out if the two of you had in fact broken up.
You waved your hand aimlessly in the air. It seemed that neither of you had fully understood how hard it would be to announce your accidental pregnancy to your father and your boss simultaneously.
Since neither of you spoke, your father continued, âIâm obligated to side with my daughter. Which isnât solely based on my belief that she can do no wrong, but if-â
âIâm pregnant,â you blurted, clamping your hand over your mouth as if you could recapture the words that had flown from your lips.
What followed was the silence that you had dreaded. Werenât people supposed to jump for joy in situations like this? However, the moment Hotch jumped for joy for anything would likely end in someone being institutionalized.
Slowly, you dropped your hand from your mouth, watching your father as if he were a ticking time bomb.
âIs this a good thing?â He asked, finally shattering the wall of silence that had been put up.
Your eyes widened as you looked between your father and your boyfriend, âOh, yes! Weâre very happy,â you clarified, bracing your hands on the armrests of your chair.
Finally, your dad smiled and stood up from his desk chair, waving you over and enveloping you in a hug, âThen congratulations,â he told you, pulling away slightly, âHow long have you known?â
You looked back at Spencer, who was standing up beside you and looking decidedly less nervous, âAbout ten hours,â he answered for the both of you.
Releasing you, your father looked your boyfriend up and down, âYou should probably get married before the baby arrives,â he suggested. You recognized the mischievous look on his face â you frequently sported the same look.
âRight, of course,â Spencer said, straightening his posture behind you, nerves once again emanating from him.
You held a hand up, âAn incredibly bold statement considering I was in your wedding,â you peered at your father.
Ignoring you, your dad continued, âSo, we should settle on a dowry.â
âDad!â
[Spencer Reid x Female!Reader]
Synopsis: You have constantly lied to your mother about your private life, as she was one to disapprove of everything, but those "harmless lies" become a lot more serious when you forget to cancel plans with your closest friend.
WC: 3036
Category: Fluff, Fake Dating, Sassy!Reid {TW: Readerâs mom is Authoritarian}
Another drafted idea that I finally wrote up because Spencer is the definition of pookie, and you cannot change my mind. This is also a dedication to my girl, @yoursacredqueenmother, for matching my crazy delulu fantasies đ«¶đ
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Your mom has always been a force of natureâa whirlwind of opinions, expectations, and unsolicited advice that sweeps through your life like a hurricane. Sheâs the kind of woman who believes she knows whatâs best for you, even when youâre pretty sure she doesnât. Ever since you turned 30 last year, her visits have become more frequent, and her nagging has reached a fever pitch.
"Youâre getting old, sweetheart," sheâd say, her voice dripping with concern that felt more like judgment. "You need to settle down, find a nice man, start a family. Iâm not going to be around forever, you know."
The words were always delivered with a smile, but they stung like a slap. You love her, you really do, but her constant pressure makes you feel like youâre failing at some unspoken test of womanhood.
So, to get her off your back, youâd started lying. Little white lies at firstâ"Iâm seeing someone, Mom, itâs just early stages"âbut they quickly snowballed into more and more elaborate fibs. Soon, you were telling her that you were dating a doctor who wanted nothing more than to start a family with you but was waiting for the right time.
It was easier to make up a fictitious doctor than to explain the real reason you were still single.
Because the truth is that the man of your dreams is already in your life, he's been here for years, and he's always been the perfect friend. The problem is that he's a little hard to read. You have no idea how he feels about you or if he sees you as more than a friend.
You'd tried to tell him how you felt about him before, but the words had stuck in your throat. Heâd seemed so confused, so shocked by the mere suggestion of romance. Maybe he just didn't see you that way. Maybe youâd ruin your friendship by even mentioning the idea.
This led to where you are now: alone, frustrated, and trying to figure out how to keep your mother from butting into your personal life. Youâd thought maybe sheâd drop the issue after your birthday, but sheâd come by to "surprise you" last night and is now currently sitting at the kitchen table, looking around your apartment with an expression of vague disappointment.
"Honey, youâre an adult now," she says, not looking up from her coffee cup. "You canât keep living like this."
She gestures at the living room, which is scattered with discarded letters and half-read books. The mess is a symptom of the chaos in your head as youâve been too preoccupied with thoughts of him to worry about cleaning up after yourself.
"Itâs not that bad," you mumble, though you know it is. Even heâd commented on the state of your apartment when heâd last stopped by, and his place is usually worse than yours. Messy, not dirty. Heâs a bit of an organized hoarder.
"Well, maybe not for a single girl," she sighs. "But what if Doctor Whoever comes over? Donât you want to impress him?"
You bite your lip, trying to keep your temper in check. This is the problem with your motherâshe has a habit of steamrolling over your feelings, and you've never been able to stand up to her. Youâd thought you were done having this argument when you turned 30. Apparently, youâd thought wrong.
"Mom," you begin, your voice firm. "I told you, he doesn't care about stuff like that. He's more concerned with things likeâ"
The doorbell rings, interrupting you mid-sentence. Thank God. Youâre not sure what you would have said, but any excuse is better than none. You figured it was the mailman, late with that package youâd been expecting, but when you just so happen to glance at the calendar (the one your father bought you last Christmas, with pictures of cats wearing hats), your stomach drops.
March 21st, which may not seem important, and it really isnât, unless you look closer and realize that the cat in the picture is wearing a lab coat and is holding a beaker. Because that, my friends, is not just a picture. It is a reminder.
The one thing you had not wanted to forget.
The one thing, apparently, you had forgotten.
Youâd been so busy trying to avoid your motherâs questions about your non-existent boyfriend that youâd completely lost track of time. The calendar sits there, taunting you, and all you can think is:
Oh, no.
Because the person who had rang the doorbell? It was him. He and his adorable grin, hazel-like eyes, and messy brown hair. He probably even brought a bag of those terribly expensive chocolates you love.
You want to cry. Of course, it had to be that day, the day of all days, the day you'd been secretly anticipating for all month.
Chess day. It was a monthly ritual you'd started with him when he'd discovered that you, too, were a fan of the game. You were absolutely terrible at it, and he won every time, but honestly, you didn't care. Chess day was just an excuse for you to spend time with him.
Except today, you have company, and itâs not exactly the kind you want him to meet.
You were supposed to call him, but in your haste to please your mom, you completely forgot.
Your motherâs gaze shifts to the door, and her eyebrows rise as if she can sense his presence on the other side. "Well, arenât you going to answer that?"
No.
That's what you wanted to say. Instead, you hear yourself saying:
"Yeah, just a sec."
And, like a complete idiot, you open the door.
You open the door, and heâs there, all bright-eyed, smiling, holding a box of chocolates and his perfectly polished travel chess set. You feel like the biggest jerk in the world.
"Uh, hey!" he chirps, his voice making your stomach flip. He doesnât seem to notice the tension in the air or the fact that your mother is standing right behind you, peering curiously over your shoulder. "I know Iâm a little early, but I needed to pick up some things and..."
He trails off as his gaze settles on your mother. Sheâs eyeing him like a hawk and doing what she does when meeting a new person: leaning forward slightly, squinting her eyes, and tilting her head. You can see the wheels turning in her mind.
"Is this him?" she asks, her eyes wide with excitement.
Before you can stop her, she grabs your wrist and pulls you aside. You stumble into the kitchen, and she takes your place, smiling warmly at him.
"So, youâre the doctor," she says, her voice full of approval. "My daughter has told me so much about you!"
Oh, this is bad. So, so bad.
"Uh," he begins, clearly caught off-guard. His eyes dart to yours, and you were expecting his classic confused puppy look, but this time, itâs different. He looks... honored? No, that can't be right.
"She⊠talked about me?" he stammers, looking back at your mother.
She nods. "All the time! In fact, I was starting to think sheâd made you up. Itâs good to know my daughter has such a handsome young man in her life."
You want to die. Right there, on the spot. But, somehow, you manage to force a smile, even as your heart pounds with anxiety.
And your mother? She beams.
"Itâs lovely to meet you finally," she gushes. She reaches out and shakes his hand, and he stares at her with a dazed expression. "My daughter has always been a bit shy, and she tends to keep things close to the vest if you know what I mean."
"Mom, please," you cut in, mortified. "Stop."
He still hasn't said a word, and the silence is killing you.
"Well, come on in, then," your mother continues, ignoring your protests. "I insist. After all, I can't wait to learn more about my future son-in-law!"
And this is when the situation goes from bad to worse.
This is when he freezes, and the box of chocolates threatens to slip from his fingers. You watched as he struggled to form a coherent sentence.
"I... Uh, that's not... weâre not..."
"Yes! Yes, we are!" you shout, desperate to cover up his stammering. He looks at you, his expression shifting from confused to shocked, and itâs like a punch in the gut. "Thatâs right, Mom. This is him. My boyfriend. Doctor Whoever."
"Oh, sweetie, this is so wonderful!" Your mother is so busy clapping her hands with delight that she doesn't notice his reaction.
"Doctor⊠Whoever?" He looks offended and a bit hurt. "Whatâs that supposed to meanâ?"
"Shush!" You hiss, silently pleading with him to keep quiet. He must have caught your desperation because he shuts his mouth.
It allowed you a moment to process everything. Your mother is smiling widely, her face filled with delight. She doesn't even seem bothered by the fact that heâs currently dressed like a college professor with an evident love for scarves.
Meanwhile, heâs standing there, blinking stupidly, looking as if his entire world has been flipped upside-down. He seems torn between anger and elation, and honestly, itâs confusing as hell. You want to grab him and apologize and explain that this was all a mistake, but you canât. Not with your mother right there.
So, you knew what you had to do.
"Mom! Say, would you mind doing me a huge favor and just give us like a few minutes? We have some important totally-not-boyfriend stuff to discuss."
"Sure, honey." She grins. "I'll do some unpacking. How about that?"
"Perfect!"
She practically skips into the other room, leaving the two of you alone. Thereâs a long, uncomfortable silence, broken only by the sound of the bedroom door clicking shut.
The sigh you let out is one of relief, tinged with the faintest hint of dread.
Though, he was the first to break the silence with words.
"I didnât realize we were dating," he says, his voice low. He's not quite glaring at you, but it's a close thing. "Last time I checked, statistically, dating requires at least two people. Which leads me to the logical conclusion that you are, in fact, a liar. Unless this is some strange, newfangled term for friendship, in which case, I think it would be more appropriate for me to refer to you as the "teller of lies" rather than aâ"
"I know, I'm sorry." You blurt out, your cheeks flushing with shame. "I didnât mean for any of this to happen. She was asking all these questions, and I couldn't tell her the truth, and then she just kept talking, and I couldn't get a word in edgewise, and... I panicked. Okay? Thatâs all."
"What do you mean, couldnât tell her the truth?" He narrows his eyes. "Is something wrong? Did you get yourself into trouble?"
"No! No, nothing like that."
"Then, what is it that you can't tell her?"
He steps closer, and the concern in his eyes makes you feel even guiltier.
"Look, don't worry about it, alright? Itâs not important." You turn away, refusing to meet his gaze.
"If it isnât important, then why are you so embarrassed?"
"Iâm not embarrassed."
"Your cheeks are flushed," he points out. "And you tend to rub your thumb against your forefinger when youâre feeling nervous or stressed. Which, coincidentally, is also something you do when youâre lying."
Damn it. You shouldâve known better than to lie to a profiler.
"You donât know what itâs like to be interrogated by my mother," you snap, harsher than intended. You soften your voice before continuing. "Itâs like sheâs constantly see-sawing between disapproval and pity. She means well, but when sheâs around, I feel like I'm being crushed under the weight of her expectations."
He opens his mouth, but you cut him off.
"And I know, I know, thatâs not an excuse for lying. I just... Iâm sorry, okay? It was wrong and selfish and... I didnât mean to drag you into it."
You brace yourself for the inevitable rejection, the anger, the disappointment. Instead, you hear him let out a sigh, followed by the familiar look of resolve that comes over him when he's faced with a challenging puzzle.
"You know, when we first met, you used to lie all the time." He glances at you, his eyes sparkling with mischief. "You would say things like, 'I don't watch rom-coms,' and, 'I have a real job,' and, most infamously, 'there's no such thing as aliens.'"
"Hold on a minuteâ"
He ignored your protests, his smile growing wider.
"Youâre not that bad of a liar. Actually, youâre pretty decent, considering your lack of social skills. So the fact that youâve managed to fool your mother is pretty impressive."
"Heyâ"
"And, honestly, itâs a little flattering."
"Iâ Wait⊠what?" You gape at him, trying to figure out what's going on. "Flattering?"
He shrugs, but you can tell he's trying not to blush.
"Liars tend to use people they know well or trust implicitly when they need a cover story because they have more information about them and are therefore more believable. So, by lying about your fake boyfriend, that being me, it suggests that you trust me enough to make a convincing cover story, and the fact that you are embarrassed about the deception implies a certain amount of fondness."
"You can't know all that from a simple lie."
"Canât I?"
There's something in his tone, the slightest hint of a tease, that makes your heart flutter. He's always been like this, so damn perceptive. You never knew what to make of it.
"Itâs actually a well-established behavioral theory," he continues. "Deceivers typically show affection toward the person they are attempting to deceive. In fact, a study in the 1970sâ"
"Spencer, please." You hold up a hand. "I get it."
"I'm not so sure that you do."
There's an intensity in his gaze that makes your stomach do backflips.
"Because," he murmurs, moving a little closer, "if you did, I wouldnât have had to spend the past three years of my life wondering why my best friend keeps avoiding my gaze."
"You noticed that?" You squeak, suddenly finding the floor very interesting.
"I notice everything."
He takes a step toward you, and itâs so quick, so unexpected, that you can't help but glance up. He's actually extremely close, his face mere inches from yours, and you find yourself frozen, unable to speak, unable to think, as his eyes lock with yours.
"I notice that the color of your eyes changes depending on the lighting." He pauses, and his voice grows softer. "And I notice that your pupils dilate when I'm near. I notice the way you breathe, the way you laugh, the way you chew your bottom lip when youâre deep in thought. And I canât help but notice that the closer I get, the faster your heart rate becomes. That could be a number of things, of course, and not just an indication of arousal, but considering the context, the likelihood that itâs due to anything other than sexual excitement is simplyâ"
"Spence," you breathe, your pulse pounding in your ears. Youâre not sure what to do, so you blurt out the first thing that pops into your mind. "Do you want to be my fake boyfriend?"
Thereâs a moment of silence, followed by a quiet snort.
"I thought I already was."
You can feel the heat rising in your cheeks, but the tension between you has lessened. Now, heâs simply staring at you with a smug smile, and it's like a dam has burst. The words tumble out of your mouth, spilling out like water from a leaky faucet.
"Well, then, you should know that my boyfriend is absolutely infuriating and has a tendency to ramble about obscure facts at inappropriate moments. And heâs really, really bad at taking a hint."
His smile widens, and his voice takes on a teasing tone.
"Oh, he is, is he? Tell me, is he good at chess?"
"No, heâs terrible at it."
"Then, he sounds like a total loser."
"Yeah," you admit, biting back a smile. "Heâs the biggest loser I know."
"In that case, you should know that my girlfriend is incredibly frustrating and a compulsive liar who uses her boyfriend for cover stories. She also tends to cheat her way to victory despite still losing most of the time."
"I do not cheat!" You protest, playfully punching him on the shoulder.
"No, you just make up rules on the spot in order to justify why you lose so badly."
"Youâre one to talk. Youâre the one whoâs been letting me win all this time."
"Perhaps," he grins. "Or maybe Iâve been letting you believe that."
You narrow your eyes.
"Are you admitting to me what I think you're admitting?"
"What is it that you think Iâm admitting to?"
"I think youâre admitting to me that youâve been throwing our chess games all this time."
"That sounds like the ramblings of someone who cheats and is trying to project their own faults onto others."
"Oh, you know whatâ"
And that's when the bedroom door swings open, and your mother's voice cuts through the air like a knife.
"Ahem."
She's standing there, smiling, and holding a box filled with old pictures and baby toys. Your father had sent it to you last year, hoping that youâd have children soon and use it, but youâd put it in storage, intending to deal with it later. Apparently, your mother had decided now was the perfect time.
The both of you share a look, and it's clear that heâs thinking the same thing as you.
"Not interrupting, am I?" She asks, glancing from him to you and then back again. Her smile was practically glowing, and she had a strange look in her eyes as if she were a cat watching a bird. "I was just looking for a place to put these old things and thought maybe my daughter's boyfriend might be interested in seeing them."
The shared look between the two of you solidified what was going through both of your minds. This was indeed going to be a long, long afternoon.
Glasses Reid is elite and Emily in this is fucking iconic
i NEED anything with glasses reid or munch reid iâm literally frothing at the mouth đ
ty for ur request :D fem!reader
"Emily," you say weakly. "What is that?"Â
Emily looks up from her desk, clearly desperate for a distraction, the lip of her coffee mug against painted lips. "What's what?"Â
"That." You point. You feel sick to your stomach. "That right there."Â
"Oh," Emily says happily. "You finally noticed. Yeah, Spence forgot to renew his contact prescription. He has to wear glasses for two weeks."Â
Spencer stands by the photocopier with a perturbed frown, clicking a button, then another. His brow is furrowed and his hair is falling into his eyes. He has the stupidest, dorkiest, prettiest face, and practically every expression he makes has you weak in the knees.
"That long?" you ask.Â
Derek looks up in concern at your pained tone, following the line of your eyes. When he realises what it is that's hurt you so, he skirts around the desk to shake your shoulder. "You could always tell him how you feel. I'm sure he'd keep the lenses forever if he knew you liked them."Â
"I don't like them," you say. You sound faraway to your own ears. You hate them. They're gonna be your demise.Â
Spencer runs a fingertip across the photocopier's screen, in his own world as the machine finally begins to chug out whatever it is he'd been wanting a duplicate of. The frames of his glasses sit snug on his nose. You can tell from even this distance that the lenses make his eyes look a tiny bit smaller. You could probably point out a misplaced freckle if he asked you to.
"Don't be cruel, he looks cute," Emily teases.Â
Spencer collects his papers, shuffling them into a straight line as he makes his way back to the bullpen. You pretend to take interest in Emily's things. She sips her coffee too nonchalantly. Derek doesn't even bother pretending.Â
"What?" Spencer asks, swift to spot your suspicious behaviours. "Is it the glasses?"Â
You wince. "Of course not. You look⊠you look really nice, Spence."Â
"You know he used to wear 'em every day?" Derek asks.
You would've died. "Before I joined?"Â
"For a few years," Spencer says, looking you over. "You're unhappy. Is something wrong?"Â
He looks to Derek and Emily for confirmation. Emily stutters for an answer while Derek laughs in the background, "Sheâ you know. She justâ She missed breakfast!"Â
Spencer pushes his glasses up his nose by the leg and drops his copies onto the desk. "I have dried apricot in my bag. Two seconds."Â
He bends over his chair to retrieve his bag from under the desk. Your eyes blow wide at his position, the sudden demonstration of well-fitted pants. Derek's laugh echoes up to the eaves.Â
"And he has that twenty four seven," Emily says against the rim of her coffee.Â
You scrunch your eyes closed and tilt your head back. After a few seconds, a hand touches your elbow gently, a hesitance that comes with only one member of the BAU. "You okay?" Spencer asks.Â
"I'm okay. Headache," you lie.Â
Spencer presses the apricot into your hands. "Maybe you should see an optician. You know they can tell if you have a brain tumour from one photo of your sclera?" He smiles morbidly, his glasses slipping down his nose. "They measure the size of your optic disk. It takes less than a minute. I can give you the name of my doctor, if you want. She's nice. Not as nice as you."Â
Your throat is so dry you can't form words to answer him. He doesn't judge your rigid nodding.Â
"I'll write down the number for you. And, Y/N?"Â
"Yeah?" you choke out.Â
"You look really nice today, too."Â
Emily has to kick you in the leg to bring you back to earth. Stupid Spencer. Stupid lovely glasses.Â
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summary: it's the night before your wedding and lando can't bare to spend it all alone
Your head shook as another knock at the door came, knowing exactly who was on the other side. You tried your best to ignore it as you unpacked your suitcase, but they were ever so persistent, knocking once again.Â
âLando, you shouldnât be here,â you called out, walking over to the door. âYou can stand there all night long but Iâm not opening the door. The boys will all be wondering where you are.âÂ
âI donât care abou them,â Lando replied, leaning against the other side of the door. âI just want to see you one last time before tomorrow, just a couple of minutes, thatâs all that Iâm asking for.âÂ
Your eyes closed as you leant on the door, hearing Lando sigh. His voice was desperate as he tapped on the door once again, letting you know that he was still there. You could only smile at how determined Lando was, refusing to go without seeing you.Â
âYouâll get to see me forever after tomorrow,â you tried to assure him, âitâs only one night away from each other, weâve done it hundreds of times before.âÂ
Landoâs head shook, âthis time itâs different, itâs our wedding morning tomorrow.âÂ
âWhy are you here Lando?â You groaned, beginning to think that there was more to things than he was letting on. âSomethingâs not gone wrong, has it?âÂ
His head shook, remembering that you couldnât see him. âI spoke to George and he said Carmen told him that you were feeling nervous. I wanted to come and see you and make sure that you were alright, I donât want you to be nervous, you should be excited.âÂ
âI am excited,â you responded, dropping down to the floor, âtomorrow is just such a big deal, and thereâs so many people going to be there. I hate having all that attention on me, thatâs all.âÂ
Lando remained where he was, only wanting to see you more now that he knew how you felt, keen to settle your nerves and reassure you not to worry.Â
âLet me see you and just give you a hug,â Lando requested, tapping the door once again. âWeâre fine to see each other, tradition is only tomorrow morning, not that either of us really care about that anyway.âÂ
The sound of the lock turning made Lando jump up, watching as you opened the door slightly. It was wide enough for Lando to see you, but not open enough for him to be able to reach in and hold onto you.Â
âLando, I promise you that Iâm absolutely fine. Go and enjoy your evening.âÂ
âI canât see well enough to be sure,â he grinned, refusing to give up quite that easily, trying to push the door to fit his hand through it. âWhatâs the point of just letting me see a bit of you, why not just open the door all the way?âÂ
âBecause once youâre here I know you wonât go away,â you chuckled.Â
Landoâs eyes widened at your assumption, shaking his head in reply to you. The smile on his face told you otherwise though, you knew exactly what he was up to, and once he was in, there was no way that he was going to be walking back out again.Â
You tried your best to keep the door shut, but Lando was far stronger than you were, digging his heels into the ground and pushing the door open, stumbling over his feet and falling straight into your hotel room.Â
âServes you right,â you grinned, offering your hand to help him up. Â
Lando stood himself up and straightened his clothes before heading in your direction. His arms wrapped around your frame as he tightly held you against his chest, pressing several kisses against the top of your head, refusing to let go now that he had a hold of you.Â
Lando kicked the door to your hotel room shut, keeping you in his hold as he walked you both over to your bed, dropping down in the middle of it with you by his side, making himself comfortable like he was there for the night.Â
After a few moments, Landoâs hand trailed along your back. âThereâs no need to worry about tomorrow you know, itâs going to be perfect, Iâm sure of it.âÂ
With all the efforts you and Lando had put in, you knew there was no reason to worry, there was no chance of anything going wrong. You had the perfect place, perfect theme, and everyone who you wanted to attend was doing so, there was nothing more you could ask for.Â
âMaybe if you are nervous, it might be a good idea for me to stay here,â Lando added, catching your eyes roll. âI mean we both know how much it helps when you sleep next to me when youâre worrying, so it makes perfect sense, right?âÂ
âIâm not going to let you stay,â you said, quickly shutting Lando down.Â
Lando hummed in reply to you, âwe both know how this is going to work, Iâm going to wear you down until you say yes, you know that, donât you?âÂ
âNope,â you laughed, âI refuse to cave tonight, youâll be gone soon.âÂ
âYouâll have to get rid of me,â Lando told you, âand judging by your hand against my chest, Iâd say that youâre pretty happy for me to stay a while still yet.âÂ
You quickly moved your hand off of Landoâs chest, shuffling across the bed to create some distance between you both. Lando looked at you in surprise, trying to move back towards you again, only for you to move back too.Â
âItâs going to be a pretty rubbish stag do if youâre not there,â you reminded him, standing up from the bed. âPlus, you only said that you wanted a couple of minutes of my time.âÂ
âI donât need a stupid stag do, not when I could spend my night with you instead,â Lando sighed, sitting up in the middle of the bed. âDo you really actually want me to go?âÂ
You tried to ignore the little voice in your head telling Lando to stay, nodding your head. You didnât want him to miss out on his stag do, the party that he had been looking forward to for so long.Â
âI should probably go,â Lando pouted, sliding off of the bed. His shoulders hung low, his feet dragging along the floor dejectedly. âBut all you have to do is give me a call and Iâll forget all about the boys tonight and rush straight over here to be with you instead.âÂ
âGo on,â you grinned, opening up the door. âIâll be alright without you for one night.âÂ
Lando stood in the doorway, turning back to face you one final time, letting you see just how disappointed he was that you were making him leave.Â
âIn five years, I think this is the first time youâve declined to spend the night with me,â Lando mused, âand the night before my wedding too.âÂ
âIâm not declining to spend the night with you,â you protested, âthis is what we agreed on, youâre going to be stuck with me for the rest of your life after tomorrow anyway.âÂ
âI canât believe it,â Lando smiled, âthe rest of our lives together.âÂ
âOnly if you go,â you teased, pushing Lando out of the door. âGo and enjoy your evening, Iâll see you tomorrow Lando.âÂ
âI canât wait to marry you sweetheart.âÂ
âI know, me too Lan.âÂ
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This is so cute wtf
Simon isn't the man with words. He won't say it â but he'll do it.
Naked, with his arm snaked around your waist and head tucked under his chin, you blinked your crusty eyes to locate your things, which were clumsily tossed around between shared mouths, hot breaths, and rushed hands.
Nothing. Not even the underwear Simon teared off with his teeth last night.
After relentless Simon, Simon, Simon, and one almost-successful attempt to slide out from under his hold, he pulled you back inâeyes still closed.
âYaâ flutter too much, birdie,â he breathed against your shoulder.
âI need to pee.â So he got up gruffly, his mouth tugging slightlyâsomething you hoped was a smile.
Now, with your back straight, you could see the whole room had none of the things you came with last nightâexcept this hot, big, muscled, nerdy-talks-about-guns-and-whiskey-too-much type of guy.
It felt like his apartment was robbed last night, with only your stuff stolen.
âCanât see my stuff,â you muttered.
âI can.â Simon said casually, with his eyes fixated over your tits.
After blushing for more time than you should, and recovering for a pointed look at him that finally got him moving.
âDunno,â Simon said curtly, staring at you before reaching down, abs folding, to pick up a black, curled-up t-shirt.
âYaâ can have dat.â He shrugged, a grin in his eyes.
Over the morning, you realized you were actually wrong. Not all your things were gone. Just half.
One earring. One footwear. You found your shirtâbut with no damn buttons.
You were damn sure there were at least three left, but then again, Simon's mouth hadnât left you coherent enough to count or claim.
And Simon. God. Fuck him. Literally, metaphorically, now, and ever.
Simon was no help. He had that mischievous glint in his eyesâsexy and annoying.
He was aggravating.
The big boy claimed he was making breakfast, so you shouldn't disturb him with silly things like I know something is fishy and Where's the other shoe? and Return them it's not your size ! But somehow, he had plenty of time to rake his gaze over you as you chicken-legged your way through his house in his black tee, muttering a madness-streaked:
Found it!
Simon, you're sus.
It was only at breakfastâbetween dodging your suspicious, snoopy glareâthat he smugly suggested buying some clothes for you in the evening.
Something casual for everyday...something youâd like while going out with him on coffees etcetera...or something you want to get because âhis house ate your thingsââyour claim, not his.
Simon only had to say, stay.
He only had to ask you on a date.
But Simon isn't the man with words, so for now, he'll just do it this way.
â Masterlist â
I love this so much
Summary : Bucky needs to go on a mission, so he asks the rest of the team to take care of his girl.
Pairing : Bucky Barnes x reader (she/her) / Platonic!Thunderbolts x reader
Warnings/tags : Thunderbolts* spoilers!!!!!!! Established Relationship. TOWER FIC!!! Fluff, angst. Cursing. trauma. Death, nightmares, sleepwalking, hurt/comfort. Sam and Bucky arenât mad at each other in this one (Please let me know if I miss anything!!!)
Word count : 4.1kÂ
Note : This story is based on my own experiences with sleepwalking. If youâd like to be on the taglist, message me! It gets lost in the comments sometimes. Enjoy!
The New Avengers weren't as polished as their predecessors. You werenât even close to the universal beacon of hope they used to be â you flickered and survived.
This team was a patchwork of second chances and shattered pasts, proof that good people came with scars â that good people might have done things that kept you all up at night. It was a miracle anyone got any sleep at all.Â
Least of all you.Â
Ever since your first kill, you barely got a full nightâs rest.
By the time you joined the team, it had already been years of fragmented restâ twenty-minute naps stolen on ships here, an hour of sleep on dirty cots there. And when sleep did finally drag you under, it was rarely ever peaceful.
Sometimes, the worst part wasnât even the nightmares. Sometimes it was waking up in the living room, not even in control, your feet bare and your skin clammy from a sleepwalk you didnât remember beginning.
Youâd warned Bucky when you started dating him.Â
One night, you sat him down while your fingers nervously pulled at the threads on your sleeve and handed him a list. Not a literal one, but it felt like thatââIf I start talking in my sleep, donât wake me up too fast. If Iâm not in bed, check the bathtub or the closet. Donât try to hold me down if I fight in my sleep. Only wake me if it becomes dangerous. But most of the time, it passes. I promise.â And worst of all, âDonât be scared of me.â
Youâd braced yourself for rejection then, for an excuse or another that said âyouâre too much.â But Bucky had only taken your hand in his, metal fingers brushing gently against your palm like he understood in a way that no one else ever had.
One night, after youâd had a particularly brutal episodeâscreaming in your sleep, flinching from his touch even though heâd tried to soothe youâhe didnât say a word.Â
He just pulled you close once youâd woken, let you curl into his chest with your face pressed against his skin.
âIâm not afraid of you,â he whispered into your hair.
That night, you cried into him until your breathing slowed, and for the first time in a long, long while, you stayed asleep.
Over time, you found a kind of peace with him that youâd never had before. It didnât fix everythingâ Bucky would be the first to admitâ but it eased your nights. You rested better because he made you feel safe.Â
On bad days, heâd lie beside you, his arm around your waist, his thumb brushing circles into your side.
And sometimes, when sleep came like a gentle tide instead of a crashing wave, youâd open your eyes in the morning light and find him already awake, watching you protectively.Â
âYou slept,â heâd say with a proud smile, as if it were the most precious thing in the world.
For a while, things almost felt normal again. Maybe not perfect, but betterâ until you and Bucky got dragged to be part of the New Avengers. And just like that, for convenience's sake, you both moved in the Watchtower.
It wasnât awful. There was always someone around, always laughter coming from the common room. But adjusting was hard.Â
The bedroom felt too large, the ceilings too high, the Watchtower too big. It was⊠unfamiliar. Uneasy. Still, with Bucky lying beside you, it was manageable.
But some nights⊠some nights were worse than others. Youâd still find yourself drifting barefoot through the corridors, your eyes glassy, your fingers twitching restlessly. Youâd pull open drawers, rearrange cabinets, and unconsciously line pens up in perfect gradients. Once, Bucky found you curled in the closet with a granola bar clutched to your chest. You didnât remember getting there. You only remembered waking up in his arms, sobbing so hard even though you couldnât explain why you were upset.
That night, when Yelena peeked out of her room to see what all the commotion was about, Bucky smiled and said, âSheâll be okay, Lena. She just needs some peace and quiet, right, baby?â
You gave a small, hopeful smile. âY-yeah.â
Because with him there⊠it really was easier to breathe.
â
The next morning, you asked Bucky to tell the rest of the team of your condition, and he waited until you were in the shower to gather the team in the kitchen. Ava leaned against the counter with her arms crossed, John was already halfway through his second cup of coffee, Bob dropped his book, Alexei was drinking a glass of milk, and Yelena sat on the counter with a knowing look in her eyes.
Bucky didnât pace or shift or stall. He just said it.
âShe sleepwalks, sometimes. Worse when Iâm gone. Itâs not⊠always random. Itâs tied to stress. Or nightmares.â His voice was gentle. âYou might hear her moving around at night, maybe see her organizing weird stuff or⊠I donât know, in a closet. Donât freak out. Donât wake her up unless she's in danger, Donât make it a thing.â
The silence that followed wasnât awkward. It was understanding.
Yelena gave a small nod and muttered, âIâve done weirder.â John just said, âGot it, man,â and reached for another coffee pod.
Bucky let out a breath he hadnât realized heâd been holding. He didnât want pity for you. He didnât want tiptoes or whispers. He just wanted you to have a little space to exist without explaining yourself.
And when you wandered into the room an hour later, eyes still a little hazy, no one stared. No one asked questions.
They just said âHey,â like it was any other morning.
And somehow, that made all the difference.
â
Still, no one got involved... yet.
Bucky was the only one who knew how to reach you. The only person who could read your silences like sentences, who knew exactly when to speak, and when to hold you so tightly the pieces couldnât fall apart again.
So when Sam reached out to Bucky for help with an intel recovery mission in Madripoor, your heart dropped. You didnât tell him not to go, but Bucky saw the way your hands twisted in the hem of your sweater, the way your mouth stayed open like you were trying to find a reason to make him stay.
He found you in the kitchen the night before he left, staring blankly into a cup of tea you hadnât touched.
âSweetheart,â he said, stepping behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist. âLook at me.â
Your eyes slowly found his, and he knew.Â
âI hate this,â you whispered, the words brittle.
âI know,â he said, cupping your face in his hands. âIâll be gone for two days. Three, tops. I swear.â
You leaned into him, âI sleep better when youâre here.â
âI know, honey,â He pressed a kiss to your forehead, then your cheek, then the corner of your mouth. âI hate leaving you. But he needs me just for this one thing. And I promise I wouldnât go unless I knew youâd be taken care of.â
You looked up at him, âI donât want to be a burden to the team.â
âYou are never a burden,â he said firmly, his voice a low rasp. âNever. And while Iâm gone, theyâll keep you safe because they want to, not because they have to.â
Before he left, he gathered the others in the main room.
âKeep an eye on her,â Bucky said quietly. âSheâs strong â donât let her tell you otherwise â but she doesnât always ask for help.â
They all nodded, some more solemn than others.
âIf she does, donât wake her unless you have to. It can be⊠disorienting. But if sheâs not safe â if sheâs near stairs or rooftops or anything like that â then wake her up gently. No yelling. No shaking her. Itâll only make it worse.â
Yelena raised an eyebrow. âWhat if we throw a blanket on her and pretend sheâs a ghost?â
Bucky gave her a pointed look.
She raised her hand in defeat. âFine. No blankets. Understood.â
âThank you,â Bucky said, quieter now, looking over each of them. âJust⊠She means everything to me.â
They nodded again. Even John offered a pat in the back, and Ava gave a flickering smile.
That night, he kissed you once more at the door. âIâll be back before you know it.â
But time always moved slower without him. And sleep â if it came at all â would bring with it the ghosts you couldnât outrun.
â
The first night without Bucky was the worst.
You didnât sleep. Not even for a minute. You paced the compound like a spectre, wearing one of his oversized Henleys and a pair of mismatched socks. The halls were quiet but your mind was unbearably loud.
What if something happened to him? What if this was the one time he didnât come back?
You were awake in the kitchen at 2 a.m., your fingers trailing along the countertops. You made tea and forgot it on the counter. You folded a blanket you didnât remember picking up. You stood in front of the window for forty-five minutes, watching shadows move across the landing pad like you were trying to count sheep.
Yelena followed you silently, not intruding. She was nearby, perched on the kitchen island, tossing a grape between her fingers.
She didnât ask you to sit down. She didnât ask what you were thinking. She just waited.
âCanât sleep?â she finally said casually.
You shook your head. âIf I try, Iâll just end up with a bad dream.â
âThen donât try. Come,â she said, patting the spot beside her. âSit. Eat terrible snacks with me. I stole jerky from John .â
You offered a smile, and for a moment, it felt almost normal â like you were just friends pulling a late night, instead of trauma survivors outrunning your past.Â
â
The second night was harder in a different way.
Your body gave in, just barely, around 3 a.m.Â
You collapsed on the couch in the common room and curled into yourself. The others left you be â glad to see you resting at all.
But two hours later, you screamed in your sleep.
Bob got there first.
He found you thrashing in, tangled in the blanket like it was strangling you. Tears streamed down your face, and your hands clawed at the air as you whimpered words no one could quite make out.
âNoâpleaseâdonât take himâdonâtâ!â
Bob dropped to his knees beside you. He didnât try to wake you â remembered Buckyâs warning â but he said your name softly, voice like pattering rain on glass.
âItâs okay. Youâre safe,â he whispered, over and over. âYouâre not alone.â
Eventually, your screams died into sobs. Still asleep, you curled toward him, burying your face in his shoulders. Bob let you cry against him.
He didnât know if youâd remember any of it.Â
John had stood nearby the whole time, sleepy when he was woken up by the noise. When Bob looked up at him with tired eyes, he invited John to sit next to you both.Â
He did, because perhaps he thought he could help keep you both safe.
â
The third night was deceptively calm.
You seemed better. Youâd eaten half a piece of toast that morning. Youâd even made a small joke at Alexeiâs expense, and everyone had taken that as a good sign.
Still, the team took care of you closely.
That night, after the motion sensors in the living room went off because you started sleepwalking, Alexei, Ava, and John took the unofficial nightwatch dutyâ all of them too alert to sleep anyway. You shuffled into the hallway around 1 a.m., eyes half-lidded. You looked straight through Alexei, who had been sitting on the floor playing chess against himself.Â
He didnât say a word, just stood up and followed you at a distance.
You wandered into the kitchen and opened the same drawer four times in a row. Flipped the light switch on and off, on and off. Then you just⊠stood there, staring at the fridge.
John found you a little while later, drifting into the laundry room. He didnât panic.Â
âHey,â he said, blocking the doorway, âthis isnât your bedroom.â
You blinked slowly with foggy eyes, but didnât respond.
âCome on, letâs go back,â he said, not touching you, just using the calm voice heâd been practicing since Bucky left.Â
âCouch sounds better than tile, right?â
You followed him without protest, your feet shuffling over the floor. He guided you gently to the common room and helped you sit on the couch, draping a blanket over your shoulders.
Ava came to relieve him an hour later.
No one told the others to watch you. No one needed to. It had simply become understood â an agreement among people whoâd known isolation too well to let anyone else suffer it.
You were never left alone for long.
â
The fourth night, things only got worse.
Bucky's message came in just past midday â the mission was running longer than planned. What was supposed to be three days had stretched to four, maybe more. They were holed up in a safe house, radio silent except for brief check-ins. Your already-bad anxiety only spiked.
So, of course, it manifested in your sleeping habits.
You were beyond exhausted, though. Somewhere between 2 and 4 a.m., your body gave out before your mind could. And that's when the sleepwalking started again.Â
Yelena noticed first when the motion sensor on the jet landing pad pinged, lighting up the communicator on her bedside table. Her eyes snapped open in panic.Â
One glance at the screen by her bed andâ
Oh.
Oh no.
âBlyat,â she cursed, already half out of bed.
The security feed showed you barefoot and draped in one of Buckyâs shirts that hung past your thighs, drifting forward in a dreamy gait.
You were headed straight for the edge of the roof.
âAva!â Yelena barked into the intercom by her door. âSheâs upâsheâs on the roof!â
Ava didnât even answer. She was already phasing halfway through her bedroom door before the words had finished transmitting.Â
Her molecules blurred as she sprinted through walls and the glass doors leading to the edge.Â
She found you on the rooftop, barely more than a silhouette, the wind tugging at your hair and the cold bit at your bare feet.
You were standing at the edge. Right at the ledge.
The skyline sparkled as your fingers trembled to reach for something invisible in the air in front of you.
âHeâs gone,â you mumbled into the wind. âI have to find himâŠâ
Ava didnât shout your name. She didnât touch you too fast. She knew better.
She forced herself to become solid again and circled herself around your torso from behind.
âItâs okay,â she whispered. âYouâre safe. Iâve got you.â
You didnât react â not really. Your muscles twitched, but you didnât pull away.
John was next, thundering up the stairs with bare feet and wide eyes, stopping short the moment he saw you on the ledge.Â
His instincts wanted him to act, to tackle you into safety, but he didnât. Not when he saw how still you were. Not when he saw how gently Ava held you. He lifted both hands, palms out, staying back, like he might catch you if anything went wrong.
âEasyâŠâ he muttered under his breath, more to himself than anyone else.Â
Alexei arrived just after. One look at the scene stopped him in his tracks. âBozhe moiâŠâ he whispered. He took a cautious step forward and dropped to his knees, trying to be less threatening.
âDruga,â he said gently, kneeling just to your side. âYouâre dreaming, okay? Just a dream. Weâre here. No need to find anyone â youâre already home.â
Bob drifted up moments later. He didnât say a word. He just hovered nearby.
And then Yelena burst through the door, breath hitching as her eyes scanned the perimeter.
âIs sheâ?â
âSheâs okay,â Bob answered quietly, âWeâve got her.â
Yelena let out a shaky breath and moved closer.
You whimpered softly, your whole body trembling in Avaâs arms. Your hands curled into fists, then relaxed again. Tears slid down your cheeks even as your eyes stayed closed. Even asleep, you were breaking.
You were inching closer to the ledge, your toes just brushing the edge of now.
âI have to find him,â you mumbled again, voice cracking. âHeâs not safe. I have to find him.â
Alexei looked at Ava. At Yelena.
âSheâs not coming out of it,â Yelena whispered. âSheâs too far under.â
âDo it,â John said, tense. âNow. Before sheââ
Alexei nodded once, then reached forward, placing one palm on your shoulders. It was him who finally made the call. âTime to wake up now. Youâre safe. Youâre dreaming.â
Your body stiffened immediately. The moment your nervous system registered something was wrong, your fight-or-flight instincts kicked in.
And they kicked hard.
Coming back into consciousness in panic, you boltedâ or tried to.
Ava held you still, even as your eyes snapped open, and you screamed.
âNo! No, no, no! Let go of me! Let goââ
âItâs okay, itâs okayââ Ava said, tightening her grip, keeping you away from the ledge.
You thrashed. Alexei backed off, hands up, trying not to crowd you.
Yelena stepped forward and crouched, her voice firmer than the others. âLook at me. Youâre here. Youâre home. We have you.â
But your body didnât believe her. Your eyes were darting wildly, trying to make sense of noise and faces, adrenaline pumping so hard it made your vision blur.
John, who managed to grab a blanket, wrapped it over your shoulders while muttering, âItâs okay, youâre okay,â on repeat like a prayer, even though your eyes werenât processing him yet.
Bob moved in slowly, hoping just being there would help.
Eventuallyâeventuallyâyour eyes found something familiar.
The logo on the roof.Â
The view on the edge.Â
The ledge.
Your legs buckled the moment your body remembered gravity.
Ava and Alexei caught you instantly â Avaâs arms looping under your shoulders, Alexei scooping beneath your knees, reminding yourself he was a man who once threw tanks for fun.
âIâI didnât mean toââ your voice broke, and you curled in on yourself, clutching the sides of Buckyâs shirt like it could protect you from your own confusion. âI donât remember what I was dreaming. I didnât mean to come up here. I didnât meanââ
âWe know,â Yelena said firmly. âItâs okay.â
âNo oneâs mad,â John reassured, âYou didnât do anything wrong.â
You swallowed, and with a shaky breath, nodded once.
You werenât fully okay â not even close â but you were with them.
âLetâs get you out of the cold, druga,â Alexei said.Â
You didnât fight the suggestion.
The rooftop door swung behind you as Bob pushed it open.Â
All of you managed to walk back in.Â
No one said the obvious â how close youâd come to falling.
No one had to.
You reached the common room without question, because none of them wanted to put you back in your room alone. You wouldnât sleep, and none of them would, either.
They laid you gently down on the oversized couch in the center of the room. You blinked up at the ceiling, eyes still dazed, until Bob appeared beside you with a warm cup of tea. He placed it in your hands.
You didnât drink it. You just held it, palms wrapped tight around the mug, as if the warmth alone was enough to anchor you.
âIâm sorry,â you said, finally
âYou donât have to be,â Ava replied immediately, sitting beside you on the couches.
John sat on the floor in front of you, back against the coffee table, hands dangling over his knees. âWeâve all had bad nights. This just happened to be one of yours.â
Alexei brought in two more pillows and tossed one over your legs. He tucked the second by Yelena, who tried to wave him off before giving up with a sigh and letting him fuss.
Bob curled into an armchair nearby. âWeâll keep watch,â he said. âWe always do.â
And then, something remarkable happened.
The exhaustion hit all of you at once.
One by one, you all stopped pretending you werenât tired.
Yelena curled up beside you, legs tangled with yours, chin resting on the pillow between you.
John slid down to lie on the carpet, arms crossed over his chest like a soldier who could still sleep with one eye open.
Ava stretched out beside the couch, back against it as she put a hand over yours.
Alexei lowered himself onto the other couch with a dramatic groan, mumbling something about âtoo old for thisâ as he tucked a pillow behind his head.
Bobâs head tilted back and his breathing evened out.
And just like that, the common room became a patchwork nest of sleep. And it was some of the best sleep every one of you have had in a while.Â
â
An hour, maybe two, slipped by. Then, the elevator dinged.
You stirred, still in a haze, but some part of you registered the familiar sound of heavy boots followed by a duffel bag hitting the floor with a gentle thump, carefully placed rather than dropped.
âHey, sweetheart,â came Buckyâs voice.
Your eyes blinked open, just enough to catch a glimpse of him standing in the spill of hallway light. His hair was damp, rain clinging to the ends. His jacket bore flecks of concrete dust and char near the seams.Â
He looked like a man who hadnât stopped running home since he left.
âBuckyâŠâ you whispered, the name tangled in a yawn. âBaby⊠you came backâŠâ
Your words were fragile, barely more than breath, and already fading into the fog of dreams again.
Bucky stepped over John â who was still passed out on the floor, snoring like a freight train â and made his way to you without a sound. He crouched down by the couch and wrapped his hands around yours â the one not held by Avaâ and brought it to his lips to kiss your knuckles.Â
âIâm here,â he whispered, his voice cracking at the seam. âIâm so sorry I left.â
You made a nonsensical sound in response â half a word, maybe a memory. Something about rooftops, tea, jerky, his shirt. Nothing coherent, just the drift of half-dreams spilling from your lips. He knew you wouldnât remember any of this come morning.
But still, Bucky leaned in and kissed your forehead, letting his lips linger there. For the first time in days, he let himself breathe.
Then he looked up â and finally took the full picture in.Â
They were all there. The whole team, scattered in sleep around the living room like an improvised fortress. His girl â you â nestled safely in the center of it, wrapped in the arms of friends who had clearly refused to leave your side.
They looked worn down, but peaceful and content. Like being here, with each other, was exactly where they wanted to be.
So he moved quietly around the tower, opting for a quick shower and change of clothes. Then he walked to the hallway closet and gathered every spare blanket he could find.
One by one, he tucked them in.
He threw a thick crocheted navy blue throw over John, who mumbled something but didnât wake. A quilt draped gently across Yelena and Ava. One across Alexeiâs legs, already half off the couch,
Bob didnât even stir â just sighed, as Bucky knelt, and carefully tugged a fluffy yellow blanket under his chin. It was like Bob somehow knew Bucky was there.
On the coffee table, Bucky found a scrap of paper and scrawled a quick note, placing it where they would see it in the morning.
Thank you for taking care of my girl. â J.B.B
Then he returned to you.
He stood there for a moment, watching you sleep â curled up in the middle of everyone who had held the line while he was gone.Â
He was so in love with you â god help him â because all he could think about after the long mission was taking you back, holding you close, and not sharing you with anyone tonight.
So he picked you up in his arms effortlessly, like you belonged there, like heâd done it a thousand times and could do it a thousand more.
You stirred just a little, your cheek pressing into his chest.
âYouâre homeâŠâ you murmured again, barely awake.
âI am,â he whispered, brushing a kiss to your temple. âAnd Iâm not going anywhere.â
He carried you back to your shared room, the weight of the world finally lifting from his shoulders.
There, he laid you down and pulled the covers up over you both, sliding in with one arm around your waist, the other across your chest like a shield.
You were finally asleep in his arms, and he wasnât about to give the world a single piece of you until morning.
-end.
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@herdetectivetheorist prompt 5 & 20 (sorry 3 was already taken for Max but we'll make it work) - "Want to try that again?" & "You'll regret this." "I'll regret not doing it more."
Summary: Y/n is a new reporter in F1 and she is trying her best not to let a certain young world champion seduce her, but she's struggling (as anyone would)
Red Bull 2011!Sebastian x shy for only Seb!reader
Warnings/themes: Pre-smut but no actual smut
Word count: 1.3k
No one would deny Sebastian is famous for a multitude of things. From his quick jump up from Toro Rosso into Red Bull despite fight back from Mark, his continuous wins, his record setting championship win and he's no failure with women either.
So when a new reporter is brought in, specifically for getting interviews with the drivers, his attention is grabbed by the woman who tries to overcome her shyness around him but he never aims to aid her.
"Hello, y/n." Seb greets as he walks to the media pen and even pushed Lewis out of the way to get in with y/n first.
"Hello, Sebastian." Y/n smiles already looking like she's getting a little flustered from his light eyes remaining glued on her like he's attached himself to her. "Do you feel good?"
Amusement sparkles behind his eyes as he watches her wince at the way she worded that question. He'd almost think she did it on purpose if y/n knew how to handle his presence and the effect he seems to have on her.
"Want to try that again? They can cut that." Seb smirks making her sigh then readjust trying to compose herself.
"How do you feel going into this weekend?" She asks since it's only a Thursday and he hasn't been on track yet.
Seb does answer the question in a professional manner giving her something decent to work with to redeem herself over the badly wording of her question. Not that he actually thinks it was that bad at all and he would've given the same answer regardless but it's not always that simple.
"Thank you." Y/n mumbles as Seb is steered away by his media babysitter, as he likes to refer to them since that's what it feels like a lot more than anything else.
"No problem." Seb smiles shooting her a wink as he does so.
He keeps watching her out the corner of his eye as he does other interviews and watches her seem a little more at ease with other drivers. Even his own teammate which is a little annoying because he doesn't want to make her uncomfortable. He really likes the young woman and he has a certain fondness that he can't shake with her.
-
Sebastian won the Turkish gran prix and made a point to search for y/n immediately after the post-race chaos. Finding her packing up for the day and getting ready to catch a flight home.
She doesn't get the luxury of flying anything better than economy and she is always moving quickly to get herself home because she doesn't have the back up finances to pay for another ticket out of pocket.
"Come celebrate with me." Sebastian demands catching her attention while she immediately loses her voice. "I promise you a good time."
"Sorry, I have a flight I can't miss." Y/n mumbles while Seb sighs at her.
"You can get a flight back with me tomorrow."
"My hotel."
"We'll probably be leaving straight from celebrations. I'm not celebrating without you, so you have to come with me." Sebastian states not really giving her an option but only because he knows she'd put her foot and and decline if she really didn't want to. But on the chance she's too shy to actually say no. "If you don't want to, I won't really force you."
"No-I'll come with you." Y/n rushes out then managing a smile. "It sounds fun."
"Come on then, you will be part of the Red Bull team tonight." Sebastian smiles feeling a victory. Actually a big victory. The fact that y/n accepted his invitation to the party feels a bit like a bigger achievement since he fully expected her to to just shut him down and decline with no hesitation of changing of her mind.
-
Going to celebrate with Sebastian definitely felt like it was the right choice. Especially as she gets a couple drinks in her. Not getting drunk but definitely feeling the effects of the alcohol.
Maybe she should've actually tried to be more resilient to Sebastian's similarly tipsy whispers and light touches. But he talked her into coming back to his hotel because unlike expected they left the night out earlier than previously discussed.
But as they find themselves alone in each other's company. Y/n gently closes the space. Her liquid courage making her usual shyness and inability to find enough words to structure a full sentence having long since disappeared from the space between them.
"You'll regret this." Sebastian comments since even being less than sober, he knows y/n's lips ghosting over his own is something she'll think about when they part from each other.
"I'll regret not doing it more." Y/n whispers practically breathless as she completely closes the space between them.
Feeling her lips on his own is like getting a hit of a drug he didn't know he was waiting for a hit of.
"Don't change your mind. I don't want to stop." Sebastian states and she certainly isn't about to be the one who pushes for them to stop. She almost feels like she's overwhelmed by how good it feels to kiss the blonde f1 champion.
But she doesn't want to stop and she's desperate for more. To the point she's pushing his lean body backwards to the bed till his legs hit the edge and he accepts his position of being pushed back onto the surface.
"I need to feel you." Sebastian grunts rolling them over so she drops beneath him and he can gain some more control over the situation which earns a moan from the young woman.
-
Y/n definitely feels like this is a walk of shame as she follows Sebastian onto the private jet. But at the same time Sebastian is so completely unapologetic about his actions with her and he takes her hand into his own as they do.
"Sebastian." Y/n mumbles making him hum and smile dragging those blue eyes up to look at her and he reads her unspoken thoughts without her opening her mouth.
"You are not going to break my heart now are you?" Sebastian questions with the brutal honesty that forces her to accept that she really has two options: quit her job as soon as she's off the jet and completely prevent him from pursuing her or actually let herself have something nice and just accept his advances as more than just sex.
"No." Y/n whispers earning a toothy grin before he leans over and kisses her cheek. "But you can't keep flirting-"
"People would think something is wrong if I stopped flirting with you. Anyway, now I have the best reason to flirt with you." Sebastian smirks looking very victorious even if he's a little disheveled since they had to rush from the hotel to get here in order to stop the jet from being delayed for take off.
"Fantastic." Y/n hums while Sebastian grins just happy that she isn't fighting him about it. "So it's going to get more obvious and aggressive with your flirting?"
"Oh yes." Sebastian confirms not even seeing the issue with such a thing.
hiyaa, cold reader series is so so amazing i just read it all in one sitting again but i was wondering if you could do one where she's jealous of a woman who starts flirting with spencer on a case maybe? maybe she's pissed because it's "unprofessional" but really she's pissed because he's being flirted with
AS IT SEEMS â SPENCER REID!
a local detective seems to hang on spencerâs every word. the unprofessionalism of it all really frustrates you.
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a/n â is this⊠progression?
The flashing red-and-blue lights of the local PDâs vehicles paint shifting patterns across the asphalt as the BAU team steps onto the scene.
The air is thick with the scent of damp pavement and something acridâgunpowder, maybe, or the lingering remnants of a nearby dumpster fire.
Officers mill about with that particular brand of tension that comes from knowing the FBI has been called in, half-relieved, half-defensive.
You take it all in quickly, the details slotting into place in your mind like a well-practiced routine. The weight of your badge clipped to your belt, the holster pressing against your hipâeverything is familiar, grounding. But then she appears.
Detective Elena Foster is sharp-jawed and self-assured, the kind of woman who wears authority like a second skin. Her strides are long, purposeful, the confidence in her posture making it abundantly clear that she knows exactly how competent she is.
And sheâs looking at Spencer like heâs fascinating.
You stand slightly off to the side as introductions are exchanged, arms crossed over your chest, expression unreadable. Youâre practiced at thisâat keeping your face neutral, your tone cool, your presence sharp enough to command respect without ever needing to raise your voice.
Itâs always been easy. But right now, as Fosterâs hand lingers just a little too long in Spencerâs when she shakes it, something tightens in your chest.
âDr. Reid,â she says, eyes flicking over him with open appreciation. âI read your paper on statistical anomalies in serial offender data last yearâbrilliant work,â
Spencer, to his credit, looks momentarily startled. âOhâthank you,â he says, blinking. âThat was actually an extension of some previous research onââ
âThatâs impressive,â she interrupts, flashing him a smile. âIâd love to pick your brain about it later, if youâve got time,â
You watch as her fingers graze his forearm in a way that is entirely unnecessary.
He doesnât seem to notice, too preoccupied with processing the compliment, his mind already spinning with whatever information he had been about to share. You, on the other hand, notice everything. The deliberate lean-in, the way her voice dips just slightly when she speaks to him, the way her eyes linger.
Itâs unprofessional.
Thatâs what irritates you. Not the fact that her attention is singularly fixed on him, or that heâs being flirted with in the middle of a crime scene. Certainly not that sheâs touching him when she doesnât need to be.
Itâs the principle of the matter. This is an active investigation, and Foster should be focused on the case, not Spencerâs academic credentials and whatever else has caught her interest.
Your jaw tightens as you glance toward Hotch, who doesnât seem to care about the interaction as long as it doesnât interfere with the briefing. Morgan, beside you, exhales a quiet chuckle under his breath, like heâs picked up on something amusing. You ignore it.
âI assume we have a body to look at?â you say, voice even.
Foster blinks at you, as if only just remembering your presence. You donât react, donât shift under her assessing gaze, donât give her anything to work with. Eventually, she nods.
âOf course,â she says smoothly. âRight this way,â
She turns, and Spencer follows, already mid-sentence about some statistical deviation he had noticed in the case file. And you?
You stay exactly where you are for half a second longer than necessary, exhaling slowly through your nose before following after them.
â
You follow the team through the cordoned-off area, past uniformed officers and the murmuring press lingering at the edges, searching for scraps of information. The crime scene is up aheadâan abandoned warehouse, dimly lit and rank with the scent of stagnant water and decay. It should have your full attention.
But instead, you feel your focus splintering.
Just behind you, Spencer is still speaking, his voice carrying that familiar, eager cadence he gets when discussing something intellectually stimulating. âItâs interestingâwell, not interesting in the traditional sense, given the context, but rather statistically significantâthat the unsubâs victim selection aligns with a pattern previously seen inââ
âOh, I love that you talk like that,â Fosterâs voice is warm, teasing, admiring. âMost people dumb things down, but you donât. Thatâs rare,â
You stiffen.
Itâs unprofessional.
Thatâs what you tell yourself as you watch the way she tilts her head slightly when he speaks, as if absorbing every syllable. As if heâs the most fascinating thing in the room. She leans in a fraction closerâjust enough to make it noticeable, just enough to make your stomach twist.
Itâs unprofessional, you think again, but the words donât sit quite right in your mind anymore.
Because the truth is, you shouldnât care. You shouldnât be noticing the way Foster looks at him. You shouldnât be hyper-aware of the way her fingers brush the edge of his sleeve again, so light it could almost be accidental. You shouldnât be waiting for him to pull back, to shake off the attention like he does when social interaction becomes too much.
Except he doesnât. He just lets it happen.
And that irritates you.
So you do what you always do when something threatens to knock you off balanceâyou shut it down.
âReid.â
Your voice cuts through the air, sharper than you intended. The team stops, turning toward you. Even Foster straightens slightly, blinking at the sudden shift in tone. Spencer glances over, his expression a mixture of mild confusion and concern.
You exhale, tightening your grip on the case file in your hands. âWeâre here to solve a murder,â you say, your voice even but firm. âNot to make friends.â
Fosterâs eyebrows lift slightly, but she doesnât comment. Morgan, who had been watching the interaction unfold with barely concealed amusement, makes a low sound in his throatâsomething close to a chuckle. You ignore it.
âI wasnât aware discussing case patterns was off-limits,â Spencer says, tilting his head. His tone is neutral, but thereâs a hint of something else there.
You meet his gaze, keeping your own unreadable. âItâs not,â you say. âJust keep it relevant.â
Itâs not a lie. You are focused on the case. You do want to keep things professional. Thatâs all this is. Thatâs the only reason your patience is stretched thin.
Except.
Except you can still feel the ghost of Fosterâs laugh curling around Spencerâs words. Except your shoulders havenât relaxed since the moment she touched him. Except your own thoughts are turning against you, pressing in like a vice, asking the question you really donât want to answerâ
If youâre so unaffected, why do you have to convince yourself of it?
â
The investigation continues with the same steady pace, but your attention keeps wandering.
Every time you glance toward Spencer and Foster, you find her leaning in a little too close, her voice a little too sweet as she asks him to clarify some trivial detail. Sheâs carefulâalways carefulânever quite crossing a line, but the way she speaks to him, the way she looks at him, it grates at you.
The word âunprofessionalâ loops endlessly in your mind, but each time you tell yourself that, something inside you pushes back.
Youâre not jealous. You just want her to focus. This is a case, for Godâs sake.
But the more she smiles at him, the more he just stands there, absorbed in the conversation, oblivious to the subtle dance sheâs performing, the more that uncomfortable twist in your stomach tightens. Every laugh, every overly familiar gesture, stirs something inside you that you canât quite name.
You can feel your teeth grinding as they talk, your gaze hardening on the two of them. Youâre trying to focus on the case, youâre trying to ignore the nagging irritation building in your chest, but the more they interact, the more annoyed you become.
Sheâs practically flirting, and Spencer isnât doing anything about it. Or, if he is noticing, heâs pretending it doesnât bother him.
But it bothers you. Why does it bother you?
Your fingers tighten around the edge of the evidence bag in your hand, and before you know it, youâre standing too close to them, watching as Foster tries to steer Spencer away from the group to discuss something you know is irrelevant to the case.
Itâs not urgent. You know itâs not urgent. But when you hear the soft cadence of her voice inviting Spencer to join her for a âquick chatâ away from the others, the words explode out of you.
âReid.â you say sharply, the sound of his name a snap. The words feel harsh even to your own ears.
Spencerâs head jerks around, blinking at you in surprise. His lips part, but you cut him off again, your voice colder than you intended. âCome on, weâre leaving.â
Foster stops mid-sentence, blinking in confusion at the sudden interruption. Her eyes flick to Spencer, and then back to you. The tension in the air thickens, but you donât care.
You donât care.
Except you do. And that makes it worse.
Spencerâs gaze softens as he turns back to you, the furrow in his brow deepening, something akin to concern flashing across his face. It only makes you more frustrated.
âIâm not finished yet,â Spencer protests quietly, but thereâs a careful note in his voice, the kind that suggests heâs trying to be diplomatic, to avoid upsetting you.
You blink, realising youâve taken another step too far. Your heart skips a beat at the softness in his voice, and for just a moment, you feel guilty. Heâs just trying to help, trying to be professional. And yet, the only thing you can focus on is her.
You donât let the guilt linger long. âThen stop getting distracted.â you snap, then force yourself to look away, eyes darting back to the scene as if it somehow holds your attention now. Youâre already backing off, leaving the words hanging in the air.
Spencer stares at you for a beat longer than necessary, confusion and concern still flickering in his eyes, but he doesnât press it. He doesnât argue, doesnât question you further. Instead, he shifts back toward the group, muttering something to Morgan about a pattern in the evidence, and you hear the subtle shift in his voiceâheâs letting it go.
But you donât feel relieved.
The knot in your chest tightens again. Why did you say that? Why did you let her get to you?
You tell yourself itâs about professionalism. Itâs about the case. You donât have time for distractions, not when the clock is ticking. And you definitely donât have time to unravel this feeling thatâs spreading through you like an infection.
Spencer doesnât argue. He doesnât snap back at you, doesnât give you the defensive posture that you might expect from anyone else. Instead, he does something that immediately pulls the rug out from under you.
He looks at you.
Really looks at you.
For a moment, the world around you blurs, the noise of the crime scene and the murmurs of the team fading into the background. Itâs just Spencerâs eyes, filled with something you canât quite placeâconcern, maybe, or confusion, maybe a little of both. But itâs soft. Too soft.
Your pulse spikes, and for a split second, it feels like the floor is tipping beneath you. Itâs so disarming, the quiet concern in his gaze, and it makes the frustration building inside you flare even higher.
âAre you okay?â
The question is simple, unassuming, and it cracks something inside you. Itâs not a challenge, not a reprimandâitâs genuine, and thatâs what makes it harder to brush off.
No. Youâre not okay.
Youâre furious, but you canât explain why. Youâre hurt, but you canât pinpoint the cause. Youâre jealous, and the idea of admitting that to yourself is enough to send your thoughts spiraling. And all the while, Spencerâs standing there, oblivious to the storm building inside you, just waiting for your response.
You canât look at him anymore.
âIâm fine,â you mutter quickly, not meeting his eyes. You swallow, forcing your chest to loosen, fighting the sudden weight that presses down on your shoulders.
Your words come out stiff, rehearsed, and even to your own ears, they sound like a lie. But you say them anyway. Because itâs easier than admitting the truth.
You donât wait for him to say anything else. You turn abruptly, your boots echoing on the concrete floor as you walk away, away from Spencer and away from the nagging feeling that he might see through you if you stay.
But youâre not running. Youâre not hiding. Youâre just⊠focused.
At least, thatâs what you tell yourself.
As you round the corner, your mind keeps racing, fighting to keep everything in order. You tell yourself you donât care about the detectiveâs attention.
You tell yourself itâs unprofessional, itâs inappropriate. And you tell yourself that youâve seen it all before, that Spencerâs just being Spencerâoblivious to the subtle ways people gravitate toward him.
But none of that feels convincing anymore.
By the time youâve reached the far side of the warehouse, your hands are trembling slightly. You push them into your pockets, trying to centre yourself. You feel the familiar coldness wrapping around you again, your professional mask sliding back into place like armour. Itâs easier this way.
A sharp breath escapes your lips as you lean against the wall, your head pressed back, eyes closed for a moment. Focus.
You force yourself to take another breath. Youâre here for the case. Thatâs all.
But as the minutes pass, the tight knot in your chest refuses to loosen, and all you can think about is the way Spencerâs face looked when he asked you that question. Are you okay?
And, just for a fleeting second, you wonder if he knows more than you think.
â
The rest of the case proceeds, but something has shifted.
Thereâs an undeniable tension nowâboth around you and within you. As you walk through the newest crime scene, examining evidence and speaking with witnesses, Spencer doesnât give you the space youâd expected.
He stays close, hovering just behind you, always near enough that you can feel the warmth of his presence even when youâre too busy to glance at him.
Heâs speaking to you more than usual, asking for your input first, even in situations where itâs clear he already has the answers. Itâs as if heâs checking in with you constantly, gauging your reaction before making any decisions of his own.
The subtle shift doesnât go unnoticed by anyone. Foster, who had been so eager to claim his attention earlier, is starting to back off, visibly frustrated by his sudden disinterest in her suggestions. She tries a few more times to pull him away for a âquick chat,â but Spencer doesnât respond to her advances the way he did before.
Instead, he looks to you.
âHey, I think we might need a second look at the victimâs phone records,â he says, voice casual but with an edge of expectation, like he already knows youâll agree. âWhat do you think?â
You pause, the request startling you slightly. Spencer doesnât usually ask for your opinion on the more technical aspects of a case, but you donât have time to process it. The words come automatically.
âYeah, definitely. It might give us a window into the unsubâs next move.â
Spencer nods in approval, his face softening slightly as he absorbs your response. But thereâs something else there, something unspokenâa quiet acknowledgment.
He doesnât say anything, just continues to stay close as the investigation progresses, as if heâs subtly keeping his distance from Foster without even addressing it.
Youâre still frustratedâat him, at the detective, at yourselfâbut thereâs a tiny, almost imperceptible shift in your chest. That small part of you that feels like youâve been seen. That he noticed.
Every time Foster attempts to direct him away from the group, Spencer brushes her off with a polite but clear, âIâll be right with you,â his eyes flicking to you before he moves to stand closer. You donât say anything. Youâre not sure you even want to acknowledge it. But itâs thereâan undercurrent you canât ignore.
Your mind still races with frustration. You canât shake the gnawing feeling that somethingâs off, and you canât decide if itâs the case, the detective, or yourself. But every time Spencer looks to you for direction, every time he positions himself just a little too close, your frustration starts to dull, replaced by something else.
Heâs noticing you. Heâs listening.
When the team breaks for a quick huddle to discuss their next steps, Spencer stands beside you. Not next to Morgan or Hotch, not pulling away to talk to Foster. Heâs deliberately close, his shoulder just grazing yours as he flips through his notes.
âYou alright?â he asks again, in that soft, concerned tone that makes you almost uncomfortable. Itâs like heâs waiting for you to admit something, like he already knows thereâs something youâre not saying.
You want to brush him off, to tell him to stop worrying about you, but the question catches you off guard. For a brief moment, the irritationâtoward him, toward Foster, toward everythingâsubsides, and you're left with something unspoken hanging between you two.
"Iâm fine," you mutter again, a little more convincingly this time, even though itâs not true. But you canât find the words to explain it. Not when youâre still trying to convince yourself that none of this should matter.
Spencer doesnât push. He just nods, the faintest flicker of a smile tugging at his lips before he pulls away to engage with the team, but he keeps an eye on you, always just a little more attentive than usual.
You try to shake off the feeling that thisâwhatever this isâmatters, but itâs hard to deny. The connection between you two is there, unspoken, and for some unknown reason youâre feeling a lot more vulnerable than usual.
And that, more than anything, is what frustrates you the most.
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au work content, female! readers race not specified, dark content ( BAU content ), some nsfw content.
DEREK MORGAN & FOX! READER who had only been together for a couple months before his colleagues were sniffing at his clothes and giving each other knowing looks. of course, the looks donât go missed by derek himself but he simply chooses to ignore them and let your smell cling to his shirt for the next couple weeks.
DEREK MORGAN who fully intended on keeping you to himself for a whileânot out of shame, never thatâheâs just not quite ready to give up the privacy of having his little secret yet. he intended on leaving it at small teasing and âneeding to meet the misses soon.â a couple of grins, some smooth diversionsâthat had been enough. until one day, on the plane.
their places were already assigned by hotch, and there had been maybe two seconds of silence before emily broke it. âmâ just gonna ask what everyoneâs been wonderingâwhoâs the vampire?â emily teases, pointing at derekâs neck, her eyes bright with mischief. derekâs brow furrows until he mirrors her motion, his fingers brushing over the faint mark on his neck. then he remembers youâthe way youâd smiled at him that morning, kissed him soft and sleepy before leaving him with a playful nipâand his mouth stretches into a wide, satisfied grin.
everyone is watching now, waiting. ânone of your business. focus on the case,â derek says, his voice low and pointed. they all groan in unison. âohh,â emily sings, eyes wide with mock scandal. âokay, mr. hit-it-and-quit-it.â
derekâs head snaps toward her, offended. âfor the record, i am not hitting and quitting.â he points a finger at her. âItâs more of a hitting it and keeping it.â he gestures to spencer. âtell âem, spence.â spencer immediately stiffens, wide-eyed. he looks at emily, caught. sheâd had been interrogating him about for months. âiâ i just found out like two days ago!â
emilyâs mouth drops open. âso you did know!â she laughs, tossing a napkin at him. spencer looks down at it like itâs betrayed him. âwait, so youâve seen her?â jj asks, shifting forward in her seat, suddenly a little too invested. derekâs eyes narrow. âheyââ
âyouâre always worrying about who weâre interested in,â jj shrugs, shifting the file in her hand. âsheâs got a point,â rossi chimes in with a shrug. âhey!â derekâs tone is all faux-offense, but his grin is sharp. âalright, alright, letâs stop harassing morgan and focus,â hotchâs voice cuts through the playful noise, his tone completely contrasting his slight grin.
âthank you,â derek sighs, settling deeper into his seat. but the low sound of soft laughs and teasing smiles linger.
DEREK MORGAN who is more than a little selfish about you even though he has no real reason to be. maybe because you have nothing to do with the BAUâand he likes it that wayâor even though you donât, youâre always keeping him on his toes and very much entertained. you make him work for it without even realizing you are, and derek? he wouldnât have it any other way.
FOX! READER who always gives derek the illusion of control. heâs used to chasingâthrives off itâand the fact that you donât even seem to notice youâre being chased just makes him want you more. youâre the sweetest to everyone on the teamâalways polite, always warmâbut with derek, youâre different. you give him a hard time, whether on purpose or not, and derek loving this is an understatementâhe adores it. he lives for the playful push-pull, the teasing edge you give him. and when he needs itâwhen the weight of the day is sitting too heavy on his shouldersâyou donât hesitate to be soft for him. no teasing, no resistance. just quiet warmth and your touch, grounding him instantly.
FOX! READER walks with grace in every step, always in loafers or thick-heeled shoes that click against the floor with quiet confidence. derekâs eyes track you every time. he adores your legsâalways finding an excuse to slide his hand along your thigh, or press his mouth to the back of your knee when youâre curled up together. heâs obsessed with the necklace you always wearâthe delicate chain resting just above the neckline of whatever low-cut shirt youâve chosenâand heâll trace his thumb over it absently as he kisses your throat, lazy and lingering. youâre quietly confident, showing it in the way you move and the way you speakânot cocky, just assured.
FOX! READER who lets derek carry all the jealousy on his own because you almost have none. you know where his loyalty stands and youâre sure no oneâs taking derek from you. sure, you might give a hard glance to someone whoâs getting a little too close, but you donât need to say anything. derek handles it.
âthought she was gonna kiss you if you moved over an inch,â you say, amused as you lean back in your seat, eyes sharp. derekâs mouth twitches. comically, he shifts a little closer, arm resting along the back of your chair. âdo I get a kiss?â you raise an eyebrow, lazy smile playing on your face. âsure you donât want to try her first?â derekâs eyes darken, his hand sliding to your thigh. âiâm damn sure.â and of course, you give him that kiss.
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