- "Self Portraits, Roses And Her Brain...on Fire", Astha

:(

"I don't want to feel like this,

but this is all I feel..."

21:57 pm

How loud, would she have been, with glistening red tears of fury, loss, and wars within...

Who would've maimed her autumnal skies, rose skin, gentle aesthete, and country choruses, enough to spiral into a dark vacuum of shambolic ambitions?

How loud, would she have been, to chisel a world within...to feel so much only to feel nothing...

I have dreams,

big enough,

to be buried within...

I didn't know of people being placid yet devoured ,in times of uncertainty, writing prophecies of each other's doom...

I am 🤏🏽 close to running away to some abandoned palace and secretly live there forever...

- "Autumn", Astha

I hear laughter in your wailing eyes ,

I see sinners in disguise,

I hear chants of broken prayers,

I see failed and anguished men...

all , as I seek for hope in the worst of times

all, as I seek for hope in the worst of times...

I lost so much,

I thought I had nothing...

I wanna be a cat so bad

I am still stuck in a reality that doesn't exist anymore...