"[ chin up ] sender lifts receiver's chin to stop them from hiding their tears" says @sxrgeant
contrary to popular belief, there's nothing poetic about coming back from the dead. for natasha it was like being dipped in water from the top of her head to the toes on her feet. chills surrounding her when she found herself back on earth. remembering that she'd been falling and then suddenly she was home. she should be fortunate, she should consider it a blessing. that's what people kept telling her. but natasha can't—no matter how hard she tries—she can't find it in herself to feel anything but frustration that the sacrifice she had made and the peace she had believed she would find were gone. and then the sadness comes in waves that despite her best efforts, natasha can't find the joy to be reunited with the people who love her and mourned her.
time. anyone she told these feelings to had sworn that with time she would feel better. but how the hell would they know?
her eyes are raised, feeling as heavy as her heart, staring at him for a moment, almost unaware that she had been crying. there's a shaky exhale as the palms of her hands come up to wipe the tears from her cheeks.
"i'm so sorry, james. i'm not much fun to be around these days."
maybe she needed to get back to work, find a place where she could do more good rather than staring at the four walls that surrounded her, claiming that she was retired.
@guiltburdened asked: Send a 📸 to see 3-5 pictures that my muse has/has taken of your muse(s) -bucky or maybe yelena
photos natasha has of bucky
photos natasha has of yelena
This is something that I have been working on since I started playing Natasha way back when, I will continue to add things as I come up with ideas. If you see something that you’d like to do with little old me please feel free to send me a message. The cool part about the multi verse part of this blog is ideas can be done with more than one muse.
auntie nat content. — this is basically the whole bulletin. auntie nat content is the best content and i will forever love it.
red room into kbg things. — young natasha things before SHIELD, aka threads that will hit right in the feels.
assistant natalie rushman. — this can be during the iron man setting or maybe her going back to work as pepper’s assistant after iron man. she could be undercover or it could be after the fall of SHIELD. i am open to all of the things.
general undercover things. - natasha on missions in places where she might run into people she wouldn't normally.
looking into her roots. — nat wanting to learn more about where she comes from in an attempt to learn more about herself. yes, thank you. it could be during the fall of SHIELD or after Black Widow?
on the run. — natasha on the run after civil war trying to help her friends stay undercover, either before or after black widow timeline. plus we can always have nat visiting people that she shouldn't while she's on the run.
during the five years. — natasha running the avengers compound was always a storyline that grabbed my attention. she needs the purpose in doing that to feel like she’s not completely losing control. but also, her helping the children who lost their parents after the snap.
natasha being snapped. — give me an AU where nat was the one of the people snapped and her having to deal with the aftermath of coming back five years later.
natasha training. — it could be new members of the avengers team or her working with the young avengers. i am open to all of the things.
post-endgame things. — a) this blog follows the ‘return the soul and get the soul back’ for the ease of the mun and i’d love to explore her coming to peace with the fact that she did die, people mourned her but now she’s back. b) nat never died, clint did, or give me an au where someone else went with her to vormir and they did. both of these options will have lots of angst.
family things. — nat with her found family, nat with yelena, nat with adopted children, give me all of the feels.
retirement. — nat retired but for some reason no one else can get that she keeps finding herself being dragged in for whatever reason.
natasha living a normal life. — a) nat actually being happy and living a normal life where she was raise by her parents and instead she’s just a regular old person who found her way to new york for work. b) undercover normal life where she is doing things for SHIELD.
memory loss natasha. — better known as getting to play threads as natalia who loses her memory for whatever reason and has no trust for anyone in her life.
@sxrgeant gets a starter because i said so
she's intrigued by the thought of people living their lives after she'd been on vacation... (what else did you call it when you faux die for a stone to help save the universe?) and she has to wonder if that's what it was like for the people who were blipped. she's heard that it was like no time had passed but everything around you was different. natasha would call her time from vormir to the time she was back on earth similar. like she'd been there one second and the next she was home but it seemed everything had changed. listening to everyone else share their stories helps her forget that she's not supposed to be here. it alleviates from some of the constant anxiety that she's constantly radiating. she listens intently to james share his story, chin supported by her hand as she sits legs crossed in the seat across from him. "so where's sam now? i mean, what's next?"
Now hush little baby don't you cry , everything's gonna be alright.
natasha nods, understanding the reaction, the uncertainty in her answer. for a moment, the redhead considers her options before electing to speak. "I'm sorry for not checking in on you sooner, but the last thing I wanted to do was overwhelm you." justification for ignoring a child? great job, romanoff.
Since Tony brought her on, Ana has felt like the redhead had been avoiding her. This wasn't new; people didn't tend to notice her, so it wasn't really done on purpose. However, Tony clarified to Natasha who Ana was and her importance to him. So it was shocking when the woman spoke to her in a pretty friendly manner. It honestly took her aback. The blonde probably looked like a fish gasping for air before collecting herself enough to respond. "I'm…good, I guess?"
there is no competition. respectfully, you could never be me. disrespectfully, i would never want to be you.
update i loved it.
time for captain america brave new world!
@blkhcrt pressed the ♥ for a starter
"do you choose to linger in the dark shadows for dramatic effect because i've got to be honest with you, i've known you were following me for about three blocks now." natasha shrugs as the words leave her mouth, choosing now to turn and look at the other. "wouldn't it be easier to just tell me what you need instead of this whole lurking and brooding nonsense?"
ANGER WAS : BETTER THAN TEARS BETTER THAN GRIEF BETTER THAN GUILT
WHEN SHE WAS young THEY GAVE HER A GUN AND SAIDshoot and run. IT'S A JOB WELL DONE.
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