The Gods Must Hate Me Today Bc Not Only Did I Eat Shit And Fall Running Up A Hill,

The evolution of (trans) man.

(Well, this one, anyway.)

Age 9: "Tomboy"

Age 15: Strictly enforced femininity

Age 30: Hitting the mental limits of being closeted all his life and about to crash HARD

Age 47: Fifteen years now since starting transition. Far more good days than bad, no regrets.

The world may be full of uncertainty and danger, but I resolve to continue to find joy in who I am. Be joyful to be kind to yourself and be joyful to spite the bastards who would tear us apart.

my stereotypical trans name was elliot with the nickname as eli when i first came out back in 2020/2021

(i detransitioned due to transphobia but again, story for another day)

and it stuck with me

it isnt the name i use today but i use it in other ways

like the email i made when i came out includes it

i dont like it for me anymore but it was the name that helped me discover who i truly am

so

i dont mind the name elliot / eli

if i planned on changing my middle name,

id probably make it that

what i’ll probably do is tell people that my middle name is eli but not change it

my middle name means too much to my family, especially my mother that i cant imagine changing it

(but thats a story for another day)

"transphobes only see trans women as a threat to (cis) women, not trans men." wrong. we are seen as gender traitors, mentally unwell, evil etc. people who will groom young naive girls into mutilating their bodies as well as dumb childish women who don't know what's good for them and who are ruining their bodies. we are both seen as a threat to our own "womanhood" as well as others. please don't forget/erase us when discussing this topic.

this is actually the reason WHY i didnt come out for so long

i used to say shit like that before i realized i was a dude, my “friends” used to say shit like that, my mom used to say stuff like that

i was scared of realizing that i was a man due to the way everyone talked about them around me

i was nothing like the men they were saying men acted but was scared so badly of being seen that way that i boxed my thoughts of being trans up and sent them to the back of my mind

it was only until i finally felt comfortable (after i dropped all my those shitty people i called “friends”) that i finally let myself discover who i was

i genderfluided myself into a man and never changed back

this comment is also something i picked up on too

ive literally had a trans woman tell me (who used to act the way listed above) that she and many trans women who act like that are insecure about masculinity due to their transition so take it out on people who want to be masculine

im just tired of the queer community hating me for wanting to be a man

im so tired of radfeminism being the main feminist movement in social media

it isnt actual feminism its hatred in a trench coat wearing a mask with the words “feminism”

Yeah probably if you haven't lived the life of a trans man seeing people go "I don't like when people joke about hating men" or something along that line, it probably sounds mra ish.

But in my everyday life, people only address me as a man when they are using it to insult me. I forgot to do XYZ? That's me being a dumb man. I'm talking too long? I'm mansplaining. Etc etc. These are the only times in my real life that people will address me as a man. That's why we use the term 'malgendering', that's why many hate those "trans inclusive misandry" jokes. Because that's the only thing people are trans inclusive in.

my brothers response to me starting hrt a few weeks ago

im so happy being on tumblr rather than twitter since its easier for me to see/interact with other trans men and transmascs

on twitter the only stuff i ever see about transmascs are people denying our existence and experiences and, very rarely, artwork

Hi everyone! I'm Mouse!

Some of you may recognize me from the trans deer centaur comic I made on here a few years ago. (As seen below)

While most of you still probably don't know me at all- and that's okay!

I'm hoping to bring a lot of art and good vibes to the community here. So, having said that- welcome to my cottage! Sit down, stay awhile, grab a blanket and a cozy drink while I tell you a story and show you my art ^^

the constant struggle

word of advice!!!

never fly standby.

ESPECIALLY when the flight is for you returning back home!!!

we havent been able to get onto 2 flights now!!!

its 3am!!!

im on the verge of a mental breakdown!!!

i want to go home!!!

i have to stop myself from cracking my skull on the wall!!!

and we might not be able to go home for 2 days!!!!!

isnt that fun!!!!!!?

shapeshift!