Fanfic AU:

You know what?

I love you, fics that take months to update. I click on the newest chapter and have no memory of this place and get to go back some chapters and rediscover how much i love everything about this story.

I love you, fics that take years to update. I think of you fondly, and know your names, go search for you and see an update from this year and scream, diving in uncaring of any missed details (i will finish the update and read you in reverse because this is a treat you have bestowed)

I love you, fics that probably will never update again. Thank you for being a roman empire for my mind, thank you for teaching me about the ephemeral fandom experience, for inspiring a thousand million what if-s, for being a comfort read and a nostalgia read and a reread.

I love you fic writers, who jump into projects and stories with enthusiasm. I love you when you succeed in pumping out those chapters and that love doesn't go away when you stop.

I love you fic writers who post and then get in your own head and never feel confident enough to update, whether it's at all or whether it's just that one story.

I love you fic writers, who have a fandom or media hurt you to the point of abandoning or having a hard time with their WIPs.

I love you fic writers, who lose interest or have life changes or illness or bad memory. Thank you for being part of the fandom, a core part of the fandom. Thank you for the time spent in the fandom.

I love you, fic writers who try out something new and then stop. You're so valid.

I love you, WIP fics that may or may not ever get finished. Thank you for brightening my day in the way only you could have.

HEY. YOURE COOL!!!!!

NO YOURE COOL

Every single fic update there is an author trying frantically to find the right balance between a nonchalant aside of "leave a comment if you enjoyed =)" and clinging desperately to the coat tails of a random stranger, dragging along behind them on the street wailing "Please, please! I have to know what you thought! I'm desperate to talk to people about this! Ask me about the alliterative repetition! Ask me about the symbolism!"

uhhhhh anyone who wants to do it, feel free to! but also @ceramicwings @swordsmans @portgas-d-aroace @saraisanamazingcow @emilyelizabethfowl

Thanks for the tag bestie !! @umbreonwolfy

no pressure tags: @melonkka @danifart @jadedpoets @thegrumpyjournalist @clarabowmp3 @astrariums @tolerateit @lingering-sunrise @this-love-is-delicate @redwidow616 @animallover4000 @coffeeisaritual @rocketsaurus @closetoyou-pdf

opening up my own fanfiction document on my personal laptop to see if the author has updated it yet

"Please... live... so we can all meet again!"

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me: aw man this persons art is so cool and so impressive!! and from what i've seen they're really nice and funny, they also just said they'd be fine with people reaching out to be friends, so maybe i can-

my anxiety, grabbing me like im a squeaky toy: if you so much as send them an ask off anon they are going to beat you to death with hammers

I POSTED THIS 30 MINUTES AGO AND I HAD A TYPO I MEANT

"Grief is something you don't get over"

I forgot to put the don't earlier omg this is so ruined I MEANT IT LIKE

Ok what's worse: the strawhats waiting a lifetime for luffy to return to them, or luffy becoming immortal and outliving everyone he cares about?

The first scenario reminds me of that Bojack Horseman quote, "Was it worth it to be happy for a little bit even though it ended up sad? Or would it have been better if the whole thing never happened?" I think this isn't as bad as the immortality scenario because the Straw Hats have each other to lean on, and if they reach the end of their life without Luffy returning, maybe they'll be happy—thinking that Luffy's waiting on the other side for them.

I think immortality is one of the cruelest punishments you could put on someone, especially Luffy, considering his unique relationship with death. It's one of the OP endings I hope Oda doesn't use (through Law's Devil Fruit power).

Grief is something you don't get over. It'll always be there, but you grow to live with it. Knowing Luffy, he'd find new people to love and journey with, but they'd leave him all the same, and loneliness is Luffy's greatest weakness. I don't want to imagine this kind of torture on him.

doodling