*opens Word Doc Covered In Blood* It Doesn’t Have To Be Good. It Just Has To Be Done.

there is so much light shining out of you. allow yourself to embrace it. allow the world to embrace it

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Leila Chatti, from “Tea”

Magnolias are so ancient plants that almost every other plant and insect who came to being around the same time as them has gone extinct by now. They are the loneliest plants in this world. Does anybody understand how much grief it gives me that the symbolic flower of Kuras is magnolia.

Cygnus Wall Region.

Isaac Ilyich Levitan ( Russia 1860 - 1900 )

Before the Storm  1890

Beltane tarot reading (look at how well my tarot deck knows its owner) and my new bullet journal monthly cover page (I didn't feel like doing anything special so ai just had fun with the font).

01|05|2023

I am staring the month feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything I have to do for uni. I have yet to find a new routine for this next month of classes, and this is troubling me more than I expected. I did take today off from studying since it's an holiday here and starting from tomorrow I will be on my regular schedule. I plan on catching up some more with the history of religions lectures I have missed/ that have been uploaded online only. I don't know yet whehter I'll be done with them by the end of the morning when I'll have to commute to uni, but I plan on being caught up by the end of the week. I did a some planning to see everything I'll have to study in the next two months and I am not going to lie it's a lot, especially considering how little I can do during the week due to my long commute to uni. I am considering skipping classes on Wednesdays (that professor records lectures and uploades them online very quickly) in order to get more time to do everything. Since I will have lots to juggle these new few months I might even bring back a good old productivity challenge. I am also considering a few posts in which I explain how I am planning to tackle all this stuff I have to do.

Productivity:

finished the audiobook of Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

wrote the first draft of its review

practiced Irish on duolingo

updadted my reading journal

created the first weekly spread for the new month in my bujo and did a bit of planning for what I have to study in the next couple of months (this definitely made me feel better about this overwhelming sensation, sitting down and planning calms my brain and I am trying to have faith in my organizational skills)

did some crosswords with my parents (it's something we often do during the holidays, but it'f fun doing them together)

did a tarot reading for a friend

Self care:

selpt in

took the day off since it's a holiday and I had no classes

read first thing in the morning

finally had the time to sit doen with a cup of tea and read the latest letter my beloved penpal sent me (and I plan on doing a couple of big letter writing session in the afternoons of this week when I get home from uni to answer both to them and to my digital penpal)

did a tarot reading for myself

📖:Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

🎵:Good Enemy by PVRIS

31.03.2023 I confessed I did something reckless to my health (mentally and physically), need to remind myself and you (my fellow reader who work so hard for themselves) to not let yourself be too exhausted doing your academic. :( I spend from 8 pm till 4 am managing individual paper and groupwork paper, and it wasn't healthy to do so. I skipped my suhoor and the morning, I felt so drained mentally that I wanted to cry but your girl had online presentation in the afternoon 2 pm. It wasn't rewarding feeling. Won't do it again.

After the class, I just laid down in bed and read. The reading calms me down a bit and yay, to slowly reaching my book goal.

(MAKE SURE YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, READER, OR ELSE I WOULD MAKE YOUR ICED COFFEE MELTS FASTER OR YOUR HOT DRINKS BECOME COLD FAST. Maybe worse, it spills) 💕

Trying to finish a report during semester break. Feeling overwhelmed by the long list of deadlines and somewhat feeling stuck even if you've been productive? Thank you to bestie for accomopanying me even if we share different Masters course.

“ᴡʜʏ ᴄᴀᴛs ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ: ᴀ ᴛʜᴇᴏʀʏ ᴏғ ғᴇʟɪɴᴇ ᴀᴇsᴛʜᴇᴛɪᴄs”, 1994. x

“I’m not everything I want to be, but I’m more than I was, and I’m still learning.”

— Charlotte Eriksson, Everything Changed When I Forgave Myself