Also I Just Really Badly Wanna Post New Fanfics But Don’t Wanna Leave A Graveyard

Even when you wanna be pale, sometimes you gotta sun like a lizard for your own mental health

You know what, I’m just gonna become hot topic hedgehog. Yeah

Park Lake- mhw #2

Previously I said I was going to the canyon for my next big walk, but my vehicle and state of mind both said no, so I took a trip to a nearby regional park.

I love how cheap entry is and it’s a park that holds a lot of memories for me as I used to participate in a summer day camp as a kid that would take place there. My scout days are far behind me now.

One of the many bird residents of the park. The Canadian Geese of course are the most abundant and the loudest. I was hesitant eating my lunch near them.

Ordinarily I would take two loops around, but this time I went once around the lake and then sat at some of the many benches for a while.

I didn’t have my headphones with me so my mind uncomfortably ruminated during a majority of the walk. So I mostly just tried to focus on all the chatter of the ducks and geese who were yelling at each other about who knows what.

It’s also pleasant to see people fishing and having fun together. I have a complicated relationship with the activity of fishing but if I were to ever have access to my old gear, perhaps I’d take it up again. But I was here to walk, not fish.

Lake and bench.

If you ever get a chance to just stop by a lake, I recommend taking the time to birdwatch. Last time I was at the lake, I watched a goose get into a fight with a squirrel who was trying to steal bread from one of her babies. It was a very heated battle.

Even if I still feel uncertain if any of my mental health was repaired from this walk, I’m just grateful for the fact that I could see some pretty nature and got in about an hour of exercise. Something I learned from therapy is that recording what you are grateful for can also help you feel better.

And thus, I am grateful for the memories this park has given me, the geese, the other wildlife, the shimmers of the lake, the friendly fisherman, the cheap entry tickets, and the many park benches/shelter stations.

-Roland Barthes

The Friend Loss period from 2020-2023

I have discovered that apparently a variety of people (myself included) lost a great number of friends during the following years. And to clarify, by loss I don’t mean death, I mean falling outs for whatever number of reasons.

The number of people I lost? Eleven. And I don’t know if I particularly would like to vent on the internet as to how the these circumstances occurred, but it’s mainly stupid drama and one unknown as of the current moment.

The Logic part of me wants to say that it’s all coincidence, but the spiritual part of me wants to know of it’s something more.

Maybe I’m just at that age of my life as other Gen Zs where I’m finding out more about myself and it doesn’t quite mesh with those I had previously surrounded myself with.

Maybe COVID had something to do with this too, after people spent so much time in isolation? I can theorize all I want, but still have no clue.

To quote my favorite movie, Eternal Sunshine, “What a loss to spend that much time with someone only to find out they’re a stranger.”

8 years and all in between down the drain. This sucks ass.

So sad I enjoyed this movie to only find out after the fact they used AI. Really REALLY good storytelling, to the point I want to write about this movie. Just disappointed they didn’t want to hire artists to add to their vision on the cutaway scenes. :(

This movie used AI…

Anybody else got that Evergiven sized writers block

Happy Halloween 🎃

They carved it just for you 🖤

Think it’s time I put out into the world my Changeling that may or may not just be my life but put into a bleak poor man’s fantasy setting

Excuse me as I obsess about this movie for the next week

Stopmotion (2023)

Ella Blake is a stop-motion animator who is struggling to control her demons after the loss of her overbearing mother. Suddenly alone in the world, she creates a macabre new puppet film, while struggling to maintain her sanity. As Ella’s mind starts to fracture, the characters in her animated film take on a terrifying life of their own, and the unleashed power of her imagination threatens to destroy her.   IFC Films and Shudder distribute in the US. Scott Shooman, head of AMC Networks’ film group was quoted saying: “IFC and Shudder are ecstatic to bring Robert Morgan’s riveting live-action/animation hybrid to audiences everywhere. ’Stopmotion’ is excellent as it weaves together a unique, psychological-horror with unbelievable visuals. The film joins the ranks of critically acclaimed titles such as ‘Mad God’ and ‘The Wolf House’ – breaking ground for how we perceive stop-motion in horror. We are thrilled to distribute Morgan’s first full-length feature for its theatrical release and presence on our streaming platform, Shudder.” The feature film directorial debut of Robert Morgan. Described as an “elevated horror film” and a “live-action/animation hybrid.” IFC Films releases Stopmotion in Theaters on February 23, 2024. Stopmotion premieres on Shudder on May 31, 2024. IMDb Director: Robert Morgan Dread Central:  ‘Stopmotion’ Director Robert Morgan Explains Why Meat Doesn’t Make Good Puppets Bloody Disgusting:  ‘Stopmotion’ Trailer Brings Eerie Puppet to Life in Psychological Horror Movie Rue Morgue:  GET ANIMATED OVER THE NEW TRAILER FOR IFC AND SHUDDER’S DISTURBING “STOPMOTION”   Read the full article