Every Month Is No Nut November For Me, Seeing As I Am Allergic To Almonds [they Make Me Guts Feel Like

Enikő Katalin Eged (Hungarian, b. 1992, Budapest, Hungary) - Year of the Rabbit, Digital Art

Immortality. 1901. Endpaper. 

i hate that my instincts always seem to be at odds with my desires

Erik von Ploennies started painting in 2004, after visiting the Guggenheim Museum in New York. He says that it was because of the impression made on him by Vassili Kandinsky  (“Painting with white border”).

Erik is a graduate in electrical engineering and has no artistic training… He is originally from California, but moved to Brooklyn, New York in 2007.

Although he is self-taught, Ploennies quickly stood out for his originality.

https://deconstructing-aesthetic-forms.weebly.com/erik…

Oh, the 12th House.

Sometime between middle and high school, I had a dream. I was using Tumblr, logging on, and seeing what other people were saying. There had been some catastrophe, and not everyone had the internet. It wasn't guaranteed. But I somehow had access to the internet, and I logged onto Tumblr through my TV. People hadn't posted in weeks, months.

I thought it was weird that I was scrolling through Tumblr on my TV. This was 2010. It wasn't a flat screen. It was big and chunky and a box. These days, you can check Tumblr on a TV. Technology has come a long way. Airplay. Screensharing. Smartphones.

Could that dream have been a premonition? Of the decline in use of Tumblr over the years. I had just discovered Tumblr in the 8th grade. I was one of the first users, back when hipsters and mustache and converse pictures were just about to become the rage. Myspace was still around, though becoming a graveyard more and more by the month. Scene kids never die though. Rawr :]

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What could the dream have meant? Perhaps that TV would be my own demise? My armageddon?

When I first read about the 12th house, I was a first-year at Centre College. The 'best' college in Kentucky. Private, small, liberal arts college with a hefty endowment. Most people have never heard of it. So much for the prestige and recognition.

I read Liz Green's article about the 12th house. I had just started getting into astrology. I'm smart. Was an IB / International Baccalaureate student at one of the best high school's in the city. But astrology gave my little 18 year old mind & heart some peace of mind. Homework and ambition can only do so much.

Harvard. Thanks to Gossip Girl, Brown University became my dream school. I applied Early Admission, seeing as the acceptance rate was slightly higher, and I thought my desire and longing to be upper class would carry the weight for my acceptance. AAAANNNHHHH!!!! Nope. Try again. You were just an above average student, thought not straight As or rich and well connected. Of course, this got my admittance to other good schools. Just not an Ivy. You probably would have hated it anyway, seeing as you had a nervous breakdown your second semester into college. And that was only two hours away from home! :) Rhode Island? not a chance.

My intuition told me not to go to Centre. But my ego persisted. I wanted to go to the best school in Kentucky, and I wouldn't settle for less.

I got so drunk the weekend I visited campus my senior year. The guy blamed himself for letting me get carried away. But I knew what I was doing. Granted I didn't mean to get that fucked up. But I wanted to get drunk. My bad homes.

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So, I wanted the conventionally successful life. I did. Graduate college in four years, maybe be a banker or something. Make money. It really seemed so simple to me. Then my life became a living hell. Torture. I became so reclusive. Would walk around in the night, and miss my classes in the morning. I had no money. No car. Surrounded by strangers, rich strangers, in a small town two hours from home.

I fell apart.

I ended up in the Psych ward for a week. Took the rest of the semester off to join a new religion, the Mormons. Came back the next Fall only to be completely miserable again in a couple weeks time.

I guess I just thought I could handle it. I wasn't disciplined enough to stick it out. I was crazy enough that it became too difficult.

I was in fact crazy. I didn't realize it at the time. I do now. It's why I blacked out all those years.

Thanks, 12th house.

The 12th house in Astrology. The house of Psych wards, Prisons, Monestaries, Rehabs. A single drop of water in the vast vast ocean.

The unconscious. Spirituality. Bipolar disorder. Photography. Drugs. Weird religion. Gay.

Boy, I had it in for me. All things considered.

I realized though, my dad's Sun was also in the 12th house. Mine and his. So I guess we asked for this. We're in this together. Two wackos.

Great.... :(

I guess what they say is true.

The 12th house makes you crazy. I'm living proof. But it also gave me psychic powers. Gifts. The days you feel like you are completely drowning, though, are the worst.

Hey🌸 loved your Neptune in 10th house description, I would love to hear your perspective on Neptune in 6th too.

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Hello love! Thank you so much for enjoying it. It would be my pleasure.

Neptune in the 6th house

They are people of kind and attentive nature, as long as they can help others they will not hesitate to do so. There is a healing quality to your presence and the way you interact with other people. Many feel understood by the native who not only gives them emotional support, but also practical support, being able to give a lot of good advice. They like the idea of ​​being there for someone and deep down they long to have someone (friend, partner or partner) who is there for them. They are very devoted in all kinds of relationships and expect that same devotion in return. They have a tendency to give more than they receive, so their lesson is to be devoted and generous in measure.

Their soul is sensitive, contemplative and empathetic, they can feel very intensely what the other feels. They may be drawn to work in fields that allow them to help, support, and care for people or animals. We can see veterinarians, doctors, nurses, teachers, healers, artists, astrologers and tarotists with this placement. Speaking of animals, they can feel a deep connection with them and can help the native to release stress, anxiety or depression. They are extremely kind and charitable people with any living being, including plants. Despite being very devoted to their work, they may have difficulty concentrating or following a very strict routine. Day to day can be overwhelming for them. They may choose to escape their emotional or real-world problems through long hours at work or a lot of sleep.

Throughout their lives they may be prone to frequent colds, multiple allergies or even a lack of iron. These natives are usually very hygienic and have a highly developed sense of smell, so good aromas can make them feel good almost instantly. They have a very sensitive nervous system, so it is very possible that they are very susceptible to stress and prone to nervousness or anxiety. They have a very good eye to analyze people and things, but beyond focusing on details, they are guided more by their intuition and the vibes they have of something or someone.

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