I'm Just Gonna Pretend When People Stare At Me In Public/their Heads Turn When I Walk By It's Because

me with the trip i wanted to go on

Chronic illness/disability culture is: overdoing it getting ready for an event to the point you can’t even enjoy the event (or possibly might not even make it at all.)

Being chronically ill and a “normal” illness on top of it (cold, flu etc etc) SUCKS

I see you

It sucks and it’s twice as painful and you’re twice as nauseous and can’t keep anything down and have less than the zero energy you had before

I see you I’m sorry it sucks and I’m right here with you

i hate when i, a completely healthy person (very chronically ill), get sick (flare up) for no reason at all (i exerted myself way past my limit just cuz i didn’t wanna be “annoying”)

making jokes about being chronically ill with my friends, because somehow things are a little less heavy when you laugh about it

not being able to sleep due to pain sucks, because sleep is the one time i am not in pain

started doing physical therapy again and my chronic pain got worse... really debating just quitting rn

doctors will give me a test and go “well obviously we hope it’s not that” and I’m sitting there like bitch I have been through so many tests so many doctors so many specialist I have been in the ER more times than I can count I almost do hope it is that because then at least I know what’s fucking wrong with me instead of walking into the ER with my issues and being told it’s anxiety even though I know it’s not

they CANCELLED the cardiologist appointment i was waiting for for OVER HALF A YEAR!

i was waiting for over an hour just to have someone come up to me to tell me they have to cancel and that i should call in 3 weeks to make a new appointment

the medical system is fucking bullshit and neglectful

sometimes i forget you can actually just pass out from pain

my body just said "nope"

can I have one *points at you*