Neyso - Ney

You know you’re fucked up when Regulus Black is your comfort character

akutagawa, climbing through the agency's window:

kunikida: hold it right there

akutagawa, scowling: i am not here for conflict, though i will not hesitate if it arises--

kunikida: yeah i know; ur here to see atsushi

akutagawa: i most certainly am NOT-

kunikida, ignoring him: well you can't see him today

akutagawa, immediately forgetting his protests: you wish to keep me apart from him--

kunikida: look, brat, atsushi is in trouble right now, he can't see you--

akutagawa, worried and angry: is he hurt? why did no one inform--

kunikida: what? no!

kunikida: he did something reckless, so he's in trouble. his punishment is that he can't see you

akutagawa:

akutagawa: what

kunikida: but since your already here, here's the agency's grocery list for the week

akutagawa:

kunikida: you can see atsushi again next week

akutagawa:

akutagawa: does it matter which brands i get or--

This is so real

guys this is going to sound really dumb. but. like does julian have other classes in other years? so THE greek class (richard, henry, etc.) are all in the same year of college, but obviously there are years younger than them, and people who used to be before them. like who did julian teach before them? who else does he teach if he does? this is what i’m curious about. 😔

day at the museum

insp. // it’s so fyodor coded i had to draw it

— Langston Hughes

Dazai is cruel. Dazai is abusive. In some way Dazai haven't changed and won't change. Dazai is manipulative. Dazai is dangerous. Many of Dazai's actions are disgusting. His actions could be perceived as inhumane. But Dazai is a human being.

It's always about being human. In your own eyes. In the eyes of others.

Dazai doesn't consider himself non-human because of his cruel actions. It's nothing about his morals. After all, Dazai had dealt with so many cruel people. He knows evil is human. He thinks he's lacking something. Something that makes others move forward. A purpose in life. Isn't he just lost?

Dazai's character is portrayed as infallible but it's not truth. To make mistakes is the most human thing you can think of (next to peeing in the shower). His mistake is that he can't tell he already has meaning in his life: working for ADA, protecting his friends, protecting the world.

"Anything I would never want to lose is always lost. It is a given that everything that is worth wanting will be lost the moment I obtain it. There’s nothing worth pursuing at the cost of prolonging a life of suffering." – he's always ready to leave. Dazai tries not to get attached. He's always ready to lose everything. Doesn't it make him just a passive observer in his own life? From a manga reader's perspective, we know he has significance to the story but Dazai sees himself as nothing. He's able to catch the moment only when it's already a memory. Dazai may think of himself non-human because he only lives his life halfway. He plays chess – he moves the pieces but does not appear on the board.

So even if you're a genius, still you're nothing more than a sinfully stupid and cruel human being.

imagine you have a boyfriend and your boyfriend is crazy and he blows up your car and disappears for four years and its like ok. whatever. it's over. and then he comes back and wants to get back together and do crazy shit like you used to together (when you were teenagers you killed a lot of people. normal activities) and then he gets himself put in prison (on purpose) to play mind game chess with a russian freak and he wants you to come break him out. but you can't break him out normal he INSISTS you have to glue vampire fangs on your canines and put in freaky contacts and pretend to shoot him point blank. through all of this he's got the biggest heart eyes in the world (including with a gun pointed at his forehead) and confesses his love twice. all of this happened to my good buddy nakahara chuuya

Real toxic historical period piece Old Man Yaoi about two bitter old men who have spent their entire lives in the closet, who married and raised families as expected, and are now trying to arrange a marriage between their respective adult children (who are not interested in each other) in order to have a permanent plausible excuse to spend a lot of alone time together in order to fuck like feral sodomites discuss the futures of their mutual grandchildren.

TSH spoilers:

I feel like we as a fandom do not talk about Henry’s symbolism in TSH enough. Like, that dude is the literal embodiment of death, and I just think it’s so damn cool. I mean, his whole obsession with language and literature stemmed from the fact that he almost died in a car accident. And then every death we see in the book (the farmer’s, Bunny’s, and his very own) is directly at his hands. The others were accomplices, sure, but Henry’s the one who takes action every time. And in Francis’s failed suicide and Richard’s near death in the epilogue, they both see Henry, not Bunny or Charles or what have you.

Henry is not only obsessed with death, he IS death. He’s the reaper who’s friends toy with their mortality all the time through drugs and booze. The reason they all admire him is not only because of his size and stature and brilliance; it’s because he’s dangerous. If beauty is indeed terror, than he’s the most beautiful of them all. They all have the life preservation skills of a fly, so of course they love Henry. And of course his actions constantly bring them closer to danger and death.

Dazai in a dress supremacy

Just a drawing break from writing the souheki fic lol. I absolutely love how this turned out

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