Like I Know Rich People Live On A Completely Different Realm Of Existence Than Me But How Can A 14/15/16

look how many teeth / you have—the better to swallow the sky

Emily O’Neill, from “where St. Francis tamed the wolves,” Curious Specimens (via lifeinpoetry)

I had this one lucid dream where a lady came up to me and said, “Don’t control the dream,” really softly. I had the same dream again a couple days later but instead of just one lady. I was surrounded by a whole group of people with glowing eyes just saying, “Don’t,” and I got so freaked out that I never tried to lucid dream ever again.

Hi, just wanted to say your adam parrish meta is fantastic and i love reading it. I was wondering if you have any thoughts about the difference between Adam's reaction to when he thought Gansey paid his rent vs. his reaction (or lack thereof) to Ronan paying it. I feel like it maybe says a lot about his relationship with both of them and how he maybe views their richness differently but idk. I'd like to know what your views on it are though

I think there is no point at which Adam assumes that Ronan Lynch is trying to control him, which is really the difference. 

Adam outright links his father’s control to potential control by Gansey in the first book. He clearly sees how Gansey is different from him socially and what others might take from Gansey offering him assistance: not love, but charity, and charity of a kind that makes Adam one of Gansey’s things. And he seemes to read Gansey’s love in that way too. He doesn’t really give Gansey credit for trying to be a friend until BLLB’s courtroom scene. And I don’t think Adam is 100% wrong? He’s like 75% wrong, but I will give him partial credit because, honestly, Gansey and Control is a thing. every time I’ve suggested that Gansey likes to control his situation and that of those around him, I’ve had people violently react with Gansey is not controlling!!! which, like, okay. He’s not controlling in the way Robert Parrish is controlling. He’s not controlling in the sense of being deliberately manipulative or cruel or getting high off of having power over people’s lives. 

but Gansey absolutely – absolutely and understandably when you think about his background and his upbringing and his trauma – does not want situations to spiral out of his control. To misquote Ronan Lynch in TDT, because he is Gansey, he usually wants all of them there and he wants to be in charge. It’s not malevolent control but it is a desire to make sure his people are safe, to know they are all handling each other appropriately, to trot out logic and rationality and wisdom and all those clear-headed Glendower qualities and use them to make everything right for everyone. Because he loves these people! He loves them and he wants to make the world right for them. Control. you can’t really be a king without it, though maybe he’d like to think he’s a king like the best myths about Glendower and can rule people out of sheer love, idk. 

My point is: I wouldn’t really be surprised if Adam has a hard time telling love and control apart, and I wouldn’t really be surprised if Gansey theoretically can tell the two apart but in practice expresses his love by, like, trying to talk at Adam about what Adam’s experiences are like and very logically delineating the boundaries of Adam’s life in a way you really shouldn’t do with abuse survivors because their right to trust their own impressions >>> your right to love them so hard that you get to be annoyed when they don’t let you dictate how they should be reacting to you.

Gansey clearly never means to come across as controlling to Adam, but he does, and part of that is Adam’s own issues and inability to see genuine friendship, and part of that is that Gansey really does want to control Adam’s life for the better. 

so I don’t even think Adam is kinder to Ronan about it because he loves Ronan more or because Ronan is so super clever about the way he offers help or w/e. I think it’s mostly because Adam hardly sees Ronan as likely to control his life. mind you, this isn’t totally fair to Gansey. Ronan isn’t immune to telling Adam what Adam’s needs are or what Adam should be doing. in BLLB, Ronan tells him to forget Aglionby and college because Adam has a bond with Cabeswater. Adam just dismisses him outright. There’s no agonizing over it; there’s no internal pain over Ronan setting out what Adam should do or Adam becoming one of his things. Adam pretty clearly doesn’t perceive any danger of that with Ronan. Ronan’s not going to try to control the universe to make things better for people. and tbh at several points in the books Adam’s (and a lot of other people’s) perception of Ronan is that Ronan barely makes any effort to control himself. 

POSITIVE THOUGHTS ON THE RAVEN KING

ok ok i feel like starting with the negatives is mean so lets put in some good stuff too even though i already said what i didn’t like

orphan girl eating things she shouldnt be eating

loose quote: 

“what r u doin w/ ur future ronan?” 

“i was thinkin of becomin a farmer c:”

BARN TIME WITH THE LYNCH FAN OMG i loved it

the KISs. THE KISS. i know i said something about the pynch was bothering me but over all i loved the kiSSES.

what we saw of the whole henry/gansey/blue dynamic. i want them to travel the world together my adorable bebs. 

artemus hiding in the tree. sensitive tree man.

neeve advising piper to not do things and piper being all ‘ok but i literally do what i want c:’

henry in general, i love his character, i like that his native language is thought. 

GROCERY STORE WORKER BLUE COMIN TO THE RESCUE * U * MY HERO.

any interactions between blue and ronan tbh. i love them. they are my babies.

i was going to move on but honestly blue and ronan are so pure and honest, i love it. i love the scene of ronan and blue in the kitchen while the boyfriends were sharing secrets, pondering the meaning of love and whatnot.   

what i wanted out of that was a big sleep over with the gang at the barns but.... fanfiction will happen. im counting on y’all... or me. depending on how i feel. 

oooo whatelelsslelselse.

CABESWATER LOVES THEm

like i already knew that quote before but it’s still my favourite thing? cabeswater loves them cabeswater will do anything for them cabeswater will give life back to one of them in the best way it can since they all wished for it. i love you too cabeswater.

ronan ‘i dreamt up cabeswater’ lynch

ronan ‘i dreamt up my lil brother too’ lynch

sir richard campbell ‘for gods’ sake’ gansey III in response to the above mentioned ronan lynch.

“THE HEAD IS TOO WISE. THE HEART IS ALL FIRE” im putting that on my body one day. 

thats all i can think of right now. there will be a second wave that comes with the reread. 

Cracks

Thundercracks; chasms; those in coffee cups; crevasses; crispy crackling; cracks full of bones in the mountains to the far North and the snow has mercifully covered them but in Summer you can still see the traces; those in badly-constructed alibis; those on which you must not step; those that start small and widen until they have split a whole country in two and spilled out all the hidden vaults and subway routes into the chasm; those which stare back; those of doors opened just a smidgen; the varnish-cracked faces of china shepherdesses in the spider attic; the crack that cracks a case; that cracks a skull; those in valuable vases; fractured air; those whose fixing is part of the art; cracks that spill forth ants; those that are breaks in reality; whip cracks; bum cracks; those in broken biscuits; the first cracks in a wall that you wish gone.

people who know gansey is going to die: me, you, gansey, adam, blue, the women of 300 fox way, millions of readers 

people who don’t know gansey is going to die: ronan

Jay Wright By Dennis Tejero For Harper’s Bazaar Kazakhstan September 2018

But you see, this crown has grown so very heavy, and I have become tired of seeing blood red stains soiling all that I touch.

rather death than kingship (x)

The foxhole court coffeeshop AU where the entire team works at the same shop.

Dan and Matt are constantly making out in the break room. 

Kevin takes coffee way too seriously and lectures customers who dont acknowledge the difference between different roasts. 

Nicky is boisterous and somehow always gets control of the stereo. 

Wymack is the owner/manager. 

Abby is the accountant. 

Betsy owns the cafe next door. 

Allison specializes in frou frou drinks. Seth doesnt work there but he visits her but wont drink her girly coffees. 

Neil just needs a job. Andrew is weirdly protective of him and wont let anyone ask about his shady past. 

Renee is Renee. 

Aaron is openly hostile to customers and for some reason girls love it??? 

Bonus:  Everytime Kevins abusive ex Riko walks in Nicky plays we are never ever getting back together by tswift and riko gets so furious he knocks over the display of seasonal coffees.