This Has Been A Wip For Basically A Year Now Cause I Forgor So Here Ya Go

This week's streetcleaner is: supposed to have been orange blossom but really got away from me, so let's call this one orange juice instead

I have a joke about math but im 2² to say it

getting back into ultrakill after the big update and the p rank quest is going shit. however there are still benefits

BLOOD IS FUEL. HELL IS FULL. FUCK TERFS

So, about that new animation,,

I THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY. I THOUGHT I WAS JUMPING TO CONCLUSIONS.. BUT I WAS RIGHT?!?! GUH?!?!

Anyways, as i do with all characters with this umbrella of trauma, I wish for Mirage to be in a grassy plains where no worries meet her.

DIENEDKDJ, so I gave good hints! Well, it's good enough for people to be suspicious of what is going on (which was more so the point until I felt it was time to reveal it)

Also, I think the teal color is the "when I see you cry" animation? I might have used it somewhere else, but I remember specifically using it as the venom for the white snakes for that one

Also, THE SNAKES, THE SNAKES, ARE THE BIGGEST METAPHORE IVE BEEN TRYING TO SAY BTW[NOW I GET TO SAY THAT] I think I spoke about that on what the snakes could mean cause I didn't wanna give it away. That and their antennae have meaning, but I don't expect people to get that one yet

thank you for the doodle she's adorable, Mirage deserves all the love, with no worries at all

(I did not give her that glory tho)

[You also have a really cute art style btw, love it sm]

Reposting this old TSP environment study of mine! :^) I still really, really love this one. I don’t really render like this anymore—my work is smoother and less blocky—but it’s still super pretty

anyways speaking of like. femininity affecting mirages behavior i want 2 talk abt her conformity to the norm

so here i find a really interesting relationship between the way mirage presents herself and the way she navigates the world. like its always been fascinating to me how mirage's identity as a woman, as the prettiest girl in town, is entirely performance. look here for a second:

in these two bits, mirage plays up her femininity to to the player's perception of her. mirage knows that the player doesn't know her well enough to have a strong opinion and quickly jumps to playing into one of two things when you first meet her. if you're generally nice to her, she leans into self-aggrandizement and almost uses her title/reputation as "the prettiest girl" like a tool to feel better about herself. if you're rude, she ramps up her aggression and leans Hard into the insults.

but all of these are just very exaggerated performance of what mirage believes she should be. it's pretty easy to tell that most of mirage's insults aren't really rooted in actual anger towards you - she's just pissed at you but she'll forgive easily. like you can choose to aggrieve her (refusing to help her up) and then immediately step back (admit you're lost too) and her mood fluctuates with yours. also she quite directly says that "Blowing off steam is just how [she] cope[s]"

so we know that mirage's anger is mostly her way of avoiding the despair and internal pain that comes with her nihilism. BUT what about her femininity? how does her presentation affect or indicate her character? ok see here

mirage says she doesn't care about school. she cares about nothing and nothing matters, she's gotten to the point where she doesn't give a damn what others think of her. basically, mirage is at a point in her life where she doesn't care about herself. her aggressive attitude probably pushes people away, her academics certainly aren't a priority. maybe she's the prettiest girl in town, but this only references what she looks like and never what she Feels like. her whole persona is the true mirage.

therefore i interpret mirage being in a schoolgirl outfit, her title as the prettiest girl, her referral to herself as a fair maiden, and her entire presentation of femininity as a representation of her being stuck in her ways. (in the story, at least. of course mirages physical appearance is a riff on dating sim tropes, but i think that the schoolgirl outfit is too interesting to be forgotten when it comes to her personality and character)

it's clear that mirage is unhappy. it's clear that her nihilistic perspective has made her devalue herself. so i think she continues to wear the schoolgirl outfit and go to school and use her title because she's unable to break free of what's been set out for her.

i think personally that mirage's character is all about being stuck. stuck in your view of the world, stuck in your lifestyle, stuck in a town you hate surrounded by people you hate going to a school you hate. mirage is about needing to be pulled out of the haze that is total despair, and you (as the player character) are meant to do exactly that.

so to me, mirage's outfit and reliance on the classic version of femininity just emphasizes how she is stuck. mirage doesn't know how to get out of her societal role as the prettiest girl. she continues to act as this specific version of what a girl is, she continues to dress as a schoolgirl and go to school because she believes she has to. she enjoys none of it, but it's okay if she rationalizes it as "all of life is supposed to be painful anyways". with mirage's acceptance of the world's meaninglessness, she also accepts the idea that she has to be a girl in this specific way. and it sucks for her

GET READY TO DIE forsaken animation

hi please this took me like genuinely a month looks at you with wet sad eyes

not only are the players doing sidequests so are the audience members

i really like this image

[Ultrakill Battle of Bands AU - You Love Me More Than I Do]

Hi everyone! This comic has been on the back of my head for a while now, and recently I've been feeling like shit so might as well extend this into a vent comic.

For some context, Mirage and V2 have been stuck in the Limbo layer for a while now for the battle of bands competition. No one really knows how one "moves up" to the other layers in the competition, however it's theorized that it might be based on how much "will" they have (if that makes any sense?)

Below are lyrics from a song that inspired me a lot in depicting the conflicts between Mirage and V2 for this au (also the title of this comic, lol):

I don't want you to think I'm not trying When you look at me it feels I am lying

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You love me more than I do You love me more than I do You love me more than I do So I do, I do, I do, I do I do, I do, I do, I do

- Nymb "Rope & Ring" (The Glass Eye EP, 1999)