@crepus Yes That Is Exactly It!

I occasionally get flashes where I become incredibly attracted to Kazuha. They never last long, but they’re happening more frequently.

I'm here now. I'm in college, I'm still alive, I WANT to be alive, and I have friends I love and adore.

Still don't know how to write a book, but I'm doing my best!

I don’t go anywhere and I don’t do anything and I don’t have close friends I can trust with my life.

How am I supposed to write a book if I don’t know what living feels like

THERE WAS A BLUE FOOD IN SLOT 66

WHO LET THIS HAPPEN

I ate it, because I was hungry and it was a bear claw (blueberry flavored), but I’ve never seen anything BLUE in there HOW did that happen

Red stuff behind it, great, but it was BLUE FOOD in a strictly RED FOOD SLOT

IT’S SLOT 66 IT’S MEANT FOR RED FOOD WHAT HAPPENED

I realised the reason I love reading those romantic xReaders so much is because my fear of always being left behind runs deep enough that it bleeds into fiction. I assume everyone is going to leave me once they get a crush and/or fall in love, so especially when I'm reading xReaders, I have to be reading the romantic ones, because I know that as long as the characters like me romantically, they'll never leave me. I realised this when I read a completely platonic one, and I was uncomfortable. I was complaining to myself that I much preferred the romantic ones, which were much more fun and interesting. But when I got to the end, I thought about how if I had that friendship in real life, I would have felt so fulfilled! So I reread it, and it was so cute and fluffy and wholesome and I loved it! But I wondered what the character would do if he ever fell in love with someone else. And then it hit me.

I fear even a fictional character, in a fictional scenario that I can control just by thinking about it, leaving me for a romantic entanglement.

I am not okay.

My mom literally got mad at my brother because he grabbed a purple towel instead of a blue one. She really said, “I’m not like this open-minded generation. I’m not like you guys.” Like, okay???? We know???? That’s not something to be proud of mother

My dude just brought a bag of sausages to work for lunch. Not even in their regular packaging, just a large ziplock bag of sausages.

What a legend.

I am so STUPID it took me LITERALLY A WHOLE YEAR to realise that Trey's name sounds like the Spanish word "tres" and Cater sounds like the word "quatro." As in.

3 and 4.

It always annoys me when villains in children’s shows are so pathetic. They’re like “yes I am the most evil thing there is” but the most they do is inconvenience the protagonist, and mostly they just sit back and send some clone to do the dirty work. Like I know these are for children, but I really just want a villain that’s actually evil. I think I’m just looking in the wrong place but I don’t know where to actually look.

The song “When There Was Me and You” from High School Musical, but make it Renga. Someone please do that.

He has not even been back for a full week and he has already asked me out like four times and because I didn’t want to hurt his feelings I said yes to the last one. I thankfully work that day so I have an excuse, but I know he’s gonna try again and I don’t want him to.

Aro story time

So my friend who I am not interested in asked me to prom and I didn’t want to hurt his feelings so I said yes. Prom happened, it was okay, kind of awkward, but I found some of my friends at the dance and hung out with them. Doorstep time, he confessed that he had feelings for me, and in an attempt to reject him kindly, I think I accidentally led him on. Because I told him, “You know I identify as aromantic, so I could never like you back in that way,” and then I got worried about his response so I said, “but I’ve always said I could see myself marrying a best friend.” And then we hugged and I kissed him on the cheek, but I don’t even see him as a best friend?? And I still don’t know what to do about that even a year later because he moved away for work and he comes back in like a week but I don’t want to talk to him really because I’m scared he’ll ask me on a date help