i feel like the "jirai lifestyle" is more like a "jirai mentality" cuz its not really like a full on lifestyle n more like a mindset somewhat
filter: death threats skipping meals
I HAVE TO KEEP POSTING OR PEOPLE WILL FORGET THAT I EXIST!!!!!!!
BUT THAT’S REALLY FUCKED UP, RIGHT? DON’T YOU THINK? IT’S FUCKED UP THAT YOUR ENTIRE EXISTENCE CAN JUST BE FORGOTTEN FROM SOMEONE’S MIND BECAUSE YOU SLOWLY DISAPPEAR FROM RELEVANCE
LIKE WOW!!!! IS THAT ALL I’M WORTH???? WOW!!!! WHATEVER HAPPENED TO INTRINSIC VALUE BULLSHIT???
ALL OF THAT IS A LIE!!!! ALL LOVE IS TRANSACTIONAL!!!!!!! YOU HAVE TO GIVE AND GIVE AND GIVE AND GIVE IN ORDER TO BE LOVED AND NOBODY FUCKING LOVES YOU IF YOU’RE DYING
yeah, I get you.
I don't even know how I am atp though
There's like no way to describe it anymore
-anon o(>o <)o
Not what I had imagined in my head but yeah I'll make a better one next time 😺😺😺
Me one second: GIVE ME ATTENTION!! PRAISE ME!! WORSHIP ME!! GIVE ME ALL YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE!!
The next second: /nf though… like only if you really want to… don’t go out of your way actually it’s not that big of a deal. I don’t want to trouble you sorry for asking actually!! Never perceive me again!!