Lowkey Just A Chill Girl Who’s Thirsty For Knowledge

i need u Jesus

they would say noot noot if they could

I knew poinsettias "faked" having big flowers by just turning some leaves red but I didn't know the real tiny flowers in the middle looked like such idiots

vintage medical glass needle / 1950

when I was pulled under the waves

my eyes stung

it felt like when the shampoo drips in the shower

my mouth got salty

it felt like when I get fries from the place I hate

my body dragged

then rolled

it felt like nothing

nothing good

nothing bad

there's nothing under there

The doctor said "You aren't going to have a baby", but his grimace made me think twice before smiling.

"So what IS that?"

Crochet mutuals come behold sppspspspsps

My mom made this. She said you guys would drool on it.

Pattern here

Being called pretty

People tell me I'm pretty, and it makes me smile. I call other girls pretty, models pretty, instagrammers pretty. I never see the girls in the pictures move but I swear it makes them smile too. I think it's a compliment.

After being called the magic word, pretty, I wonder if I still am pretty. Someone commented how pretty I was on the pic I posted last week. How much have I aged since then? Am I still pretty? Will people dissapointed when they see me at school tomorrow? I'm not as pretty as the girl on their phones. And I'm certainly not as pretty as the other girls walking around.

Everyone calls them pretty too. And they have boyfriends that call them cute, or hot, or amazing, or beautiful. I want that too, but for now I just want someone to call me pretty again.

“I keep that thang on me”

Otto Soglow in The San Francisco Examiner, California, September 6, 1932

Where are all my girlies that walk in other people's footprints in the snow so they don't ruin it more ):

I could never hate Vera Whitefern

I could never hate Vera because of the scene where she broke her leg and got chocolate and a puzzle out of it, and then AUDRINA GOT CHOCOLATE AND A PUZZLE TOO? That had my blood boiling. I’m an only child, but do parents actually do this? It’s giving, “It’s your sibling’s birthday, but you get a gift too because we love you equally.” Like??? Love them equally on THEIR birthday. 

Also…

KIDS AREN’T BORN EVIL?

Baby Vera admiring Lucky was not a sign of her being an evil, ungrateful child who hated her mom. Of course the baby spent more time with the pretty, shiny lady that didn’t move much and not the mom running around the house cleaning. Ellie was projecting from, like, the moment she came back to the house. 

Damian “I don’t give a damn what Vera does” not giving a damn what Vera did also had nothing to do with her being an evil, ungrateful child. He was too busy projecting his fantasies about what perfect women should be like onto his other daughters, but he could have at least, like, given his other daughter and girlfriend love.

Ugh. It’s like that saying that men love getting women to do things but don’t like women that are willing to do the same things.

Anyways, everyone in that household seems to have hated Vera from the moment of her conception and called her an evil child. So…her feelings towards the family as she grows up aren’t signs she’s evil, they’re completely justified consequences.