It's Because They Are :>

Belittling someone into an eating disorder and then making fun of them for having an eating disorder. ♡

i wish i had the balls to shave my head but i'm too much of a pussy T_T wish someone just fucking did it to me

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

what doesn't kill you makes you develop a weird irreversible psychosexual attachment to it

Tips for Transharmed people!:

You can manipulate yourself into thinking something happened to give you trauma relating to that thing! Try telling people around you that the trauma happened to you. After that you can begin to think of exact details of the trauma. I'd recommend using people you're not around much anymore to base the trauma off of.

Steps!:

Step 1: think of a VERY detailed story of what happened, it's okay if you forget details! Just say it happened a long time ago.

Step 2: tell your friends small details of the trauma during sensitive moments in your life. This will trick your brain into thinking that it happened!

Step 3: talk to yourself/write about your trauma. After a while of doing this, it'll make you believe yourself when you say it happened.

Step 4: stop thinking about it as a transharmed fantasy, instead, think about it as an actual piece in your life.

Step 5: when doubting yourself, tell yourself this: "if I'm doubting myself, then that means it's real. A faker would know they're lying."

Step 6: keep doing this! It'll take a bit to fully convince yourself, but it'll work eventually!

Love: a cisharmed person!

If I make this blog a manual for how to stalk, manipulate and kidnap me maybe I'll finally meet the love of my life

∆ ««« System Overview

We're the L-System ("Leo" or "Lilly"), pychotic incel faggot-tranny loser (he/him, any).

We have relationships between system members (4-8, on&off for at least 4 years). feel free to ask us about it

We tried dating externally many times but it never worked. We're too much of a freak for normies and we never felt properly bonding with anyone else. i really just want to obsessively fall in love with a cutely controlling/manipulative boyfriend-girlfriend, is that too much to ask?!

»»» ∆ TransIDs and MUDs

Our body is an adult and our system and subsystems consists of 12 main alters, . : we're transitioning to psychotic and delusional with weed and adderall. : it feels nice when ppl online encourage us 🥺

cisids: autism, adhd, cptsd, ptsd, bpd, npd

Our transid list is always changing so some of these might change, altho others definitely won't.

radqueer, gay, genderfuck, aro/ace, transage, permahigh, permastoned, permadrugged, permateen, sex doll, prey, victim,

transharmed, transpsychotic, transdelusional, transamputee (?), transdentures, transabusevictim, transforcedsh, transsuibait, transed, transanorexia, transana, (corpse) )

We also experience "some" MUDs:

• Mirror Infatuation Identity Disorder

« ∆ » Other labels

Some of us identify with the labels retard, faggot, cripple and probably some other ableist slurs that I forgot rn.

DMs and asks open if u really wanna know. pls be nice 🥺

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(fuck nazis transphobes sexists racists etc etc)

while we are a traumagenic did system ourselves, we are pro-endo, and i (samuel) wanted to say to any anti-endo's reading this or following us,

ITS IS FUCKED UP TO DENY A BEINGS EXISTENCE BECAUSE YOU ARE CAUGHT UP ON HOW THEY CAME INTO EXISTENCE.

"identifying that way is invalid" makes zero people not identify that way by the way

Summoning circle

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Please send rq friends! Please send rq friends! Please send rq friends!

hiii,, well I got bpd and am a little hihi

npd big sibling x bpd little sibling

need someone in my life to make me throw up on schedule. make it normal. make me get used to the routine. make me crave it. i wanna throw up (almost) every meal i eat. make me so desperate to purge that i starve myself for you. make me develop an ed for you

thinking about bending my lover over and forcing my fingers past their lips, deep down their throat—until they gag, until they sob, until there’s nothing left in them but me. i want them to vomit all over the floor, purged of everything that isn’t mine.

they need to be cleansed.