Jaded Heart
Jaded Heart
You were the moon who pulled me home
You were the sun that grew me
You were there when I was alone
You were the one who loved me
You promised you'd stay
You were the only one by my side
But one day you casted me away
And all I see now is a divide
The stars, I once tried to reach
The path you lit, I tried to follow
To make you proud was all I ever wished
Now I can't help this happiness I borrow
One misstep and it all disappeared
This great wave rushed over my head
I could no longer see your light
You turned your head as I bled
It ached to think you no longer had faith
I showed you should have trust
But it was already too late
Now your words echo in my head
I couldn't embrace the apologies
I knew you would only lie
So I tried to have faith in myself
But now there is something broken inside
I won't make it, I'm not enough
In the greatest depths my wound still weep
Tried to fake it but somewhere I've given up
My euphoria now lasts skin deep
There is no beacon to turn to
My foundations turned to rubble
Loneliness is my solace
Don't have to confront the troubles
Blame now falls on no one but me
I guess there was truth in your eyes
For now I can't get back up
And I'm stuck wondering, why?
Why am I not strong?
Why stay walking on ice?
My fears seem all gone
But they're taunting in their disguise, for-
You are the moon who untethered me
You are the sun that made me dust
You are the one who left me stranded
You are the one who had my love
- pyxisjaded
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“Whatever someone you become, and wherever you are in the world, I’m sending you love. You’re my friend to the end.”
— Spike Jonze
Me watching the Violet Evergarden movie: *bawls like a little child* I usually don't cry. Damn, they're good at pulling my heart strings.
Me watching the Titanic: *yawns* This is stupid. Why does he have to die again? *Only perks up hearing Celine Dion sing*
“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different.”
— C.S. Lewis
Graduation
The seasons have frosted over into blooms,
The lights are getting brighter,
The stage looming near.
This cap a heavy weight,
The toils and joys I want to share,
The paper weight of all I've fared.
My zealous heart was ready to spring,
To bask in the moment with you,
But you're not here with me.
Yearning for the hold that I miss,
Your memories I hold dear,
So I'll see you in the crowds with my heart gaping.
- pyxisjaded
Laughs in NaCl
Crave
To share the joys and all the sorrows,
Know the pain and all the safest places,
And have the love to be empowered.
Be the strengths we're not afraid to borrow,
As our steps align in the shadows,
Together, facing new encounters.
You are the thing I crave to settle;
The thing I crave to have beside me.
You are the desire to leave me fulfilled.
The desire that consumes, my judgement leaves.
~pyxisjaded
Legitimately what my own thesis looked like... Me included, although pretty sure I felt like the last panel's figure at discussion
The Scientific “Method”
Gratitude
Despite being lost in translation,
Being pulled apart by an ocean,
Knowing my limitations
I wanted to let you know.
From my first journey walking,
A world where everything was foreign,
Always there for me to fall back,
You guided me by the hand.
Early mornings and cold awakenings,
The winds at my back,
You laughed to shield me from the cold.
Early mornings and early prayings,
I ran to burst,
Your patience was my solace to hold.
Now years have passed,
We're no longer together,
I've grown apart,
But I'll always remember.
You brought me to today,
These steps I take are yours,
These feats I own and life I live,
You brought me to today.
I am made from you,
So with everything I have
MAKASIH.
Aku akan selalu sayang kamu.
-pyxisjaded
From art and quotes, to funny reblogs. From a student who really could be studying instead.
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