Y'all Ever Just Suddenly Have The Overwhelming Urge To Swim??? Like Not Actively But You Just Wanna,,,

I'm gonna be real, guys / gals / nb pals. I have played ZERO Dragon Age games and know next to nothing about the lore. I want to play a fun game but I will also be using this as a dating simulator because I can't get enough of that 👏 old 👏 man 👏

having a resting bitchface is so funny because i'll be doing something relaxing, and really enjoying myself and my face will look like this

Emmrich Volkarin and Johanna Hezenkoss in their 30’s

*bangs on door* WHERE IS MY HOT CHOCOLATEY MILK SPIDER? I DEMAND TO SEE MY BABY AT LEAST ONCE THIS SEASON PLEASE YOU CANT LEAVE ME LIKE THIS

Everyone has goth sex hormones it came free with your fucking existence.

My other car is an eluvian 😎

it used to be 2007 you know

you say it's my villain era and what you mean is that when you were six you panicked about wearing the right thing to kindergarten, what you mean is that in middle school nobody was eating, what you mean is that you spent high school prepping for college and college prepping for adulthood and adulthood fucking lost in the system.

what you mean is that you've been good. you were a good team player. you would have never considered yourself perfectionist - those are people more popular, prettier, more successful - but you carry any flaw like a secret in you, terrified someone will desert you for the simple reality of your personhood.

if you were good you could be loved. you could be loved if you were selfless and thoughtful and caring. if you bent over for every person, if you went above-and-beyond, it would absolve you of who you actually were. deep down, how horrible that you had needs. that you had boundaries, that you had desires. you learned young that you cannot afford to cut people out of your life - you would have nothing left. it is better to live in the service of others, to supplicate. to worship. you weren't exceptional, you had to make up for it in some way. to prove to others you were worthy.

if they need you, it's the same thing as loving you. if you are always-there, always-listening, always-friendly, you are filling a role. you have a purpose. you are living correctly.

villain era, you repeat. you mean: yesterday you finally told a man no. for hours afterwards, you couldn't control your heartbeat. you mean: you've been saying positive affirmations on repeat, trying to teach yourself any new thing about how self care is necessary. you mean: three weeks ago, due to a scheduling conflict, you finally told a coworker that no, you couldn't do them a "quick favor". you have felt bad about that ever since. sure, it would have made you work late and it would have been extra stress - but you feel bad about it nevertheless.

you tell your therapist you have been leaning into evil. she asks what that means. when you tell her: sometimes i prioritize my own needs, she doesn't find it funny. she looks at you a long time.

"and that's evil?" she clarifies.

"well," you say. "feels evil to me."

Please reblog this if fanfiction has been beneficial to your mental health.

My beautiful Rook, Loviata Ingellvar, modeled after my most recent D&D character. After about 80 hours, I have finished Veilguard. I'm doing some achievement fishing in an earlier save right now, I only have a few more that I want to make sure I get.

I found the game lots of fun and the lore rich but easy to follow. This is my first DA game, and honestly my first RPG with real-time combat. I'm bot good at it and played on the easiest difficulty, but I had a good time!

I'm already planning out a second Rook, but I will be sad to leave this one behind. I know she and Emmrich will live happily ever after until the end of their days.