I Was So Inspired To Make Some Collages For My Three Favs After Finishing The Starless Sea ~

Picked from the library since they didn't have what I was looking for i heard its manga classic? but i have 0 idea about plot other that its about a guy with... well death note

Feeling sick today, so i can't even finish last 100 pages of an excellent book

I totally gasped the same thing boy but not with the same emotions...

I will just leave it there and pretend im normal about this dialogue

THIS. And im so angry at myself that because of my way of living for this past 3 years i need to learn again how to just... Be ? How to calm down and do some small things if i want

in the meantime: study, journal, read more books, sit in silence, listen to music, take walks, take the stairs, do more things alone, do more things with friends, take notice of the small wonders of the world, create a sacred space in your mind

Okay, so another one great show that was cancelled by netflix to my list ✍🏻

At this point why im even trying to watch smt except for cooking shows on this platform if i already know that it will have no season 2 EVEN if show clearly ends with sort of cliffhanger ?

Read "If We Were Villains" in one day, gay people are real

Need this running through my veins because YESYESYESYES

if you think about it kavinsky almost definitely thought ronan killed his dad too. that’s gotta be part of the reason he was so obsessive.

k’s got this trauma and secret weighing on him so heavily and isolating him from everyone until he finds out that kid who’s dad was mysteriously murdered is a dreamer too. especially considering ronan was the one who found the body and he immediately shifts to become aggressive, impulsive, and starts avoiding everyone. k mistakes the clear signs of ptsd for signals that they’re the same.

in kavinsky’s mind he’s finally found someone who will understand everything he went through and all of his fucked up coping and communication. he creates this ideal image of ronan as his last chance at a genuine connection with anyone, with no secrets in between them. the ronan in his mind is patient with k’s addictions, trauma, and tendency to push people away because he understands all the reasons behind it.

they’re both dreamers, gay in a small town, labeled as aggressive and outcasted, and in k’s mind, both victims as abuse who managed to outsmart their abusers. ronan’s everything he’d been craving.

when ronan rejects him and essentially calls k delusional for thinking they could ever be the same, k loses not just a boy but the very chance to ever be understood and accepted by anyone. if someone who he thinks went through the same shit as him still thinks he’s too fucked up to care about, then he’s got no chance. he’d rather die and drag everyone down with him than spend the rest of his life isolated and hated by everyone around.

Evening read... ( and a little thought)

This part, don't know why but there is something in it. Like the feeling you can't explain but love

A moment of me realising that I have my copy of Six of Crows since 2018, when 12 year old me spent half of the night reading the last pages because she couldn't stop. Then I reread it around year and a half back, finally read the second book ( yes, took me so long to pick it up ) and annotated it. And then I did the best thing i have ever done to my books:

And I cannot stop to look at it since then every time I'm cleaning my bookshelf. Like, if this copy doesn't seems loved I don't know which one will.

I did silver edge as well! With just an acrylic paint. Does it look good? Not at all, its cracking as... But omg, does it makes me happy? Yes, yes it does