10.04.2025 (thu)

04.03.2025

Ended up not going to school but the doctors today :(

So I have notes to complete and stuff to study for tmrw . I'm like seriously scared of the teachers for the first time in my life cuz they hella strict. As if the pressure of boards and entrance exams wasn't enough 🥲

Things I did today (I'll update as I do em) :

• Attend my live class

• completed my notes

• read a few pages of phy reader

• did math hw

02.03.2025

First Day Back + Study Plans

Woke up at 4 AM for suhoor, and after Fajr, I tried going back to sleep since I had to be up by 6:30 AM (my bus comes at 7). Ideally, I want to use the two hours before school to study, but today, I was running on just 3 hrs of sleep. I knew I’d be exhausted on my first day back, but I just couldn’t fall asleep no matter how hard I tried. I hate my life So, I ended up just lying in bed and then ironing my uniform lol.

At school, there weren’t any actual classes, so nothing much happened. Came home and took a 3 hr nap—not because I was super sleepy, but because I knew I’d regret not getting some rest. Now, thinking back, I kinda regret that regret sleeping that long 🤦🏻‍♀️ should’ve just taken a 1-2 hour nap instead.

Afterwards, I cleaned the rest of my room and planned out my study schedule for the week. Apart from daily live classes at my coaching (except Sundays, which are free for now), I want to revise some 11th-grade topics, starting with organic nomenclature. Here's my plan:

✦ Monday: Live class + Lecture 1 & 2

✦ Tuesday: Live class + Lecture 3 & 4

✦ Wednesday: Live class + Lecture 5 & 6

✦ Thursday: Live class + Lecture 7 & 8

✦ Friday: Live class + Buffer day

✦ Saturday: Live class + Test

✦ Sunday: Lecture 1, 2, 3

Keeping it flexible because, well, life happens, but let’s see how it goes! Hoping I can actually stick to this ;)

Ciao ppl <33

WEEKEND TO DO LIST (march 20 to 22)

Bio - record work

Bio - complete diagrams

Bio - study rifp

Bio - complete notes (coaching)

Chem - study chemical kinetics

Chem - ws

Chem - lec 5,6,7 fml

Chem - NOTESSSS

Phy - study electric charges & fields

Math - study matrices

These are the stuff I HAVE to do. And if I have time I have to start doing questions and covering 11th backlogs cuz I haven't started YET 😭

April 26 & 27

Spent the past two days going out with family and got zero studying done. As much as I love spending time with them, it’s honestly frustrating when you’ve made plans and just can’t follow through.

Update: Took a nap right after my last post because I was dead tired and thought it’d help me stay up later. Well... that nap turned into 3 hours, and then I went straight into my favorite hobby: procrastination. Actually started studying around 10:45 PM and only managed to touch chem.

Tried revising today’s numericals, which should’ve taken me 30 minutes tops, but it ended up taking almost an hour because I was struggling with basic multiplication (and also why are so many decimal shits). Like, why am I like this? F you, CBSE, for not letting us use calculators—but it’s not like I can use them in entrance exams either, so guess I’m stuck suffering in silence.

Honestly, I’m so mad at myself, but I’m too tired to even spiral into a self-hate session or breakdown. I’m just here, floating through my regrets. Thinking I’ll try to squeeze in physics during the bus ride tomorrow because time? what dat ?

The OG plan was to finish Lec 2 & 3 today, do Lec 4 after school tomorrow, and attend Lec 5 live.

Reality check? I’ll just do Chem Lectures 1-3 tomorrow and 4-6 on Friday because right now I’m tired down to my soul. Like, this is exhaustion on another level. fml I’m crashing for the night.

Let’s hope tomorrow-me has her life together *sigh*

GNNNNN

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Study time ~ 0:55 hr

12.03.2025 (wed)

Just got back from school and honestly, today’s been lowkey trash. Couldn’t focus at all and zoned out for the entirety of physics—like, my brain just went NOPE. So now I have to relearn everything from scratch 😭. I’ve been trying so hard to be consistent, but it’s days like these that really test me. So yeah, gonna lock in and grind to make up for it.

Today’s To-Do List (aka the battle plan):

Chem - Revise numericals.

Chem - Study Lec 1 (it’s been haunting my to-do list for a week now) + Lec 2 & 3 (I’m not going to bed until these are DONE.)

Phy - Relearn today’s class (because clearly my brain took a day off.)

It’s me vs. my procrastination today, and I’m NOT losing.

Toodles ~~

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29.04.2025 (tue)

Day (20/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 2:15 hrs

💤 5:00 + 1:30 hr nap 💤

(forgot to post it yesterday lol)

Tried to nap on the bus but it didn’t really work which left me in a REALLY bad mood. Went over some random shi b4 my live class, but skipped coffee which turned out to be a BIG mistake. About 30 minutes into the live, I was dozing off and ended up taking a proper nap from 5 to 6:45. Procrastinated a bit after that, and finally watched the lecture I’d missed napping. It’s just been a pretty bleh day overall. I think the mid-week burnout is officially here :D

Lec 2 of organism and population

Revised random stuff from yesterday

Toodles ~~

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one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

I want to be completely honest.

There are going to be people who are better than you.

There will be times when someone is going to get ahead of you

And there will be times when you worked hard, and you didn't achieve it.

And yes, it is fine. Completely fine. You are allowed to be disappointed. You are allowed to be sad. And you are allowed to get pissed.

It's the brutal truth that you may not get what you want all the time. And you should learn to be okay with that.

11.03.2025 (Tues)

thought today was monday wth

Went to bed at 2 AM today and still couldn’t finish my chem notes or review the bio lecture (ughhhhh). Also ended up sleeping instead of studying before school, so that’s fun.

Anyways, here’s my to-do list for the day: bet ya can't tell how much I love to-do lists

Rev bio lec

Finish up chem notes (finally) and study it.

Watch lec 2

Live class

Math,chem,eng,bio hw

Manifesting productivity... or at least, survival.

Hope y'all have an amazing day ahead !

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24.04.25 (thu)

Day (15/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 1:00 hr

Had Bio practicals today and forgot to bring my lab coat—thankfully, I was able to borrow one from a friend in another class. The experiment was on onion cells; we had to identify the stage of mitosis, but I couldn’t find anything on my slide. This is my second practical in a row where that’s happened, and it’s honestly starting to feel a bit discouraging. I was in a pretty bad mood after that.

Messed around till 4:30, then joined my live class—but about an hour in, I ended up falling asleep. I was so tired that I decided to nap properly. Woke up at 7, went out, and only got back home at 1AM.

Had a lot I wanted to get done today, but that clearly didn’t happen :( Also, we’ve got a bunch of people coming over for lunch tomorrow... right when I have tons to do. Classic timing.

Gn loves ~~

BYEEEE

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