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My sister Graduated.

It was an really awful day, nothing could prepare me for it lol, I was completely shocked by it. I mean it's been days now, she graduated in the 9th of May and I am still thinking about this horrible day. Like what could I have done to make this day anything else than the day that it was. And the answer it nothing lmao, because I wasn't the one causing the problems. Maybe if I write about it, I'll think of it less. I just keep thinking this day was gonna be an easy day, I literally didn't have to do much of anything today, just get to the place and sit and watch my sister walk.

It started off fine. I was in a good mood because I had figured out my outfit for the day, and I really liked it, I thought it was so simple and cute and not to eye catching. I had an outfit planned for this day, but I wasn't feeling it last minute, the weather and my outfit weren't matching to me, it was raining all morning. So I was able to put something new together and it made me feel good, I felt in high spirits I guess lol, it made me realized that a good outfit can really save the day lol, because it kind of did help this day, if I had hated my outfit I would of left the arena early lmao.

Long story short, I was micromanaged all day, for a good chuck of this day. Me and my sister were micromanaged, and it was so infuriating. I didn't even want to go, I just went because my sister wanted me to go, and I really didn't have plans that day. I did want to be supportive of her, I am proud of her, it was a big accomplishment. I felt like this day should of been about her, her day to relax and take her awards. She worked for it.

But the person we were with made it all about themselves. Nothing we did that day was good enough. They just kept having to nitpick at us. They couldn't say one nice thing to me the whole day, and at dinner they were talking to me like everything was sweet, like they weren't being a asshole to me all day. They're the type of person who will say some really awful things to you in a really bad way and think they are speaking from the kindness of their heart and are doing you a favor. and it's like no, you are an ASShole.

And I was just so confused all day. I was really drained of energy I didn't know how to react to any of it. I wanted to walk out of the arena so bad and go to the movies lmao. But I knew that my sister would be like WTF. I kept wanting to be happy for my sister, kept trying to turn my mood around it was not working. My sister was mad, I was mad, my brother was mad. The day had been made lol.

The only good thing out of this day was the Graduation itself. This lady coming up to me and telling me my outfit was pretty😭. And when I got home I got ready for bed and went to sleep 🛏 lmao I was done with this day.

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Imathia & Pella in Spring, Greece

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dancing in my storm, may 2025

Surrender the Snail

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Remnants of April

April was pretty ok, when I wasn't spiraling lmao. I kept hoping that my April would be cool, cause my March was so ass. But when I started to think about it, I'm not sure what a good month is like, I haven't had one in a while lol, I forgot how they felt.

I got caught up with a lot of anime backlog,

svsss

Ousama

Apothecary(even tho I didn't finish yet)

Castlevania Nocturne (sososososososo good!!!! have to watch again)

Arcane(I'm so late ik, it was so good tho, a bit short but cool)

Kuroshitsuji school arc

its been really comforting, helps me not think so much. I even started keeping track of them when I finish lmao, and adding more stuff to watch. I thought this was gonna be my book year. I did manage to finish TGCF book 5, it was so good, that book had me giggling, it was a really silly book, with a lot of dark themes. It got really heavy at some parts (well for me it did). I keep thinking about all of MXTX's series and how I feel no problem in rereading Svsss and MDZS over and over again. But when I think of TGCF I feel sick lmao, this series is so dark and sad at times( XL past I mean, and others) that I just shutter at the thought of rereading. I will have to bookmark all the past arcs so I can skip them lmao. I can watch the donghua's just fine tho, maybe because they haven't touch any of the heavy arcs. (probably never will sob) 😭.

I also got a lot of books in April too, I haven't gotten to enjoy them yet, cause my life is always in chaos lol. But still super excited for them. Gonna miss you April, you were actually a chill month. May is kind of kicking my butt now, and it's only the 6th lol.

May so far, I haven't had an appetite for like a week now. It's kind of freaking me out. Like I still try to eat but I get full so fast and then I feel like wanting to vomit if I try to overeat ugh. At first I was like this is good, I can indicate when to stop eating. But then I got sad because I like food and I like eating. But my body won't let me ughhhhhhhh lol. I hope this doesn't last.

I got a haircut, it was long overdue, I cut like 4 inch. I asked my mom to cut it. usually I cut it myself but I was just so tired that day and asked her to do it, I wanted her to cut more, but she has this control thing about hair or whatever, I would cut it all off if I wouldn't absolutely hate myself the next day.(it has to be someone else lmao)

I have decided to sell clothes that I don't use anymore or never have used. I am lowkey excited about getting rid of things. My brain has been on sell rot and everything I touch I'm like "YES SELL IT" lmao.I have a lot of clothes that I have accumulated over the years and never regulated because life keeps getting in the way, so I've just been ignoring the mess lol. So thats why I am excited that I found a solution for this. I'll try to also donate half of it to, I just need it all to go. But I have to be calm and be smart about this because I still need clothes to wear lol.

sigh~ this was suppose to be a short post

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mb of the day wednesday april 16, 2025

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( Nothing without ) PAIN, Helena Minginowicz

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April has been kicking my butt. I thought march was a bad month ugh. 

It started when I got my Nezha artbook in the mail. And it was only 1 book. I was so confused because I had ordered the bundle from my understanding. So I had to message the seller. They asked a bunch of questions yada yada.

The next day they ask for the weight of item. But I don’t have a scale so I went out and bought one.

I had been looking for an excuse to go out and have a fun relaxing time with myself to  just window shop and buy books. It was anything but relaxing lmao. There was just so many people outside. And my feet started hurting really bad for some reason sob. And then along the way I began to have a headache that didn’t go away until bedtime lol. 

I spent way more money than anticipated. I guess this is what happens when you don’t go outside in moderation, you see everything and buy it lol. 

I got so many clothes ugh, but they were necessary clothes, I really needed pants, and there were good sales going on. I bought a doll lmao, I had to keep asking myself if I wanted the doll, I legit only got her because she had yakult lmao. When I got home I realize that she’s actually way cooler when you stare at her. She is a dragon hybrid I guess, I’m not familiar with monster high lore. But she had scales on her legs,hands,face and ears, which I think is cool, plus I love dragons. Her clothes and designs are really cool too. 

I got a macchiato from Paris baguette and it was terrible I couldn’t finish it. I think it's why I got a headache.

I went to Barnes and nobles so I could stare at manga, which I did. There was a lonely 9s there, he was 84 dollars ugh, not in this economy. The manga section began to fill up like always. There was this little kid who picked up a book and started reading on the floor, which I thought was cute lmao. I wish I had such freedom. He was so tiny thought you would almost step on him if you didn’t see him. I bought 2ha book 7, I was gonna get 8 but it was looking anorexic so I didn’t buy it shrugs. I thought that it would be better to buy online, but I forgot about shipping. The page count of 2ha has been really crazy, we use to get bricks and now its a slice of bread lmao, it’s getting thinner and thinner. 

I went to uniqlo to try and snag the dbz daima shirt. They only had one in an extra small oof. I got this light pink jacket instead, it was on sale for 20 dollars, I didn’t even think I just grabbed and buy lmao.

After that I had told myself it was enough, but then I walked pass buffalo exchange and decide to just look around. Bad idea lmao. It was packed like always. The selection seemed really dry this time around. I had a headache so my brain wasn’t agreeing with me, it was hard to focus and my brain kept telling me to go home.

I did find this beige/brownish babydoll dress with puff sleeves, I thought it kind of elegant so I tried it on. I am not a huge fan of beige and tan on myself I think it kind of makes me look naked lmao. But something bout this piece, I felt that I needed to buy it.

I went to Chinatown afterward to get salmon. Then I went home.

It was a long day. 

When I got home I weigh my package and told the seller. I think I realized the next day that the weight is on the package slip, so I didn’t need the scale, great. 

I must change my life so that I can live it, not wait for it.

— Susan Sontag, Reborn: Journals and Notebooks, 1947-1964

bunny lollipops - amezaiku yoshihara

travel songs (jonas mekas, 1981)

a draft from 2016 (i need this) 

Plum blossom along the roadway.

Nara, Japan.

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Sakura Sunday 2025

It was so nice this year. We finally got pink trees after like 3 years. the past couple of years the trees have bloomed 2 months before the fest,so all the tress would be green instead lol. I love regular trees, but something bout that pink on trees, it's like they're dressing up for us, so pretty. I was so happy to be surrounded by pink trees that I started walking while looking upward at the trees lmao. my siblings kept walking away from me.

The weather was not so great, it rained most of the day. the sun never came out sob 😫. We also didn't see any cosplayers, but i assume its because we left early.

We got to see the Taiko drums performance which is always great. I got almost sentimental thinking about how I have been going to the festival since I was in high school. Back then it was so niche and not as packed. I miss that lol. I use to volunteer with my classmates and goof around making origami 🎏🎐🏮and calligraphy🖌. Then we would walk around window shopping because we were broke teens lol. The Taiko performance would have like 10 drummers and last an hour long, and we could meet and talk to the performers after the show. lmao I am going down memory lane.

But this year was really fun. We started a little tradition where we sit under a tree and eat lunch.We realized how unprepared we were this year. Our blanket was to small and the ground was cool from the morning rain. But we made it work and the food was really good. We sat under a pink tree and petals kept falling on to us and our food🍡, I think we ate some lmao. One fell on my nose at one point. It was dreamy.✨🌈Next year we have to bring a bigger blanket lol and maybe bubbles, that would be fun. 🪁🔮

I also spent way to much money lmao, I was so sad, I gave myself a budget of 200 and I spent most of it on merch and TGCF, always TGCF 😫. The artist alley was small this time but I managed to get some small artist goods. I love buying from artist lol. I was so excited to get home and decorate my desk with the goods lol. I got that Buu plushie, to me it's a rare find lmao, Buu is my absolute fave from DBZ, him and Shin. and Vegeta lol. and Piccolo. and Bulma. and everyone else lol.

The gloomy ☁☁ weather really zapped our energy. On are way out of the fest it rained on us lol, just light drizzle. We were zombies by the time we got home.

~sigh I really rambled in this one.

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I feel like I didn't take enough pictures lol. it was such a gloomy and rainy day, but still so fun. nothing like staring up at the trees in awe. I love trees.

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a world without trans people has never existed and never will

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