But I Don’t Want To Go To Bed- I Want To Stay Up All Night Ruining My Carefully Put Together Sleep

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#storytelling through music

omg soldier, poet, king is NOT a Christian worship song

folks on tiktok being like YALL DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS ABOUT JESUS??? and "better take it off my dnd playlist now!!!"

it's not about jesus holy fuck, i mean, it is, but it isn't.

Dear Wormwood is a concept album that uses biblical symbolism to talk about an abusive relationship. The Oh Hellos have a whole ass THING about retelling stories (biblical, mythological etc) to use to deal with your own story which is like...a whole thing in storytelling anyway (the new testament is a monomyth yall, Hero's Journey 1.0, in that regard everything is biblical)

Dear Wormwood is put in the context of someone writing letters (inspired by The Screwtape Letters, CS Lewis) to their abuser. "Soldier, Poet, King" is from the perspective of the protagonist, on the receiving end of the abuse, who (after the song "Exeunt") is escaping from the abuse and attempting to continue their life outside of it. The person who is the soldier, poet, king, is the protagonist. "your city" is the abusive relationship. "Wormwood" is the devil of this person's life.

If you look on Genius, yeah the story is about the Second Coming of Jesus Christ. In context? It's about the Second Coming of the protagonist. The rebirth they get after escaping.

The ending song of the album, "Thus Always to Tyrants", the last line of the album is

Where I go, will you still follow? Will you leave your shaded hollow? Will you greet the daylight looming? Learn to love without consuming?

The protagonist is attempting to mentally escape from the abuse, worried about carrying the trauma into the next relationship.

Soldier Poet King is not about Jesus. It's about fighting. It's about escaping the cycle of abuse. It's about the power that resides in stories, about people who have experienced this before and succeeded. It's about using those stories and learning from them.

Keep the shit on your dnd playlist, it's sort of the whole point.

thinking about Lovejoy describing themselves in three words as 'Aromantic British Noises'

thinking about Lovejoy describing themselves in three words as 'Aromantic British Noises'

thinking about how the idea of aromanticism isn't nearly as widespread as it is on Tumblr/various other corners of the internet

thinking about how most people would probably assume the use of Aromantic as a descriptor would imply a lack of any kind of love or romance or close interpersonal relationships in their music which is INHERENTLY NOT TRUE

thinking about Lovejoy choosing Aromantic specifically, confident enough in understanding the actual concept/culture of aromanticism to describe their entire band

thinking about the potential for there to be someone(s) in Lovejoy who is either on the Aromantic spectrum or has considered it as a possibility and has researched it to understand it (and maybe themselves) better

thinking about hard about Lovejoys songs and realising that despite a few having vaguely romantic or implied romantic connotations, you could absolutely do an aro-spec reading of their whole discography

thinking about Lovejoy becoming part of Aro Culture in my heart

thinking about being aro-spec myself, and how id consider the term 'lovejoy' to still very much be my vibe despite that.

thinking about self described Aromantic British Noises, Lovejoy.

thinking about Lovejoy.

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Okay, the only word that I feel like gets close enough to what I'm looking for (by dictionary definition) is dionysiac, which according to my good friend *Oxford Learner's means "relating to the physical senses and the emotions, especially when they are expressed without control" but idk guys, while I'm known to be dramatic at times, saying "ugh, I'm so dionysiac rn" seems awfully pretentious

*For some reason that definition only comes up in the Learner's edition, not the regular Oxford dictionary (OED) which is weird. ¯⁠\⁠(⁠°⁠_⁠o⁠)⁠/⁠¯

Alright so sensual attraction is a thing. We all can acknowledge that, look it up on Google, confirm it. Great. Why is horny the only word close enough to describe randomly remembering I'm sensually attracted to my girlfriend? I hate that. "Horny" is wrong, that's not what I'm feeling but also I can't describe it in one word any better. Yeah, I've been thinking about my gf lightly bestowing kisses upon my skin and giving me the good shivers, but not in a "I need her to fuck me rn" kinda way, in a "wow I love feeling physical manifestations of love from my partner, it makes me happy and wow oh wow I love my gf so much" kinda way. I'm asexy horny. Gods I hate the word horny. Someone please give me an alternative word, my soul is screaming

i've seen quite a few people talking about how nd stevenson and the producers of nimona underdid ballister's character to allow nimona to shine, but consequentially made bal a wet noodle.

i argue that ballister is not a wet noodle, he's just being thrown into situations that's he's never dealt with before, situations entirely outside of his control.

we know that ballister was literally the top of his class. when he's fighting the knights, he absolutely dominates. he initiates the fighting (they're surrounded, swords are drawn, but nothing starts until he gives nimona the okay to go wild). he is in control and he knows what he's doing.

his unwillingness to take risks isn't because he's a wet noodle, it's because he had to learn to stay in line to get ahead. he's been training since he was a kid. he's been facing classism and societal pressure since he was a kid. he learned that the best course of action is to not cause trouble, to not act out, to do what he is told. he has been raised with systems and rules and regulations and that's all he knows.

then the knighting ceremony happens and shit goes down. all of a sudden, everything that he's been working for for decades collapses. and then nimona appears and she is so radically different from him and she is encouraging him to do things he doesn't want to do. and he doesn't know how to handle her, he's used to obeying authority and doing as he's told, he doesn't have social awareness.

and it might just be my autism speaking, but you don't shove a knight in the deep end and then blame them for floundering.

Date someone who understands you're a work in progress but still adores you for the absolute fucking masterpiece that you already are.

dating someone who naturally brings out your playfulness, makes you laugh, never stops flirting with you, and loves you a little extra on the days you don't feel loveable makes you feel so incredibly safe and secure which makes you fall even more in love

they named an award after my boy