Gaylors Watching The Matty Healy Rumors Unfold After She Finally Ditched The Beard

so tired of being queer in texas & under my radically religious parents’ roof.

“that’s the only time you’ve dreamed of me?”

“i don’t dream.”

“everyone dreams. you just don’t remember. like how you don’t remember the color of my eyes. or hurting me just to ask to be let back in again.”

i don’t think he’s ever been properly loved.

depression makes everything feel so grey. the color has been sucked out of me & my world.

it’s your birthday

i want so badly to hold you

to suffocate you in kisses

to tell you

with me

you’re always wanted.

“i definitely miss you more than any one person in particular.”

this aged so well… my mom just recently told me that this same aunt is bisexual.

she def has gaydar and i def alerted it! :)

thinking about how my cool democratic aunt bought me a book about a girl with internalized homophobia in an extremely religious town, that literally entirely applies to me.... do y’all think she knows somehow🤔

i want to punch you

and punch you

and punch you

until i’m too tired

to do anything

but collapse into your arms

i’ll always remember her as the girl who played till her knees bled

who swung till the swing creaked

and who loved till her heart broke

i have an eclipse father

he’s rarely home & when he is it’s only physically

but in the summer

in the summer he’s my protector, my sweet father

he rides roller coasters with me

and teaches me about the world

but then fall rolls around

and again i’m left cold