So I Just Watched Cash Is Alive's Video On Nikolai (they Are Literally Amazing Btw, I Love Their Interpretations),

I just realised I forgot to cross post on Tumblr, so here it is!! a paedyn/kai canon divergence fic :))

I’m not sure if I’ve ever posted my Dazai desi mayoi edits here but here we go!!

(Friendly reminder that I hc him as half-Japanese, half -Indian!!)

plans changed I decided to finish this instead of studying :D

is herlock sholmes related to the gavins or do I just think all blond men look alike

pov me

Confession...I have a thing for fictional men that are blonde🤗🤤

me and my beautiful busty law-educated companion

sooo there are some STRONG opinions on a whole lotta characters from what I've observed (on Tumblr atleast) in acotar. I wanna share my two cents on tamlin vs rhysand first

ohh boy. tamlin definitely had a character assassination after the first book.

let's understand the 'caging feyre for her "protection"' thing. now, was tamlin right in doing this? FUCK no. feyre has always been a fighter, not standing on the sidelines, and the way tamlin didn't include her in whatever work made my blood BOIL.

paralleling Rhys; there were so so many instances where he, too, was overprotective over feyre. the thing is, I think his character was somewhat redeemed after the end of the last book. that conversation with Nesta was amazing, then the whole thing with supplying decor and whatnot for the ceremony---that's great

also the amount that Rhys hates tamlin is crazy?? tamlin was the reason he was still alive, although that was for feyre and her 'happiness', as he called it, but he didn't have to

now, tamlin; he definitely got consequences for his actions too.. but like, way too many consequences. he definitely fucked up siding with the king of hybern and in turn making feyre's sisters convert to high fae, but he still betrayed hybern in the war, and also while protecting feyre when she went to rescue elain. like, that should have earned him a lot more sympathy than it did in the books

a thing; I see people using the 'when tamlin went after feyre under the mountain, he tried to hook up with her instead of trying to run away' as a way to saw how tamlin didn't really love her? or something, and to that I'm like. WHAT. amarantha would have obviously realised, and the whole POINT of tamlin ignoring feyre while she did the challenges or whatever was to feign no interest to amarantha. if they would have been caught, tamlin's whole plan would have been for waste.

butttttt I will say this: during the discussion of the high lords before the attack, when tamlin barged in, he was way too aggressive and insulted feyre and NUH UH, HOW DARE YOU???

but that's the thing; tamlin did bad things and he got his consequences, courtesy of feyre herself. but in the end, tamlin lost everything (maybe not Lucien?) and I don't think that was fair

ah well. I don't think I'll be able to formulate a direct opinion whether I'm anti-tamlin or anti-rhys, and I think that is the most beautiful part of the whole story; why? because it shows everyone is flawed in their own way, and when they make mistakes, consequences come.

thank you for reading my unnecessarily long character study after a bing reading session of the 4th part of the last book; can't WAIT to hop over to ao3 for some fics ;))

I FEEL SO ABSOLUTELY CHEATED I WISH WE GOT TO EITHER BREAK KRISTOPH'S LOCKS OR MOOD MATRIX HIM!