Wilf Has My Whole Heart

This isn’t an image thing - I’m fine with being squishy looking. But I’m feeling the negative effects of my squishiness. I just don’t feel good or comfortable of cozy. I feel sluggish and lazy and helpless. I want to change because

I have two small children and I don’t have the energy to give them all I can and it breaks my heart

I want to feel comfortable in my clothes

I want to live long enough to have a relationship with my adult children and grandchildren (if my kids choose to, or are able to, have them)

I am flying to Spain next year. I hate flying. I want to at least feel comfortable on such a long flight and not claustrophobic

I want to sleep better

I’m tired of my heels cracking under the pressure of my weight

I want to be able to fill my day with fun activity without feeling dead at the end of it.

I want to, hopefully, rid of my acid reflux

I want to feel good and healthy and active for as long and as late as I can in life

Time is going to pass anyway - I want to make the most of it

Watched Vivarium last night and I still feel uneasy. I’ve never been made so uncomfortable by a movie.

I had no intention of tracking my weight loss stuff here but this is how I need to journal it. I just want to keep track of meals as an easy resource so I’m not constantly calculating calories. I just want to be simple and cozy and curl up in a warm hobbit hole and eat bread. So this is a really kind of perfect breakfast - once I get a different sausage. Note that Jimmy Dean Turkey sausage Pattie’s are mushy garbage, but will do for now. It checks all my cozy boxes and is pretty filling

Todays activity took me to the garden. I sowed some more seeds for the fall - radish, lettuce, and carrots for the third time.

Apparently carrots don’t germinate in temps over 80 degrees. I didn’t find that out until after the second attempt.

I’ll probably do a last harvest of my tiny peppers and giant basil this weekend and then take them out and maybe plant something else for the fall.

Oh and I accidentally grew some pumpkins from the ones I chucked out back last year 🎃

Also, it’s just occurred to me that I am not a fan of Neve Campbell.

Also, maybe it’s my age, but old Skeet Ulrich is better looking than young Skeet Ulrich.

I said what I said.

Healthy hobbits make pizza with their family on the weekends

Listening to an audiobook and the narrator just said, “exiting the apartment, she tripped over an envelope” and I can’t get past it. How does one trip over an envelope.

I’m on my third rewatch of Over the Garden Wall this season. It’s fine.

And that’s a rock fact

Todays spooky background movie. What are you watching?

This has become a favorite comfort snack, especially when it’s cold. It’s like chicken and stars soup, but it’s homemade and it tastes better. Plus it’s super simple to make