feeling like such a failure for not going out. for not being wild. for not having dozens of friends. for not having clear skin. for not knowing everything already. for not being naturally extroverted.
i am not exaggerating when i say I, Carrion (Icarian) changed my brain chemistry.
i need an espresso martini and an handsome older manβs hands in my hair.
need an older man to hold me like thisβ¦
how will anyone compare to the fictional men i fell in love with?