I Should Start Posting Franz Kafka Style Diary Quotes But It’s From My Journal From When I Was 11/12

— December 5, 1913 / Franz Kafka diaries

she so me

i need to see loid just completely and utterly in love with yor.

give me loid seeing yor in a pretty dress and he cant even speak because of how beautiful she is. he tries to compliment her but messes up, stutters and trips over his words, and embarrasses himself. he just thinks shes so beautiful that he cant even keep up his ‘smooth loid forger’ spy act because of how perfect she is to him.

give me loid listening to yor hum to herself whilst she cleans up, just watching as she does the dishes or folds the laundry, with the softest and fondest smile on his face. bond giving him the side eye smirk like that scene in tangled where flynn is watching rapunzel and maximus the horse grins at him and gets shoved away, just like that.

give me loid seeing yor interact with and care for anya, feeling so lucky that it was yor he met in the shop, it was yor who he chose to marry. anya giggling because all her papa can think about is her mama and anyas just listening to him think about how beautiful and perfect and amazing her mama is.

loid braving through her awful cooking and trying each new meal that she makes, just so he can see the smile on her face when he tells her that shes getting better at it, then cooking alongside her, teaching her tricks and tips that he knows and helping her improve little by little.

first kiss post reveal and he has to reassure her that its real and he’s doing it because he loves her, him feeling so incredibly guilty because he knows that her hesitance and disbelief is his fault because he lied about everything and she was truly the only one of the three who thought everything aside from their fake marriage was real. him apologising to her a million and one times, doing everything he can to make it up to her and prove that he really is in love with her, and its not for any mission at all. he just loves her.

post reveal loid and yor working together, loid just hanging back as he watches his super badass wife take out an entire group of men all by herself, just in absolute awe of how powerful she is.

as much as i love yor being smitten by loid, theres just something so soft and beautiful about loid, someone who has had to lock away all his feelings and emotions, someone who has only ever used people in “relationships”, someone who can never be his real self, falling for someone who he wants to do everything for, for real. he wants to take yor out for real, he wants to kiss her for real, he wants to love her for real. he wants to do all the silly little mundane domestic chores with her for real just because he loves her. he wants to be real for her.

loid being so so in love with yor and the little life theyve built together, that he doesnt ever want it to end.

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The way he stares at her and then the nod acknowledging/accepting his feelings towards her..so good

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𝗗𝘂𝗻𝗲 𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗧𝘄𝗼 （𝟤𝟢𝟤𝟦）𝗱𝗶𝗿. 𝗗𝗲𝗻𝗶𝘀 𝗩𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘂𝘃𝗲

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘉𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘈𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘢 𝘣𝘺 𝘈𝘯𝘯𝘦-𝘓𝘰𝘶𝘪𝘴 𝘎𝘪𝘳𝘰𝘥𝘦𝘵 𝘥𝘦 𝘙𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘴𝘺-𝘛𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘴𝘰𝘯（𝟣𝟪𝟢𝟪）

my whole being turns void as i give much to people and they ceaselessly take parts of me