“I’ve Found That Growing Up Means Being Honest. About What I Want. What I Need. What I Feel. Who

After you leave a toxic or abusive environment, a lot of normal things are going to feel weird, and just plainly awful at the beginning. Buying that thing you've always wanted can make you feel guilty for spending money on yourself. Resting can feel a lot more like being lazy. Safety and happiness can feel so temporary, almost like you are just waiting for life to get bad again.

It's normal, it's part of the process. You will get used to be at peace. To feel joy. To be safe. I know you will<3

“It’s raining let’s go outside” “look out the window, the moon is beautiful” “I finally read the books you’ve been talking so much about, I loved it” “wait stand there , the lighting is amazing” “<3” “I bought you this book, I think you might like it” “oh my, look at all the stars” “let’s go to a bookstore” “I got us some coffee” “here, listen to this” “let’s make a playlist” “this is a horrible idea. I’m in”

Let’s talk about how hard it is to open up to someone for being sad for no reason. Let’s talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason. Let’s talk about how hard it is to understand why you’re having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home. Let’s talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why.

Losing sleep because your heart feels heavy is the worst thing

“You are not accidental. The world needs you. Without you, something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it.”

— Osho

Just found out the world doesn't revolve around me. Status: shocked and upset

-Minho, probably

Your handprint's on my soul, it's like your eyes are liquor.

Dylan O’Brien saying “fuck that guy” after watching the all too well short film is a MOOD and I love him for it

I wish I wasn't, such a dreamer. I've ruined this life for myself.

— N.M. Sanchez

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