Thesadboisclub - ℭ𝔢𝔫𝔬𝔟𝔦𝔱𝔢 ℭ𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔢

My Dearest L...

I woke up today thinking that it was going to be a good day, time passes so slowly when you are in your room blocked away from the outside world for so long. I haven't gone to work in about a month and a half not that I don't want want to go back, I just don't think I can without her help. cleaning room's alone just won't be the same without her help, she's been in the hospital just as long as I've been out of work. she seems to be getting better but I think she's just hiding the truth from me bec she doesn't think I can handle it and the truth is I probably can't handle it. I miss her so much... I just want her to come home and be with me and my sister again like things used to be but nothing will be the same now. the scary part is that I might only have about 5 years left with her till her sickness takes her from us all... I try to think about it, it's not worth the stress to live in it. I try to just live as much as I can with her while we still have her. time is not something she has much of but the time we spend together. why does he have to take her so soon from us??!!??

dark filled night skys, red filled moring sunrise.

@thesadboisclub

Once again, I can't seem to sleep.....

MY DEAREST L…

I wanted to come on here and talk with you. it's been a while since the last time we chatted so I thought maybe you would like to hear from me. let's see how have I been doing? well, in all honesty, I've prob been worse than I am tonight, but just like any other time I'm stuck I'm my head.... not too sure why though...no that's a lie I know why I'm just not comfortable sharing it on here at the moment bec of preying eyes. but that's all I have to say for now.

it's really lonely here without you...

♡ marmalade boy ♡

I may think of you softly from time to time, but I swear I'll cut my hands off if they ever reach out for you again.

My Dearest L…

Well, today was actually a great day. Man was I tired when I got up this morning, but I didn't let that stop me from going out today. I got up put my hair up and put on some makeup and left out the front door. Off I went to store after store. The sun felt so good on my skin!!. OOOHH!!! you guys might or might not be happy to hear that Mexico is going to come home soon!!! so he says, I believe it when I see it XD but other than that today was a really great day. I loved it!!

MY DEAREST L…

Hello, it's been another long time since I talked to you hasn't it. I'm sorry. I've been in my head a lot and I've been trying to get stuff under control in my life, I don't know what to do anymore. I've been so down lately... I've been trying I really have. but it's hard to fight monsters you can't see you know. I just want to be able to wake up and not have to stress about anything. I wish time would stop. oh! I have big news... in two months I have been with him for 2 years. yes I know it's coming up to that date but it's okay I think I can make it and push through it. he's the second one that's actually stuck around this long and not left or done anything bad to me... I'm not sure how I feel about that really. well I have to go jump back into Gilmore girls. see you in the next one.

Broken Girl... Coming soon!

Man, do I have a story to tell you guys! I'll prob be posting it in parts bec it's still ongoing but I'm writing out the beginning. I keep telling myself I should have blogged about it when it first started happening but my I have to work with my sister to get it all from the beginning bec I have a really bad memory that's why most of my blog post is really how I'm feeling in that moment and they're very raw. anyways I'll be blogging about this girl very soon, should be some time starting around next week. Maybe Monday? I'm not sure, yet...