A Coward In Love

one of my beloved friends (very autism) was in.. not denial but ignorance sounds mean. but that abt themself last time you brought up the raads r test so i sent it to the gc (full of autism) and they were like psh. fake test no one could get below 100. they know now but i think about it so much

The thing is. When you take the autism test. And you see your score is in the 100 to 160 range. You think. Oh this is probably the middle? Middle autism. Tinge of autism. Your relatives calling you bright but shy autism. Just a whiff of autism. And then you see the score ranges. And you go. This test is lying to me there is absolutely no way the majority of people score under 65. The 65 number is such a low cutoff and so many of these experiences are clearly universal a score under 65 is something they made up in a lab. People who score under 65 are obviously scoring just under that mark from 59 to 64 and they’re also obviously lying or purposely misrepresenting their experiences as less severe than they are. And then you find out there are real people who get a 20 or 30 or 7 on it. And you go. Ah

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losing it over ruehob kiss binxhera kiss and chirp having access to her wife and daughter and then just. squak and literally jeremy renner

haven’t made any proper neverafter art yet because I am swamped with work but I could not resist drawing murph’s new fucked up man. he’s so disgusting and in denial I’m obsessed with him.

adding onto this because I’m procrastinating writing my novel

“and now snow was falling all around him, shining in the lights. he thought it was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen.” - station eleven

“open your heart. someone will come. someone will come for you. but first you must open your heart.” - the miraculous journey of edward tulane

“I think it pisses God off if you walk by the colour purple in a field somewhere and don't notice it.” - the colour purple

“we shall tell all the stories that are never told.” - the one hundred nights of hero

“I’m not good for much, I know; but I’ll stand by you, Jo, all the days of my life; upon my word I will!” - little women

“these books gave matilda a hopeful and comforting message: you are not alone.” - matilda

“whatever the world looks like now. that's not always how it's going to look. there's more. there's always more.” - more than this

“there she is, a human being, diving into the unknown, and she is wide awake.” - my year of rest and relaxation

“I am ready to feel nothing, forever.” - only ever yours

“It was an accident, of course it was, she would never have left me on purpose.” - the glass hotel

“I am haunted by humans.” - the book thief

book quotes that i will never recover from

"he is half of my soul, as the poets say. " - song of achilles

"write me a letter telling me how to live the rest of my life without you." - how to make friends with the dark

"they were my birthday presents." - shatter me

"she had realized that she had forgotten the precise blue of his eyes and the depth of his laugh." - clockwork princess

"my name is sam cortland... and i will not be afraid." - assassin's blade

"you chose me four years ago. would you choose me still?" - these violent delights

"we were all supposed to make it." - crooked kingdom

"i remember everything." - the invisible life of addie larue

"come home and shout at me. come home and fight with me. come home and break my heart, if you must. just come home." - cruel prince

"i wasted all those yesterdays and am completely out of tomorrows." - they both die at the end

"you hated the idea of me." - the final gambit

"bob says hello." - house of hades

"abuse can feel like love. starving people will eat anything." - nightfall

"i missed you only with an ocean between us. but if death was separating us... i would find you." - queen of shadows

"i loved him. i love him. as best i could." - we were liars

"i'm the villain, even in my own story. but you were supposed to play a different role." - finale

"i will find you again in the next world—the next life. and we will have that time. i promise." - a court of wings and ruin

"i spent half of my time loving her and the other half hiding how much i loved her." - the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

matt mercer voices the villain in leo the lion???????????? I feel like my whole whole has been upended

I’ll never understand why anthropomorphic animal cartoons like Robin Hood and Zootopia will go to the trouble of creating character designs that are meant to be understood as “attractive” or even “sexy” to the human audience but explicitly avoid showing interspecies romances between anthropomorphic animals. Why is THAT weird but, like, trying to make rabbits recognizably sexy-coded to humans isn’t?

I am still fucking losing it at this tweet

Firefighter demonstrates how to put out a kitchen fire

laudna and imogen temult as joseph paelinck’s orpheus and eurydice

forgive me for the orpheus and eurydice parallel with these two but I can’t help but see it. these recent episodes have destroyed not just my pussy (sorry) but also my heart and soul. I had to paint something angsty and moon-washed and sad, so here you go!!! complete with some close-ups on their faces. I love them, I miss laudna, I am very excited for the coming episodes.

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