Sorry For The Blogspam Tonight Chat Life’s A Rollercoaster And I’m Just Figuring Out How To Steer

i apologize for even the smallest things like i always do. it's just part of how i am i guess

maybe if D paid attention to ANYTHING i've said, she would know that im not interested in her

You've done enough damage, D. Leave my life once again

reblog if ur doomed by the narrative

Nope nope nope nope nope nope

Yes, we used to be friends

NO, I am not getting with you no matter what you threaten, D

What makes you think I'd let myself make a mistake like that again?

You can go dig yourself that hole, I'm done listening.

I know what I want, and it's NOT a fake angel who wants me to abandon my friends for her.

You can go fuck off now, D

the wings and horns hurt so bad someone please distract me from this feeling

do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

fighting for my will to live rn

on the upside I got more VA work and my grades are decent and my brothers are talking to me more

on the downside i ruined my relationship and friendships, i constantly feel like crying, i still haven't even had a chance to stop and process my recent trauma, and these fucking wings wont go away or stop hurting. At least last time they started hurting they were my normal ones. these ones feel different and idk if this is a new kintype or something since I have felt this before but I REALLY don't need this rn especially with everyone around me.

ugh maybe ill leave it up to a coinflip like the last hard decision i made

I don't need a coinflip actually I control my own fate

i made a joke about devil may cry and my friends didnt get it cuz they dk what i am so now im being roped into watching it during designated crashout time

Despite everything, I still care.

Despite everything, I'm still me.

Despite everything, I'm learning

WHY NOW OF ALL TIMES IT COULD HAVE BEEN EARLIER OR IT COULD HAVE WAITED ANYTIME BUT NOW PLEASE

“if i could i’d take it all away and have you be the happiest person to walk the earth because thats truly what you deserve. i know you’ve only ever wanted the best for everyone and im so so sorry that keeps backfiring on you hun.”

WHY NOW???