Update Time!

I can promise you that I'll do literally anything to prove I've made improvement.

yeah im a jirai, the ladies (and gentlemen) call me the bomb 😔

you're a real fuckin jirai boy, aren't you

Maybe you can’t let it go because you know I genuinely care and I’m working on it.

You know that I’ll get better

You know I’ll never do it again

So… I didn’t eat again today. I know I said I would but I genuinely didn’t have time this morning and I’m out of money to buy lunch.

I’ll eat something at dinner time I promise

God at this rate I’m gonna be more malnourished then that glowing russian twink/ref

fighting for my will to live rn

on the upside I got more VA work and my grades are decent and my brothers are talking to me more

on the downside i ruined my relationship and friendships, i constantly feel like crying, i still haven't even had a chance to stop and process my recent trauma, and these fucking wings wont go away or stop hurting. At least last time they started hurting they were my normal ones. these ones feel different and idk if this is a new kintype or something since I have felt this before but I REALLY don't need this rn especially with everyone around me.

ugh maybe ill leave it up to a coinflip like the last hard decision i made

I don't need a coinflip actually I control my own fate

I'm working to make myself better.

But that doesn't mean you need to make a bad decision.

Make the decision you truly want.

i made a joke about devil may cry and my friends didnt get it cuz they dk what i am so now im being roped into watching it during designated crashout time

maybe if D paid attention to ANYTHING i've said, she would know that im not interested in her

You've done enough damage, D. Leave my life once again

don’t be sorry

i won't ever stop apologizing for this

God I’m pathetic. You were right there in front of me and I cowered away. Even now when I know how you truly feel I’m afraid to even be seen

I saw you in that stairwell of x’s.

I couldn’t tell if you wanted me there or if you wanted me gone.

I’d be happy if we could just talk again.