Toastypebble - ToastyPebble

On 1/14/25 I wrote:

I run from my problems. I run and I run and I run and I never stop. And yet my legs never move. My arms never lift. I run away so far and yet I dont move a muscle. I block out my brain from my body, my body from the world, and I try not to exist. As I like to think that I would do anything to want to exist, all I really do is try not to exist. I say I want to feel better. I say I want to be able to trust myself, to love myself, and yet I work so hard in the opposite direction. I try so hard not to exist and I am constantly convincing myself I am trying to achieve the opposite. I want nothing other than to create and yet I never create. Because deep down truly, a part of me knows that I will never create all that I want and maybe, I never wanted to create in the first place.

On 5/12/25 I write:

I wanted to create today and I did. Today deep down and truly a part of myself knew I wanted to create all along. I stopped trying so hard to exist and I achieved the opposite, I existed and I created. I loved myself and I ran to that love. Amongst the blocks and the problems and the troubles I moved a muscle and I ran and I ran and I ran. I didn't even realize I was running but I was. I was running towards joy, existence and creation. And it is something quite beautiful.

Chiron and Mr D: now that you've trained at camp for one (1) week it's time for you to embark on a quest to retrieve Zeus' lightning bolt and stop all out war from breaking out amongst the Gods.

Percy: are you aware that i am twelve years old

Chiron and Mr D: this is your dad's will

Percy: is he aware that i am twelve years old

I need to know who this 30% is and how to avoid them at all costs.

deep insights into the american psyche

Two rules for creating anything.

1) Make it weird.

2) Make it with love.

refseek.com

www.worldcat.org/

link.springer.com

http://bioline.org.br/

repec.org

science.gov

pdfdrive.com

Evolution did not prepare him for this moment :(

Itchy snoot. 

God the prices of tvs have changed so much let me get my graph

You guys just have to trust me on this one and click here okay?

Look, logically I know that telling the demons to go away will do nothing. Logically I know that I must give them attention and care, that I must model good behavior and kindness for them.

But MAN do I wish shooing them away worked because it is just so much easier and feels so much more successful to actively forget they exist.