Wait Till U Find Out Im Actually Insane And It's Not A Joke

Unimaginable emptiness again

— Friedrich Nietzsche, 1883

you belong to me. don’t forget that.

“He fell into a trance, and was enveloped in absolute horror.”

Internal Persecutor

An Internal Persecutor is an alter who's persecutory behaviors target the system itself, whether it be other alters or otherwise internally. [An Internal Persecutor typically doesn't target those outside the body.]

coined by @destructionsys !! flag by @littlest-bugz [aka us!]

BASIC COLOR MEANINGS

Dark Red ; The negative feelings associated with being a persecutor

Medium Red ; The pain caused to the system by the persecutory behaviors

Bright Red ; The persecutory behaviors the persecutor participates in

Black ; The targeting of the system

White ; The safety those on the outside have

Light Grey ; Representing the system as a whole, all alters in the system

Dark Grey ; Representing the pain inflicted on other alters of the system

Darkest Grey ; Representing the negative feelings towards the system.

Learning so much about myself as I sit in the discomfort of my past

“I am always between two worlds, always in conflict. I would like sometimes to rest, to be at peace, to choose a nook, make a final choice, but I can't. Some nameless, undescribable fear and anxiety keeps me on the move. On certain evenings like this, I would like to feel whole. Only a half of me is sitting by the fire.”

— Anaïs Nin, from “The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934.”

we diagnose you with a creeping sense of alienation forever. incurable