the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison
Sometimes when praying people will go "and cast all my period cramps onto satan" and IT FUCKING HURRTTTTS
SUPER SIGMA ART🔥🔥
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@joetastic2739 thanks for your content!!!
HES A LITTLE GUY OMGG I LOVE HIM
I’m at the BDSM club painting tunnels on the wall for my sub to run into
im sobbing
“Ponyboy, I asked the nurse to give you this book so you could finish it. The doctor came in a while ago but I knew anyway. I keep getting tireder and tireder. Listen, I don't mind dying now. It’s worth it. It’s worth saving those kids. Their lives are worth more then mine, they have more to live for. Some of their parents came by to thank me and I know it was worth it. Tell Dally it’s worth it. I'm just going to miss you guys. I've been thinking about it, and that poem, that guy that wrote it, he meant you’re gold when you’re a kid, like green. When you're a kid everything's new, dawn. It's just when you get used to everything that it's day. Like the way you dig sunsets, Pony. That's gold. Keep that way, it’s a good way to be. I want you to tell Dally to look at one. He’ll probably think you're crazy but ask for me. I don't think he's ever really seen a sunset. And don't be so bugged over being a greaser. You still have a lot of time to make yourself be what you want. There's still lots of good in the world. Tell Dally. I don't think he knows. Your buddy, Johnny”
― S.E. Hinton, The Outsiders
I love Cherry. Cherry Valence was scare of Dallas but she stood up for herself and her friend. She was scared but she fought. She's tough. She spoke up when Two-bit was threatening to fight her boyfriend. She hates violence and didnt wanna see anyone get hurt. Cherry haters are actually crazy tbh.. like wdym you hate her bc she ignored Ponyboy??? That was a commentary on the peer pressure of not being seen with someone with a different class?? She didn't want to ignore him. She told him that if she doesn't say hi at school not to take it deep BECAUSE she didn't want herself or Pony to be targeted by anyone. Cherry didnt visit Johnny in the hospital for the same reason. The peer pressure to not be seen with a hood, or a killer. She is so misunderstood. "I wish I was Cherry when Dal was being close with her!!! she was such a bitch in that scene!1!1!!!" She was being harassed. Dally was making her uncomfortable and she had every right to poor soda on him. Cherry Valence, no one could ever make me hate you
thinkin about the possibility of Johnny writin a letter for Dallas too again. n knowin. even as he wrote it. it would never be read.
I have so much mental health that they didn't know what to do with me, so they just renewed all my prescriptions and released me back into the wild.
darrel curtis....
all fandoms walk a notoriously fine line with trauma survivors and i feel like johnny cade is a good example of that. specifically, the often-seen portrayals of traumatized characters in ways that either romanticize their experiences or completely ignore their experiences (the latter of which is often done to favor another character’s journey).
i feel like the outsiders fandom (book, movie, and musical are lumped together here) at times leans heavily into the second one (minimization of trauma). now. i understand the fandom reversal of johnny’s role as being like. Not Innocent (and while i partially agree and think it’s a based take sometimes) i feel like some people do kind of turn him into a character he’s not by instilling a kind of confidence in him that he never had the opportunity to get. people tend to brush past the fact that he is, canonically, by far the quietest of the gang and RARELY talks. he is also, quote, “the gang’s pet.” (while pony IS an unreliable narrator, many of his descriptions of johnny, especially toward the beginning, are just descriptions of his physical reactions to his surroundings as well as past events like johnny getting jumped.)
He gets nervous around strangers. he’s hyper vigilant—two-bit surprises him at the drive-in and he pretty much has a panic attack. he’s 16 and has been borderline homeless for years. he has ptsd from a life of simultaneous abuse and neglect. he’s afraid to take up space because his life is so inconsistent he never knows what his existence will be met with—will it be ignored completely, or will it be met with an unforgiving hand? so he listens, and he watches, and he does hang around dally and the gang, but a big part of who he is comes from his upbringing - he tries as hard as possible to Not be noticed at all, because when he does, it’s bad. i think he would like to be a more confident, “normal” version of himself, but that person isn’t someone who he ever really had a chance to be.