…iiii Cannnnnn Try?

"You are so mature for your age." Well, at least one of us had to act mature in this shithole excuse of a family.

shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up

Why can I not stop fuxking thinking about it nothing even happened today oh my god what he fuck

Plan A: transition, marry my bf, get better at writing and turn it into a job

Plan B:

nobody:

me: *likes a post*

my ocd: was that post you liked actually good? what if that person is secretly bad and people find out and then you're a bad person by association because you liked their post? what if this post has secret dogwhistles that you don't know about? and by liking it that means you agree with it! reread it 30 times until all the words don't even seem like words anymore and the meaning is mush! what? you can't tell if it is a bad™ post? see, you actually are a bad person because a good person would be able to tell. you are going to hell now! you need to think at least 5 'good' things so you can counteract your eternal damnation!!! now now now now NOW NOW NOW!!!!

Sorry for mental breakdown posting chat

I’m normal again ☺️

when is it my turn to not be exhausted and in pain 24/7 tho

Me: “okay the day is finally over and I can finally go to sleep”

My brain: “hey what if they drop nukes”

ugh

Realized today that I jsut genuinely do not remember the majority of my childhood (…only stuff I remember is trauma tbh)

Most of the happy shit that I know happened was what I’ve been told happened

Do I have any recollection of that??? Noooo