Sorry But This Was The First Thing I Thought When I Saw Him

Thought i'd post this here :3

anyway this is reki's shot equivalent to langa's where he was surrounded by snow but instead it looks like embers and fire and light because reki is the sun while langa is the snow and in this essay i will-

ooohhhh my ptsd babyyy......

This scene hits so hard when you look back on it.

If you think about this scene on a deeper context, it relates to coming out, accepting who you are.

Amity’s confession here emphasizes on the fear and confusion you experience.

Emphasizes on the battle between your own identity and societal/familial expectations.

Emphasizes on how the world sucks, the inequality, and injustice, and reminds you that you’re a minority, How it’s not that easy for you. Like it is for heterosexuals.

There’s all these fearsome consequences and possibilities in your head that’s weighing you down. Weighing you down from accepting yourself. 

And then Em says something so simple, something that makes it sound so easy. 

“Is it so bad? You weren’t happy before.”

And it hits you. How easy it is. 

Under all the fears, expectations and anxieties, it’s happiness that lays.

What you are, what this is, what you want, although foreign to the world, is the source to your happiness.

“Is it so bad?”

No, it’s not. The world makes it bad.

Girls liking girls is not bad. Boys liking boys isn’t bad. Identifying as a different gender isn’t bad. Transitioning between genders isn’t bad. 

Different, but not bad.

“It’s not objective”.

“It doesn’t work.”

“Is it really worth it?”

Anything is worth it when it comes to happiness. Anything is worth it when it comes to being able to stop repressing, wearing a facade, and pretending to be someone you’re not just to appeal to societal and familial expectations.

Under the name of happiness, objectiveness is weak.

Under the name of happiness, homophobia is weak. 

No amount of hate, objective expectations and societal standards should be able to compete with love and happiness. 

And at the end of the day, you know what you want in the future. A basic human need.

Not respect or stability. Not being able to meet up with other’s expectations.

What you want is happiness.

And the first step to that is accepting yourself even with all the fear and confusion.

Why?

Because it makes you happy.

This is so dumb i hope u enjoy

Cryin’ in the Winniebago fr

Art by me! Please don’t trace blah blah thanks sm ☺️

Ps. This piece is also based off of this from an interview! Though I forget which one I’m sorry lol

Imagine writing a boyfriend so shit that everyone thinks he's a repressed gay. That would honestly be impressive if it wasn't so damn frustrating.

i had to

001 was right. Every day we wake up, eat, work, get queerbaited, die