Heavy Love ^^ (or Something Like That...)

not only does nevermore have toxic yuri it also has toxic yaoi this is really the best webtoon ever

Picking Apart Kou’s Character (Analysis)

Through Nene’s pov he’s introduced as a very sweet guy and stuff but the problem here is that Nene’s is an unreliable narrator since she romantices life + Kou speficially treats her a lot nicer.

He is also heavily morally righteous and tries to hear Hanako out even after knowing he murdered someone, saving him from Teru.

Kou also ends up trying to shoulder other people’s problems, and many of his actions are seen as “heroic” or “selfless” BUT sometimes this due to a more ugly part of his character the fandom seems to discard often.

^ To elaborate, I want to bring up this scene since it’s iconic asf

On the surface it’s like: omg wow so brave of him to kill himself for his bf !! However, in the red house arc (which for context shows him his biggest desires) we can see that he just wants mitsuba to rely on him to the point of extreme measures.

This is rooted from his inferiority complex due to being outshined by his older + younger siblings; AND to add on, Hanako straight up tells Kou twice hes unable to do anything. Then to push it further, Teru’s like ur weak lil bro go back to the kitchen during the no.6 fight. Mitsuba dying infront of him 6 times doesn’t help either..

When Mitsuba asks if Kou is okay and needs to talk about his problems, (I forgot which specific chapter..), Kou automatically assumes that Mitsubas just worried about Kou’s reliability because he has such a low self esteem and is used to given up on.

His inability to actually make stuff happen and ppl telling him he can’t do shit make him very eager to try and shoulder other ppls problem in an attempt to have someone depend on him.

So when Mitsuba comes in with nobody (besides tsukasa but he does more harm than help so wtv) who can help him, Kou.. heh.. ig u could say.. JUMPS at this opportunity.

Anyway, in the Nightlife arc Mitsuba is like “hey can u kill me I’ve given up on being human”, and Kou finally lashes out. Mitsuba is indirectly telling Kou that he gave up on him trying to make his wish come true; AND THEN to make it worse, Mitsuba brings Tsukasa right after up..

Kou gets desperate and forces Mitsuba to stay alive even if he doesn’t want to because both

1) if mitsuba leaves nobody will depend on him and

2) he’s gay for him + misses him after watching him die + can’t bring himself to kill Mitsuba

Yes, he cares a lot for Mitsuba as a person and making his wish come true, but he also just wants to be depended on after being told he’s a let down over and over again.

As I mentioned before, Kou has a trend with diverting his problems from other people and keeping his real feelings in. Nobody expect for nene knows about Mitsubas and Kous relationship, and it literally took Kou like 70 chapters or smthn to give her the basics.

He’s speechless when Akane asks if Mitsuba and him are close because Kou never mentions Mitsuba at all. Teru doesn’t know what’s up with him, and just assumes he “has a goal in mind”. Even when having his big speech defeating Habuko Kou just refers to Mitsuba as “him”.

Okay anyways the point Im trying to get is Kous character is a lot more complex than the fandom passes off !! Yes he can be very sweet and all but there’s other parts to his personality that aren’t so black and white.

which one of u was going to tell me that tea tastes different if u put it in hot water?

oh god isn't it insane to think how lowkey, dazai to akutagawa is like the headmaster to atsushi

like they've endured abuse from them but take their words to heart and use it to have a reason to live; except atsushi doesn't wanna acknowledge that (well, he does now) and akutagawa acknowledges only that and fail to see the bad of it

in conclusion it's just my blabbering and akutagawa and atsushi should just have their reason to live as each other because thats basically what canon implies now LOVE WINS💯💯🔥🗣️

i’m so normal about this…god. atsushi’s dejected expression while seeing the full extent of his rival-turned-partner’s abuse for the first time…atsushi finding out it was dazai who treated him like that, the same dazai he looks up to and admires for bringing him into the ADA. we’re witnessing atsushi make leaps and bounds in his understanding of why akutagawa is the way he is, in real time

april fools au should be starting tomorrow but never forget what we got last year!!!

real ones voted for mitsukou to hold hands while walking thru the tunnel that would make them die but yk it was for the mtsk content…

are we still friends? (song by tyler the creator)

bringing this one over from twitter

My fanfic has two kudos. Two people liked my writing. I'm so fucking happy I feel like I'm at an awards show and people are throwing roses on the stage. /gen

Regrets

You know what else is crazy? I probably should've noticed this sooner but anyways...

Monty is probably freaked out by what happened in ch 120, because Will kissed him, died in his arms, and reappeared perfectly fine within like, 5 minutes.

BUT

I think one of the reasons he is most freaked out is maybe because Will was bleeding from his mouth, right? So when they kissed, and when Will's blood got on Monty's face, it also GOT IN HIS MOUTH.

Like, think about it. Monty can TASTE Will's blood from the kiss. And Will is now DEAD. That is his LAST remnant of Will.

THEN WILL SHOWS UP, NOT A SCRATCH ON HIM.

So obviously Monty's questioning everything because he can taste his DEAD friend's blood in his mouth AFTER THEY KISSED, and his friend just SHOWS UP completely HEALTHY.

And we've seen that the clone's blood doesn't melt into wax (at least not yet?) so Monty will just be walking around with Will, TASTING the reminder of Will's DEATH and their KISS.

It's morbidly romantic and i absolutely love it!

(This was meant to be a short post but you know how that goes :P )