Sometimes maybe you're just the Juliet to his Romeo. Nothing more than a tragic love story, but what if you could rewrite the stars? pt. 1 here A/N: Before you fight me just read okay? Kisses đ
Self-Aware!Xavier who's been blinding you with your screen brightness lately âSince when can you do that?â âI was testing the limits of my evol recently and figured it out cool right?â âYes very cool but please stop blinding me it hurtsâ
It only took asking once for Xavier to stop adjusting your screen brightness. However he has been acting strange. It feels like he's hiding something; not necessarily something he can't tell you about more like something doesn't want to tell you about. Checking the app turned into a more frequent occurrence when he started disappearing constantly. You would often open the app to find the home screen cafe empty.
âXavier!â the screen flashes and you see him appear with that same soft smile directed right at you âIâm here what do you need?â you stared at him unsure if you should accuse him of anything due to his strange actions lately. You didn't want to argue with him so you pushed your feelings down and sighed âNothing just wondered where you wentâ
âIâm right here I'll always be hereâ He moved closer to the screen to get a better look at your eyes. âIs that all you were wondering?â You couldn't help, but sigh heavily as your curiosity got the best of you. âWhat have you been doing lately?â Stupid. Stupid. You mentally kicked yourself as the words rolled off your tongue before you could stop them. Why are you so jealous that he might be with in-game MC? Itâs not like you can actually be with him. âLike I told you before I've been testing my evolâ it still felt like he was hiding something under that soft gaze of his. You narrowed your eyes at hime âXav if you want to spend more time with MC you donât need to hide it from meâ you could feel that terrible lump forming in your throat as reality set in that no matter how much you loved him; heâs not yours and never will be. Before he could answer you shook your head willing your tears to stay at bay âI have to go I'll be back laterâ you closed the app right as his mouth opened to say something.
You stopped opening the app after that. You thought that maybe if you stayed away long enough things would go back to normal and he wouldnât be able to talk to you anymore. How do you grieve someone who doesnât exist?
1 week later....
Since that conversation youâre not sure if youâve become more sensitive to light or if you just happen to keep getting glares in your eyes because youâre just unlucky enough to be right where one can shine right in your eyes. You kept the lights in your house low or even just off to keep the light from blinding you. These constant blinding flashes of light were killing your head so you started wearing sunglasses everywhere and even using the walls to be your guide around your place because it was easier to just walk around in the dark.
Tonight was different though as you made your way to your bedroom your head was fuzzy along with your vision âI need to go to the eye doctor my vision may be getting worseâ staggering to your bed you fell face first onto your bed and passed out. Your body felt weightless as if you were floating on a cloud. Your eyes fluttered open to see an expanse of stars and milky ways as far as the eye can see. âY/Nâ
There was a voice, but it sounded as if it was underwater. âY/N?â Words failed you as you tried to answer âI'mâŠ. tiredâŠ..â you words were slurred and your eyelids were heavy. âLetâs go home togetherâ the voice was much clearer now. âXavâŠ.ier?â succumbing to the drowsiness that had you in a vice grip, your head fell back as everything went dark.
You jolted awake only to immediately be blinded by the sun shining in through the window. âAt least it didn't give me a headache this timeâ You mumbled to yourself as you yawned into a big stretch. Your vision was clear again a stark contrast from what you fell asleep with. You started to take in your surroundings taking note that this wasnât your room âAm I lucid dreaming?â
âThe sun is too bright turn it offâ a groggy voice whined next to you. Without thinking you kicked your leg out connecting directly with the strangers crotch who audibly groaned in pain. You sprinted out of the room only to realize you had no clue where you were. Rustling could be heard from the bedroom so there was no time to waste as long as you made it out of here as quick as possible. Freedom was within reach as you came up on the front door or at least you hoped it was the front door; only to be grabbed by your forearm and yanked back.
âI will scream bloody murder!â You yelled as you fought against this persons iron grip. âItâs me! Y/N itâs me open your eyesâ not even realizing you were already screaming bloody murder with your eyes closed ; you opened them to see those deep blue eyes youâd dreamt about. âXavier? Am I hallucinating?â You pulled your arm again and Xavier let go this time. You rapidly scanned the room and noticed this place looked exactly how it did in the game âThereâs no way iâm standing in your apartment right nowâ You pinched the back of your hand and winced in pain.
Xavier rubbed the back of his neck as he nodded âWelcome to my homeâ you circled him skeptically eyeing him up and down. âExplain yourselfâ
âI was testing if I could manipulate the light in your world and it turned out that I couldâ Thatâs when it hit you that it was Xavier whoâd been blinding you with light. You werenât sure if you were pissed or flattered that he was trying to get your attention while you were ignoring him. No he literally made your life a living hell with that of course you were pissed. You took deep breaths as you tried to gather your thoughts. âSo it was you that kept blinding me Xavier that gave me such insane headaches why would you do that?â You threw your arms up in exasperation as you began to pace. âI wanted your attention and you wouldnât talk to meâ He approached you with careful steps as you backed up at the same time. All those repressed feelings you had for the last week quickly surfaced just from looking at him. His face became blurry as your eyes filled with tears; just as you went to turn away you bumped into the kitchen counter. You stumbled to a stop as Xavier trapped you between himself and the counter. âWhy did you leave me?â His lips pressed together in a thin line and you could tell he was trying to keep himself calm as well.
âBecause we canât be together XavâŠ.â Your voice cut off as you choked up trying to keep your tears from falling. âWhy not I'm right hereâ he had a point, but you donât belong here; this isnât your home and Xavier already has someone he was literally made to be with. âI canât stay here Xav I canât come between you and-â You yelped as he lifted you onto the counter and slotted himself between your soft thighs that were still bare from going to bed in a large t-shirt and spandex shorts. âI cut through time, space and reality to have you in front of meâ His hands lingered on your thighs softly drawing circles with his thumbs. "Do you truly believe I want anyone other than you?" You went slack-jawed at his confession of how he managed to bring you here âYou what?â
He dropped his head and exhaled a raspy chuckle, but there was no amusement in it âI was so lost when you stopped coming to see me I thought I was losing my mindâ This man really did the impossible to get to you; thereâs no way you could ever tell a single soul about this or youâll be thrown head first into a mental asylum. The feeling of Xavierâs hand on your cheek pulled you from your spiraling thoughts. He gently wiped away a stray tear that you hadnât even realized escaped. âYouâre breathtaking in personâ The blue in his irises was damn near non-existent as he studied your face almost as if he was trying to permanently burn the image into his mind. His stare was so intense it was like he couldnât take his eyes off of you or youâd disappear.
You softly pushed his shoulder you try and get some distance because it felt like you couldnât breathe with him this close. âXavier pleaseâŠ.â Your voice trailed off into nothing, but a breathy whisper. You didnât know what you were asking him for; words seemed to be escaping you. His fingers wrapped around your wrist and held it next to your head as he leaned in closer. Your lips parted as your breath became heavy and his gaze immediately dropped to your lips. âPlease what?â
Fuck it.
You wriggled your wrist free and grabbed him by the back of his neck slamming your lips onto his. Xavier wasted no time kissing you back, his arms wrapping about your waist pulling you tight against his toned body. Xavier kissed you like a man starved the way he parted your lips to allow his tongue in along with the quick nips and sucks to your bottom lip your mind was going fuzzy as you fell into him with reckless abandon. You drew back gasping for air and Xavier chased your lips pulling you back into a heated makeout session. Before you fell back under his spell you broke away and pressed your fingertips to his lips when he tried to chase you again. His breath was ragged and you could see his rapid pulse fluttering on his neck. Seeing him completely flushed with red cheeks and hot ears gave you butterflies âWe should slow down we just metâ You teased with a giggle. Xavier rolled his eyes and kissed your nose as he took a step back. You didnât miss how he quickly adjusted his pants tucking himself into his waistband. âIâm sure you have many questions go ahead I'll answer all of them truthfullyâ
Pair: Xavier x reader
Wc:2k
Includes: Fluff, established relationship
"Stay right there," Xavier says, backing away from you. You turn to him with a confused expression. "No, don't move." With the second command, you grow anxious. If Xavier was this insistent on you staying still, there was most likely a Wanderer nearby. You curse. Today was your day-off so you hadn't brought your weapon with you.
"Xavier," you whisper his name in a worried tone. When he doesn't respond, your eyes scan the park for anything that can be used as a weapon. You hear a click, and your body acts fast. You roll off the trail and grab as many stones as you can carry.
"MC?" Xavier calls out for you. You body shoots up and your arm is reared back.
"Where's the Wanderer?" You ask.
"Wanderer?" Xavier shakes his head. "There's no Wanderer." You look around and notice that the park is still as peaceful as when you entered it. You drop the rocks.
"But...why did you tell me to stop walking?" You ask. Xavier pulls out his phone and shows it to you.
"There was a nice breeze that shook the leaves," He says. "And the sun was shining down on you so nicely, I had to take a picture." You look at the photo Xavier took. It looked better than the photo booths one you would take.
"Xavier, this is...wow," He managed to take a photo of you that, despite looking confused, made it seem as though you were posing professionally.
"I'm glad you like it," He smiles. He begins to scroll through his gallery. "I try to take pictures of you whenever we spend time together." His gallery is filled with pictures of you laughing, concentrating while playing kitty cards, and the claw machine and even aftermaths of your Wanderer fights. Xavier was able to catch the perfect moment of when you landed the last blows in those fights. You looked like an action movie star.
"They're so many photos," you say.
"Yeah. You look so good at everything you do. I wanted to make the moments last forever." Xavier says.
You kiss Xavier's cheek. "You dork." You take out your phone and hold it high above your head. You snap a photo of Xavier's warm smile and blushing face. You show it to Xavier.
"Perfect, now I have a wonderful moment to keep forever."
Headcanon -
Details: dokidoki fluffy coffee caleb, maybe he adds apple juice and a squeeze of lemon? 700ish words.
âMorning,â he says, a slow, easy grin tugging at his lips as he leans against the counter. His voice is smooth, low, but carries just enough amusement to make you feel like heâs been waiting all morning for someone interesting to talk to. âFirst time here?â
You blink, thrown for a second, before shaking your head. âUhâno, Iâve been here before. Just⊠not with you taking my order.â
âAh,â he hums, like this is important information. âWell, in that case, Iâll have to make sure your experience today is exceptional. What can I get for you?â
Itâs almost unfair, how casual he is about it. You manage to give him your order, your voice steadier than you expect, but the moment he nods and writes your name on the cup, you realize you might be in trouble.
Because he is breathtaking.
Not just in a pretty-boy, âoh, heâs attractiveâ kind of way. No, itâs the way he movesâfluid, self-assured, a quiet kind of charisma that doesnât demand attention but holds it anyway. His apron is tied perfectly at his waist, snug but comfortable, emphasizing his lean build. He works with an effortless grace, hands moving with quick, precise motions as he sets up your drink like heâs been doing it all his life.
And then thereâs the new barista.
You notice them standing beside him, apron still a little too crisp, movements stiff with nerves. He notices too.
âHey, you good?â he asks, his tone light, but genuinely concerned.
The newbie nods, but hesitantly. He watches them for half a second, then gestures toward your order.
âWanna make this one?â
They freeze. âUhâme?â
âYeah, you,â he grins, nodding toward the espresso machine. âCâmon, itâs just one drink. Whatâs the worst that can happen?â
ââŠI mess it up?â
âThatâs the spirit,â he teases, nudging them lightly with his elbow. âBut seriously, donât worry. Iâll walk you through it.â
You watch as the newbie hesitantly steps up, hands fumbling with the portafilter. He lets them struggle for a second before stepping in behind them, close enough that his voice drops slightly, quiet and patient.
âHere, let me help.â
And then he does something devastating.
He reaches out, his hands brushing over theirs as he adjusts their grip, fingers steady and sure. âYou wanna lock it in like this. Feel that little click? That means itâs in place.â
The newbie nods, but their breath catches slightly, andâyeah, okay, you canât blame them. He is warm, too close, and entirely too unaware of how unfair it is to exist like this.
âGood,â he says, pulling back just enough to give them space. âNow, hit that buttonâyeah, that one. You got it.â
You swear you see the newbie swallow hard, cheeks dusted pink. He doesnât comment on itâmaybe heâs too focused on the drink, or maybe heâs just used to this.
Because you are feeling the exact same thing.
The drink comes together eventually, and the newbie looks both relieved and still slightly dazed. He claps them on the shoulder, offering a quick, reassuring grin.
âSee? Not so bad,â he says. âNext time, Iâm letting you handle it without the assist.â
They make a sound thatâs somewhere between a laugh and a nervous gulp.
And then, finally, he turns back to you.
He picks up your cup, spinning it slightly between his fingers before sliding it across the counter toward you.
âHere you go,â he says, his voice just a little softer now, a little more directed at you. âHope you like it.â And then, after a pause, his smirk deepens.
âIf not⊠guess youâll just have to come back so I can make it up to you.â
Your fingers tighten around the cup, heat creeping up your neck. Your brain offers you several possible responsesâflirty, cool, cleverâand you say none of them.
Because all you can think about is how easy it would be to just ask. His number. His shift schedule. Anything that would let you turn this brief interaction into something more.
But the words sit heavy on your tongue, unspoken.
You just nod. And walk away.
And as you take your first sip, the new barista catches your gaze, their expression a perfect mirror of yoursâslightly dazed, a little overwhelmed, and absolutely thinking the same thing.
This isnât just a barista.
This is a problem.
And then you glance at the counter one last time, at the name tag pinned neatly to his apron.
Caleb.
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Thereâs more barista Caleb! Check my masterlist đ«¶đ»
Why do we fear stars?
They might seem all beautiful, glimmering dots
That light up the night sky but
Are they what they show they are?
Are they brightening up the dark sky or
Are they just reminding us of the past
Showcasing the passing and experiences of the millions of years ago.
They just remind us that we donât lose our spark even after we combust.
(My first og post ... never put out my content or poems ever on internet .. so hopefully you guys like it ... [super secret - i used to be a wattpad writer] : > )
(hopefully i am gonna write and post over here .... )
AHHH.. THIS IS SOOO GOOOOOD and perfectly captured the moment
Street interviews would absolutely get MC in trouble đ
Notes: masterlist \ Part 1
Summary: Your husband is calling you, but a little gremlin keeps declining it.
Tag: @teewritessmth @mitskunicheesecake @rcvcgers @vspxriddles @iloveh4nge
Zayne sat in the doctorâs lounge, his phone pressed to his ear as he listened to the call ring. Once. Twice. Thenâ
Call Declined.
His brows furrowed slightly. His hands, steady enough to perform the most delicate heart surgeries, tightened around the phone. He tried again.
Ring. Ring.
Call Declined.
Zayne exhaled slowly through his nose, his grip relaxing, Maybe you were busy. You were probably playing with Elias or cooking dinner Mayne in the shower? He wasnât the type to overthink, but something about the repeated declines made his stomach twist in a way he wasnât happy about.
Still, he didnât want to be a nuisance or cause you unnecessary troubles. He wasnât the type to text âCall meâ like other husbands either, He just sat there for a moment, staring at his phone, before getting up and heading back to work.
He had patients waiting.
Back home, Elias sat cross-legged on the couch, his tiny fingers curled around your phone. Every time it vibrated, his eyes narrowed, and without hesitation, he pressed the red button.
âPapaâs calling,â you pointed out, watching from the kitchen as Elias, without a second thought, hung up again.
He didnât say a word. Just held the phone like a little dragon hoarding treasure.
You wiped your hands on a towel and walked over, sitting beside him. âSweetheart, why are you declining Papaâs calls?â
Elias finally looked up at you. His expression was unreadableâso much like Zayneâs that it almost made you laugh. After a moment, he mumbled, âHeâs busy.â
You blinked. âThatâs why youâre hanging up on him?â
A short nod.
Your heart softened. Elias was a quiet child, much like his father, and even at four years old, he had an odd way of thinking. He wasnât upset. He wasnât being stubborn. In his little mind, he just thought he was helping.
You smiled and ran a hand through his soft raven colored hair. âBaby, Papa wouldnât call if he didnât want to talk. Heâs probably on a break and missing us.â
Elias frowned slightly, as if the thought hadnât occurred to him. He shifted on the couch, staring at the phone. ââŠOh.â
You chuckled. âShould we call him back?â
Elias hesitated, then nodded.
Zayne was halfway through reviewing a patientâs chart when his phone vibrated.
Incoming Call: My Love
His fingers moved instinctively, answering before the first ring finished. âHello?â
âPapa.â
Zayne blinked. It wasnât you. It was Elias.
The little voice on the other end sounded almost⊠guilty?
âElias.â Zayne glanced at the time. âYou should be in bed soon.â
A pause. Then, in a quieter voice, ââŠI hung up your calls.â
Zayne froze. He hadnât expected that. His first instinct was to ask why, but before he could, Elias continued.
âYou were busy. I didnât wanna bother you.â
Zayneâs grip on the phone tightened. He looked down at his hands, But right now, his own heart ached in a different way.
He wasnât good with words. Never had been. But there was one thing he knew.
âElias.â His voice was firm, steady. âYou never bother me.â
Another pause.
Then, a quiet, ââŠOh.â
Zayne exhaled. âIs Mama there?â
You took the phone, laughing softly. âYour son thought he was being considerate.â
Zayne pinched the bridge of his nose. âOf course he did.â His voice was softer than usual. âTell him he can always pick up my calls.â
âI think he understands now.â You turned to Elias, who was now curled against your side, looking deep in thought. âSay goodnight to Papa.â
Elias hesitated, then muttered, âGoodnight, Papa.â
Zayne swallowed. He wished he was home.
âGoodnight, Elias. Iâll see you in the morning.â
When Zayne finally stepped through the door that night, the house was quiet. You were already in bed, and Elias was asleep in his room.
Or so he thought.
As he passed Eliasâ door, a tiny voice mumbled, ââŠfather?â
Zayne stopped. Slowly, he pushed the door open.
Elias was sitting up in bed, rubbing his sleepy eyes.
Zayne hesitated. He wasnât good at this. But he walked inside, sitting on the edge of the bed. âShouldnât you be asleep?â
Elias didnât answer. Instead, he reached out with his small hands and grabbed onto Zayneâs sleeve. Not saying anything, just⊠holding on.
Zayne stared at him before sitting on the edge of his bed.
Then, without a word, he gently rested a hand on his sonâs head.
It wasnât much.
But for them, it was enough.
Xavier stood in the middle of a blood-soaked battlefield, his sword still dripping as he exhaled. The fight had been over in minutesâanother nest of Wanderers cleared out.
He wasnât in a hurry to return to headquarters. Instead, he yawned and pulled out his phone, pressing your number.
Ring. Ring.
Call Declined.
Xavier stared at the screen, brow twitching slightly. That was odd. He tried again.
Call Declined.
The corner of his mouth twitched. He wasnât a man prone to overreaction, but something about his own family declining his calls irritated him. He sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. Maybe you were busy. Maybeâ
He teleported.
One second, he was in a ruined village surrounded by monster corpses. The next, he was in the living room of his own home.
The sight that greeted him made his left eye twitch.
Leo and Liviaâhis five-year-old twinsâwere sitting on the couch, your phone between them, giggling.
Livia saw him first. Her eyes widened, and she smacked Leoâs arm. âAbort mission! Papaâs here!â
Leo nearly dropped the phone. âCrap.â
Xavier didnât speak for a moment. He simply stared, exhausted, disappointed, and vaguely impressed all at once. ââŠYou two.â
The twins immediately shot to their feet, but it was too late. He was already in front of them, towering over their tiny forms. His sword was still strapped to his back, his hunter uniform stained with dried Wanderer blood.
They didnât look scared. If anything, they looked ready to bolt.
ââŠExplain.â His voice was even, calmâbut that made it worse.
The twins exchanged glances before Livia, ever the mastermind, said, âMom said you were busy!â
Leo nodded rapidly. âYeah! You were fighting monsters, right? We didnât wanna bother you!â
Xavier sighed through his nose, rubbing his temples. âYou declined my calls.â
Livia pouted. âWell⊠yeah.â
He inhaled deeply. He was not good at this. Discipline, affectionânone of it came naturally to him. He could gut a monster in seconds, but parenting? That was an entirely different battlefield.
He crossed his arms, giving them a firm look. âThatâs not happening again.â
Leo groaned. âBut why? You never talk much anyway!â
Xavier blinked. He squatted down to their level, eyes narrowing. âYou have a death wish, donât you?â
Livia elbowed Leo. âIdiot. Now weâre really in trouble.â
Xavier pinched the bridge of his nose, exhausted beyond belief. He should just pick them up and force them into a timeoutâhe had the strength for it. But before he could, Livia clapped her hands together.
âLeo, Plan B!â
Leo gasped. âYes, Plan B!â
Xavier frowned. âWhat theââ
Before he could react, Livia sprinted left while Leo ran right.
Teleportation was an option, but honestly? He was too damn tired. He just sighed and walked toward the kitchen, knowing exactly where theyâd end up.
And there you were, standing at the counter, watching the chaos unfold like it was a normal Tuesday.
Without looking at him, you asked, âI take it you figured out why your calls werenât getting through?â
Xavier leaned against the counter, exhaling. âYour kids are demons.â
You raised a brow. âMy kids?â
He gave you a tired look. âThey didnât get it from me.â
Before you could argue, the sound of a crash echoed from upstairs.
A beat of silence. Then Leoâs voice: âIâLL FIX IT, I PROMISE!â
Xavier closed his eyes, counting to ten.
An hour later, the twins sat on the couch, pouting as Xavier stood in front of them. He wasnât a loud father. He didnât yell. But his silent disappointment was somehow worse.
âYouâre not getting out of this,â he finally said.
Livia crossed her arms. âIt was for a good reason.â
âIt was for a stupid reason.â
Leo kicked his legs. âBut we didnât wanna distract you.â
Xavier sighed, rubbing his face. ââŠYouâre my kids. You can always talk to me.â
Livia blinked. âEven when youâre fighting monsters?â
He crouched down, staring at them. âEspecially then.â
For the first time, the twins looked guilty.
Xavier softened just a fraction. He wasnât great at showing affection to kids. He wasnât the type to hug them randomly or constantly hold them. But he reached out, ruffling their hair roughly or cuddle up with his little demons.
âNext time you hang up on me, Iâm making you run laps.â
Leo gasped. âThatâs child labor!â
Livia clutched her chest. âYouâre cruel, Father.â
Xavier stood, sighing. âYouâll live.â
That night, when the twins were asleep, Xavier sat beside you in bed, rubbing his temples.
âI donât know how to handle them.â
You smiled, playing with his hair. âYouâre doing fine.â
He scoffed. âThey donât listen to me at all.â
You chuckled. âThey do. They just like pushing your buttons.â
Xavier sighed, leaning into your touch. ââŠNext time they ignore my calls, Iâm teleporting them into a cold lake.â
You laughed, pressing a kiss to his forehead. âSure you are.â
Xavier didnât respond. He just yawned, closed his eyes, and finallyâfinallyâslept.
Can't stop thinking about how Sylus is implied to have been abandoned by his kin as a child. He was rejected and let down and hurt by every. single. person in his life bar one simply because he wasn't dragon enough for one group, and not human enough for the other. He was an outsider and an outcast from his earliest days. Only one person ever made him feel seen and cherished. And yet he was willing to let go of this sole person when that seemed to be what she wanted him to.
Let that sink in.
From childhood Sylus was discarded and unloved, and had more than likely not had a single truly happy day in his life until meeting MC. She was the first person he ever had that cared about him. The only one to love, accept, and want him unconditionally. MC represents everything good in his life. She is the person who taught him his worth and that he is not the monster he believed himself to be. The one who made him feel human for the first time in his life, who showed him what it is to love and be loved, who introduced him to the beauty of music and of life. The one who willingly shared half a soul with him to save his life, and who helped shape the person he is today.
MC is everything to Sylus. He spent the (most likely numerous) decades after coming back to life searching the cosmos for her. He built Onychinus and his empire with the intent of ruling it with her by his side. He dedicates himself to taking down the evil corporaation that harmed her as a child. So much of what he's done and still does is for her sake, and in hopes of building a happy life and future together. In a lot of ways, he lives for her. She is the living embodiment of his happiness.
And yet... he was and is willing to let her go if that is what she wants or what is best for her.
Because his love for her is pure. At his core, Sylus' heart is pure, in spite of everything that he has endured.
My heart bleeds when I think of all that he's been put through. But it is so healing to see him be loved, treasured, and happy now, his recent birthday event being a prime example of that. He is living the life he always deserved but was out of his reach for most of his life.
There is a place for Sylus in this warm, peaceful world đ©·
parings in order: Xavier x Reader, Zayne x Reader, Rafayel x Reader, Sylus x Reader, Caleb x Reader requested by: anonnie âËê©ïœĄ genre: comfort a/n: hihi lovelies! âž(ïœĄË á” Ë )âžâĄ i would like to mention that everyone has different types of depression and goes through different things! i wrote the ones iâm familar with and what the anonnie requested! what might be common for me or from the anonnie that requested can be completely different to someone else! if you want to see more then iâll write a part 2! hopefully this brings some comfort to those that need it enjoy reading! <3 any likes and reblogs are always appreciated! enjoy!
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Xavier:
Will do his best to be a light and source of comfort for you
Xavier would stay close when getting out of bed feels impossible. But if you needed space, heâd respect that, keeping you company from a small distance in bed to remind you that youâre not completely alone. He wouldnât let you stay curled up in bed for too long. Heâd gently carry you to the kitchen to make sure youâre fed.
On days when your words donât come easily and your thoughts feel jumbled, he never interrupts or rushes you. He stays quiet, a hand on top of yours, nodding along while letting you speak at your own pace even if your sentences come out jumbled. Occasionally, he might ask a question to understand the context. When you do finish what youâve needed to say, heâll work through it together with you
If you were taking any medications, heâll go through the entire packet and read through any information about it online. Heâll remember all the side effects that come with it and checks up on you whenever you take them
When every little sound starts to feel like it was too much, he draws the curtains and does everything he can to make it more peaceful. He moves carefully, no sudden sounds will be made in this household. Even the way he eats or shifts in his seat would become more gentler. If you were comfortable with it, Xavier would gather you into his arms, holding you close against his chest. His hand rest gently over your ear, blocking out whatever noise is left.
Xavier would offer to listen and be the place where you can let it out. But if itâs an unexplainable feeling that you just canât put into words then heâll find a different way to cheer you up. Heâll settle beside you, pulling up your favorite comfort shows and have your snacks ready
Zayne:
Whenever getting out of bed feels like too much, heâll leave a warm cup of tea and a few slices of fruit or your favorite snacks by the bedside table. He never rushes you so he waits. Sometimes heâll sit nearby so you donât feel alone. Other times, he gives you the space you want, trusting that youâll reach out when youâre ready. But when it starts to feel like too much and the silence grows too heavy, he will step in. Never forcefully. Heâll encourage you to start off slow, a hand on yours. Maybe something as simple as sitting up or maybe just brushing your teeth.
Anytime you went through a depressive episode, Zayne has no problem doing the extra housework or helping you with your physical health. Heâll help you shower, brush through your hair gently, and help brush your teeth. Heâll praise you for each small step you take
The type to send you reminders to take your meds at the right time and that you should eat something before you take them so you donât get nauseous.
Zayne would understand and has never taken it personally when you donât want to be touched. He doesnât try to hug or reach for your hand. Instead, he makes space for you until you youâre comfortable once again
He can tell when you get sad randomly. Zayne would never force you to explain but he will always remind you if you want to talk, heâs there. Sometimes when itâs just a quiet ache sitting in you for no reason, heâll also understand that. Heâll suggest a walk out for fresh air or just for a different scenery if youâve been inside for too long.
When the smallest sounds can feel too much, heâll make sure to move extra quietly. Heâll offer noise cancelling headphones to drown out any sounds. Any open windows will be closed and heâll draw the curtains to keep the noise out. Heâll make sure to close any of the doors inside softly, silence his phone and pager and heâll make sure to give you the space you need.
Sometimes the words just donât come out right but Zayne would never rush you. He would always be patient, even when your voice shakes or when you pause for too long. And when you do finally get them out, no matter how jumbled or messy it sounds, he listens. Every single word and every detail. Once you said all you needed to say, thatâs when he speaks and helps
Reminds you that he is always there for you. Even if he was busy at work and you know he canât reach you right now, you can still message him. He reminds you to never hesitate to reach out, spam him, leave him voice messages. Heâll read through every word and detail and heâll find time to immediately reach out to you
Rafayel:
You would never feel alone if Rafayel was by your side. Even if he was away from an art exhibition, he would text you throughout the day. If you need him by your side, then heâs finding an excuse to get out of work and find his way to you.
When youâre having a hard time getting out of bed, Rafayel would be by your side under the covers so you donât feel alone. However if you continue to have a hard time, he doesnât hesitate to step in. Heâll scoop you up in his arms, carrying you to the bathroom. Heâll start with something simple, like a warm bath since it can maybe cheer you up.
When every noise seems to bother you, heâll make sure to move around quietly in the studio. Heâll close up the windows and doors so his seagull friends wonât bother you. Heâll even breathe more quietly so he doesnât bother you. Rafayel would still stay nearby but gives you your space to make sure youâre not alone. Heâll wait until youâre ready to talk with him
Rafayel would never take it personally when you did not want to be touched but he definitely does get a little pouty about it behind your back. He just misses holding onto you but he understands and gives you the space you need.
Feeling sad randomly? Rafayel would never push you to explain whatâs wrong but he encourages you that itâs good to let it out and that heâs always there for you. However, if it was unexplainable, he doesnât make you feel weird about it. Heâll find ways to cheer you up as best as he can. Heâll pull up videos on his phone and you silly videos he found that might make you smile. Heâll even suggest a quiet walk by the beach just for a change of scenery and for some fresh air
Sometimes the right words just wonât come. They get lost somewhere between your thoughts but Rafayel has never once looked at you confused or has never been impatient. He watches you carefully, trying to understand your expression. Sometimes he finishes the sentences for you, not to interrupt but because heâs piecing it together with you. And if you grow frustrated, he offers to sketch it out with you.
Sylus:
On days when getting out of bed feels impossible, he stays beside you but he doesnât let you stay there for too long. He understands the weight of it all but he will step in. First heâll start with encouragement, asking you to sit up just for a bit. But if your limbs feel too heavy and your body refuses to move, he never gets frustrated. Heâll carry you in his arms. Heâll run you a warm bath and help bathe you. Later heâll encourage you to do some small activities with him to get you a little motivated
He would never take it personally if you were not in the mood to be touched. Thereâs no wounded ego or disappointment. He gives you the space that you need until you are ready to curl up next to him again. Heâll make sure you were absolutely comfortable with it before he reaches back
Sylus would always give you the choice to talk or cry or let it out to him in whatever way you need. But if itâs those days where itâs just unexplainable, he doesnât press on. Instead, heâll offer distractions. Heâll pull out a new vinyl that heâs been saving for or maybe stepping out to a new scenery to get rid of whatever ache you have in your chest
When the world feels too loud and your thoughts wonât slow down, no matter how hard you try to explain to Sylus through hiccupped sobs, he doesnât ask you to make sense of it. Instead, he pulls you into his arms. He doesnât say much at first, his hand moves slowly up and down your back. He doesnât need you to have the right words. Heâll listen, hiccupped sobs or not, to every detail you have to say. When your sobs begin to slow, when you start to breathe a little easier, heâs still there, helping you sort through the weight you've been carrying. It doesnât matter if the problem is big or small. Heâll work them out with you together.
Luckily your shared bedroom is at the top floor to avoid any noises from the city. However if any noise continues to bother you, Sylus wouldnât ask whatâs wrong, heâll just move around quietly as best as he can. Heâll stop playing any music on his record player unless you donât want him too. Heâll make sure Luke and Kieran are not in the same building and heâll make sure to mute Mephisto
Caleb:
Having a hard time getting out of bed? Caleb would give you the space you need, leaving you your favorite snacks and water by the bedside table with a cute little note and a doodle for you. Heâll check in on you often to see if youâve eaten or just by âpassingâ by the room. However if it does stretch on, heâll kneel beside the bed and offer his hand, suggesting a few easy stretches. Heâll encourage just a small stretch for your arms and then legs next and then a small little walk to the kitchen where he has a little meal waiting in the kitchen just for you
As much as Caleb loves to hold you and have you in his arms, he would never be offended if you did not want to be touched. He would never hover and never pressure you. He gives you all the space and time you need when youâre comfortable again
Feeling sad out of nowhere? He would be SO worried, it would be written all over his face. His first instinct is to check in, offering to let you vent out if you need to. Heâs always been a good listener. If it just feels unexplainable and you canât quite name the reason, then heâll find ways to cheer you up. Caleb would curl up with you and pull up your favorite comfort shows or movies. Or heâll bring you your favorite snack or make your favorite dish that you love. And of course, he offers his signature big bear hug.
If any sounds were bothering you, heâd make sure to not make a single sound in the house. No loud footsteps in the halls, no clinking dishes, you name it. Heâd even go as far as making sure no plane flies in the direction over your home to make sure you get the peace you need.
Sometimes you canât get the right words to come out and Caleb would be patient with you the entire time. He lets you speak and lets you take all the time you need to get it out. His hand rests on yours, his thumb traces slow, soothing circles over your knuckles as he reads your expressions carefully. If any tears come out from frustration, he cups your face with so much care and wipes away any stray tears.
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âI wondered why I was always so lonely and then I realized that I was always playing different roles for different people but I never played the role of just myself and thatâs why I was lonely - the person everyone was with wasnât actually me.â
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Even if Xavier is my main ...
Sylus's bbd event is so fudging beautiful and pleasing and
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Its too good and i was literally staring at this for 5 mins because it was so beautiful and gawd
And whoever made this, hatsoff sir or maam
You can press on the decorations in the Sylus Bday event and you get little commentary!!
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loyal to my man ~Xavier .... Life is delulu at this point and other fixations
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