TUMBLR KEEPS GIVING ME AUTISM TEST ADDS

This is so real.

I litterally can't go a second without thinking about drawing or homestuck😭

Like I don't think I could live without either of them and the idea of me in any job outside of selling art in the future genuinely upsets me. If someone insults homestuc or art (either mine or made by someone else) I get so upset like as if they insulted me PERSONALLY, like they were saying IM bad/awful and not just the media. It's so weird😭😭

I think that special interests are actually a disabling part of autism

I'm tired of people (allistic and autistic) saying that it's bad that special interests are 'pathologised' because passions are good. This is because that comes from a fundamental misunderstanding of what a special interest is. Special interests are not just things you like a lot, they are 'highly fixated interests abnormal in intensity or focus'. For me (and pretty much everyone with autism I've asked about it), this means that special interests are basically your whole life. For me, my special interest is ASD. I think about autism all the time. It's the only thing I find interesting, and every thought I have can be linked to autism in some way. This is pretty disabling to me because it makes it way harder to talk about and do stuff that isn't related to my special interest.

It makes making friends really hard because, on top of my social challenges, I also don't know how to talk about anything other than my special interest, and I will bring the conversation back to my special interest if I feel comfortable around someone, and just not talk to someone if I don't feel comfortable around them. It also makes doing the things I need to do in life (such as doing work for uni, taking care of myself, cleaning my living space, etc) so much harder because my brain doesn't think it's interesting in the slightest and therefore I have absolutely no motivation to do them.

Maybe my special interests are more extreme than other people's. I wasn't diagnosed with a level, I just got a diagnosis of ASD, but I'm probably on the higher end of level 1, possibly on the lower end of level 2 but I can't really figure that out for myself. However, the ASD diagnostic criteria in both the ICD-11 and DSM-V state that your traits of autism must be causing 'clinically significant impairment' (i.e. they must be disabling) for you to qualify for an ASD diagnosis.

Having an especially icky day today so I figured I might share something that helps me sometimes.

When I'm supre upset and crying like rn I like to pretend I'm better and look through pinterest images that are like daily affirmations but litterally aren't true about me and pretend they are true for a few minutes.

Does it get me to stop crying? Not really, but it makes me feel not as bad for crying.

Which is prolly stupid but I don't care rn.

happy ptide

@crosswired you owe me 50 bucks

learning how to drive via very bad video thigngs

will continue artfight stuff in an hour or so when IO get bored

scar that some people follow me for classpecting na dend up reading migrane induced rambles.

:3

tally hall & miracle musical memes & shitposts B) ft some original memes

remember everything can be a reference to the funny band if you try hard enough

june egbert this. john egbert that. i don't care- MORE PEOPLE TALK ABOUT HOW FUCKED UP THIS IS

John deserves so much better, this whole sequence emotionally destroyed me. I can't stand seeing anymore discourse I need to see more outrage about how he was treated and looked at like he was disgusting. I hate homestuck^2 so bad. My baby :'(

My fandom/special intrest isn't even niche it's just the people who know about it don't wanna talk about it and the people who don't know it also don't wanna talk about it😭😭

god gives his most niche fandoms to his most autistic warriors