Liquid Bridges

why lamp

the mark of cain inevitably does what it does, and dean with anger issues throws things(on a spree), but pauses after throwing the lamp, and then there’s  the bloody sequence, where he kills people(on a spree), but stops after throwing cas( for a second, then there’s more throwing, but no killing, because cas can listen to dean and dean can listen to cas, even when possessed, gay love pierces through mind control and saves the day<3)

Cas is often forgotten, like the lamps  in the room, but whenever time comes, they pray to cas( switch on lamp). And cas, gives dean hope, like a lamp.

Darkness is alluring, but Cas is like the lamp, light on the end of the tunnel, distracting dean from freakin AMARA( and she KNOWS)

Then there is the lamp, filling in the half of the bed, when cas would have been there, but he's most probably hiding from the angel army, which he gave up for dean. It's watching over Dean, just like Cas said he would. ANd Dean is listening to a mixtape( i guess there's more than one mixtape he's made for cas, but couldn't give it to him). So cas is here as a lamp when he can't be, and Dean is thinking of cas, with the songs he couldn't share with him.

Then there's the dance. Which is pretty much in character for us the audience, but obviously not the kind of Dean that Dean projects himself as. It's unrepressed, and even his clothing isn’t overtly butch (well its always a mix-match with a leather jacket and the samulet , long sleeves but men's jeans...), but here it's a white jacket and black trousers, worn with grace.

this is where not only cas is lamp, but dean loves lamp=cas is innuendoed. THe dream goes in stages, like the character arc and He enters the stage hesitant    He enjoys and lets loose into experimenting with Garth, who knows Dean is a softie and doesn't care otherwise anyway.    He grows comfortable.    He then chooses to perform with the lamp, a male-coded partner. and then at the end of the episode, sam and dean watch garth slow dancing with his wife. perfect parallel, and dean says out loud, “i always thought i could be a good dancer if i wanted to be.” {dean yearns for a ballroom, i.e.romantic partner, and for a long time around this point in th timeline, the eye stares and moment's and quarells and memories and all thought trails in dean's pov are cas cas cas, so that's that.}

deeper readings: the lamp dance was, as much dean romance as possible, it was classy(like rock), and ambigous or covered up( chick - flick - moment - but - very - cloacked : dean^tm) . It also is a call-out to him embracing his true feelings in his dream, and as we also know, cas has access to his dreams(cough -cough), Also, he's dancing to a song about "misbehaving", and it's all romantic, so the innuendo is clear.

But details! The lamp shines in the corner of the bunker, like corners cas often stands in, (almost always ), and dean approaches cas, sorry this lamp, like the lamp that was once filling the half of his bed, He pulls the lamp out of where it had been tucked away, and looks over the lamp from all angles, much like looking over cas whenever cas comes back.

Bonus point- dance paces up in the end, like dean's love and calls to cas become haphazard and more frequent and involuntary in s15.

And voila- the he blows the lamp a kiss in the end. summing up this moment:

a tiny spot the difference:

and finally here's mothDean and lampCas. because if 15X20, then why lamp?

drifting away

A chasm has opened up All paths have failed What cure is there now for broken hearts? The happiness that never was mine May it be yours, it wherever you go My desire is, for you to live, And for your hopes and dreams to come true

May your world never reflect the barrenness of mine

each and every memory of yours is etched into my heart The way you would smile at me The way you would whisper to me that “You belong only to me” God only knows how it came to this pass How we came to be driven apart

I abandoned everything for you I burnt all my boats to come here to you But you never became mine You simply walked away I don’t know where you disappeared, taking my heart with you

Where would I go? I’m still right here I’m present in every beat of your heart You’re in my dreams when I sleep In my thoughts when I’m awake At each and every moment, you’re with me My heart beats for no one but you Now it will never belong to anyone else I am saying goodbye

I am saying goodbye

I am saying goodbye

I am saying goodbye

me.

people can hate doom scrolling and yes yes sense. go wiggle your toes. clouds and sunshine are nice. rolling in grass and hoarding pebbles seems is joyful and these papers need to be folded or scribbled over. numbers and words are very productive i see. 

but ,honestly the internet is so beautiful. its good to delve deep. find those oyesters.

goto go make origami for my rocks to look at.

when we try to befriend cats we mimic their meows and get down on the ground to their level and try to gently coax them to interact with us right

that horrifying entity mimicking human noises at us maybe just thinks we’re cool and wants to pet us?

the ghost of destiel canon

Sry babe

meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeean

Ryujin

because i followed this course instead of my university

i managed a good job. hehe.

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u’v all heard of dean the whore with a heart of gold, but now hear of castiel thee girlboss with a heart of kindness.

List of transgressions on Castiel's Crimingel(Criminal Angel) Record that got him Lobotomized (no order)

Stepping on the first fish that crawled onto land

Fucking the micheal sword (fine, simping 4 the micheal sword & attempting to sabotage the Grand Plan by warning him about the 66 seals)

Attempting to stop the crucifucation of Jesus

Dating Jesus

Vandalising the Earth (crop circles & geoglyphs are just enochian swear words & shit like "God can kiss my ass" & "Ishim is an incel". The White Horse of Huffington is actually a lewd drawing of Naomi)

Planning a coup when heaven refused to intervene during the Great Flood

Trying to pet Unicorns in his true form, accidentally killing them all

Planning a coup when heaven refused to intervene during the Mahabharat

The Tom Sawyer Incident*

Planning a coup when heaven refused to intervene when the Europeans started building ships

Hanging out in black holes (they are forbidden)

*[in 1978, Castiel stole the soul of Tom Sawyer right before its deliverance to hell, where Anubis determined it belonged, & smuggled it into heaven in an act of morbid academic curiosity. It was dubbed to be the "height of [Castiel's] insolence", & his punishment was severe. Tom's trip to heaven contaminated his soul balance, & he had to be sent back to earth. He died again almost 30 years later. He went to heaven.]

You are my only pleasure Wherever I go without you only you live in the hearts don't you? You are my happiness to live Wherever I go without you only you live in the hearts don't you? you wander in and out of my dreams you wrap your arms around me such The dream is mine, be mine here if you will Don't go away as soon as my sleep leaves me You are my happiness to live Wherever I go without you only you live in the hearts don't you? are you the light or are you some angel? Wherever I go without you only you live in the hearts don't you?

i guess it goes episodes  04X03,04X20,07X05,15X10