Psychosis Is So Scary What Do You Mean There Was A Random Flash Behind Me And Now I Am Being Watched.

The urge to just destroy myself. To cut off everything. To go radio silent on everyone because my brain is absolutely convinced I'll be best off alone, locked in a tiny little box.

Why can't I just have a moment to breathe? To actually enjoy my bit of happiness I get here and there.

Self destructive to the point where I almost WANT to go into psychosis.

I want to feel that fear again

I want everyone to know that I’m sick

That it’s not for attention

I want to be alone again

I miss being lonely.

What is wrong with me?

Maybe I’m just used to it. Not having something wrong in my head is weird to me. It’s uncomfortable even.

Trauma didn't make me nice, I consciously made me nice because I don't want anyone else to suffer like I did. Trauma didn't make me strong, I made me strong. Don't you dare ever tell me my trauma made me anything but scared, broken, and confused. Don't give credit to the abusers for me being a good person. They didn't make me good, I made myself good.

Angel is a porn star. He's done everything multiple times without even blinking an eye. But if Husk ever gave him even a chaste little kiss on the cheek he would be so flustered that he couldn't talk. this is canon Fat Nuggets told me

never forgetti people are vile and will harm you if given the chance

the urge to stop trying and to let myself get worse

in the mood to kill everyone

what? nothing’s wrong with me. i mean, sure i fantasize about murdering anyone who has any kind of negative interaction with me ever, but like, i’m fine.

By far the worst hallucinations are bugs. Like girl why. I don't need that