Follow Your Passion: A Seamless Tumblr Journey
I'm relate this post so much, but the saddest fact is that I can't cut myself very deep, even though I want it. I wanna see at least derma, not this little cuts that heals in a week.
The euphoric feeling i get when the blood is dripping from my cvts can't compare to anything else in this world
I just got a message from I think a bot or maybe a scammer trying to get me to be his sugarbaby or something like that.
I blocked of course but it got me thinking…
Even if it wasn’t a ploy or something I just wanna say:
Bitch in what world am I sugar baby material?😭I’m a hopeless, fat virgin who cuts herself to cope with stress(which doesn’t even work anymore), can’t maintain a healthy friendship to save her life, and will throw a hissy fit when things don’t go exactly as she wants it to go.
I struggle doing minimal tasks such as getting up in the morning, brushing my teeth and taking a shower.
I spent the last two days doing absolutely nothing but sleeping and scrolling on my phone, praying that I get more online attention.
They say people are complex but if I were a rubix puzzle i’d be a fucking dodecahedron.
I’m a mess and I wear that fact on my sleeve.
I doubt that I can handle a relationship, let alone a transactional one.
It wasn’t even worth the trouble. I feel nothing. All that it did was leave an ugly mark and leave a burning sensation.
Fuck I’m such a hideous thing. These scars make it even worse.
I wish I was thinner and flatter and prettier and had a nice smile and didn’t have this goddamn lazy eye everytime I take a photo.
I wish I didn’t have to resort to doing this to feel something good and relieving because nothing feels like it’s working anymore.
I don’t even know if I wanna eat rn. My parents are calling for dinner and I’m hungry but I’m so desperate to lose weight. I’ll do anything at this point.
I just wish I was born a different person.