" I Wasn't Built To Break."

It was death that made autumn beautiful.

- H.Asteid

" I would've loved you forever if you had only let me."

-H.Asteid

"Why would you want to be with someone who only love you sometimes?"

-H.Asteid

" She's like a closed book hiding on the farthest part of a shelf, tightly hugging herself , Afraid that someone might ruin her pages again."

- H.Asteid, Ruined Pages

I'm made of excerpts I personally extracted from the books I read, of songs' lyrics, of blankets and of cups of coffee.

My mind is either a gray cloud or a current of air violently whirling in a spiral.

Every night, my soul howls for the moon; my hands bleed words about tragedy and doom.

These dark brown orbs loathe mirrors but would always tear up at the sight of the sea, maple trees in autumn, of beautiful people.

And my heart only yearns for one thing. . .

To feel things in colour.

-H.Asteid

" This may sound crazy to you but...If she were a cliff, I won't even hesitate to take the leap."

- H.Asteid

" And my biggest mistake was loving you more than I could ever love myself."

-H.Asteid

15 more seconds before midnight

I'm sitting here, staring at my phone

Thinking how to hit your phone up

Should I text you or hit the caller icon?

It's been a year since we last talked

Today, it's like my mind keeps drifting back into the memories you engraved in my heart a year ago

The Good morning texts

The later night conversations

How often we quarrel over what "we" really are

The time you told me

" I love you but I can't keep your heart."

It shattered me.

You were scared just as I was

But I never gave up on us

Sent you sonnets everyday

Sang you lullabies at night

Showed you my scars

For you, I turned myself inside out.

Still, my everything wasn't enough.

You came with the smile of October then left me alone with the gloomy November.

You left.

You left without a goodbye.

I tried to run after you in the dark

I called your name several times

On my knees, I fell to the ground

You're already gone

You're already gone.

15 more seconds before midnight

With tears in my eyes,

I put my phone down

And whispered into the void

" Happy birthday, I'm letting you go now."

-H.Asteid ,10-22

"And if you're going to lose me, I'm going to make it so hauntingly beautiful you'll remember every second of it."

-H.Asteid