- H.Asteid

" And If I could only keep from death, I would."

-H.Asteid

"I hope every love poem written is true

The rhymes, the delicate and intimate words, the metaphors

I hope that when a boy tells you that you drive him crazy

or that he constantly thinks of you,

It's true."

-H.Asteid

" And my biggest mistake was loving you more than I could ever love myself."

-H.Asteid

" I wasn't built to break."

- H.Asteid

I was born with reds and violets tattooed on my stomach, shards of glass in my eyes and scars on my back. I never really knew how to talk in a velvety voice or hold flowers in my hands without crushing them in the process. The love introduced to me isn't the kind of love that'd wish you sweet dreams. The love I've known brought me nightmares with me crying, laughing at my fallen tooth on the carpet.

So please be patient with me. I'm still learning not to destroy the things I love.

---H.Asteid🍁

"Go and wander my love

See the world and reach your dreams

Because if we're really meant to be,

God will ALWAYS gravitate you back to me."

-H.Asteid

" She's like a closed book hiding on the farthest part of a shelf, tightly hugging herself , Afraid that someone might ruin her pages again."

- H.Asteid, Ruined Pages

15 more seconds before midnight

I'm sitting here, staring at my phone

Thinking how to hit your phone up

Should I text you or hit the caller icon?

It's been a year since we last talked

Today, it's like my mind keeps drifting back into the memories you engraved in my heart a year ago

The Good morning texts

The later night conversations

How often we quarrel over what "we" really are

The time you told me

" I love you but I can't keep your heart."

It shattered me.

You were scared just as I was

But I never gave up on us

Sent you sonnets everyday

Sang you lullabies at night

Showed you my scars

For you, I turned myself inside out.

Still, my everything wasn't enough.

You came with the smile of October then left me alone with the gloomy November.

You left.

You left without a goodbye.

I tried to run after you in the dark

I called your name several times

On my knees, I fell to the ground

You're already gone

You're already gone.

15 more seconds before midnight

With tears in my eyes,

I put my phone down

And whispered into the void

" Happy birthday, I'm letting you go now."

-H.Asteid ,10-22

You're the winter that will never warm up to me

And the autumn that will never fall for me.

-H.Asteid