" And If I Could Only Keep From Death, I Would."

You're the winter that will never warm up to me

And the autumn that will never fall for me.

-H.Asteid

" And my biggest mistake was loving you more than I could ever love myself."

-H.Asteid

How many more sonnets do you I have to write for you?

How many more steps to do I have to take to get to you?

You see, I'm running out of ink

And it's like my knees are about to give in

But I kept writing

I kept walking

Coz honey, you're inked in my mind like a tattoo

You're like the cups of coffee I consume

Cup after cup after cup

Still, I can't get enough

I can't stop!

I can swim, Believe me I can swim

But my heart seems to be so fascinated with your depths

That it doesn't mind getting drowned in it.

But you won't let me in.

You'd leave your door slightly ajar then you'd slam it on my face,

You'd pull me close then you'd pull away

You have me wrapped around your thumb

That when you ever you needed a hit, I'll be your drug.

It's insane! I mean...

I think it's the other way around

You.

You are my drug.

Your love's my addiction

But the way it's consuming me right now,

Tells me...

That you are both my sweet salvation and also, the road that would lead to my own destruction.

- H. Asteid, One-sided Sonnet

" I was more attracted to him than he was to me.

And it really scared me.

-H.Asteid

"Why would you want to be with someone who only love you sometimes?"

-H.Asteid

You. You showed me the side of love that Disney tried to hide from me when I was a kid. You made me realize that walking this earth with a soft heart can cost me everything. That night when you left me lying naked on the floor, I wept and silently wished I didn't have emotions at all.

-H.Asteid🍁

— Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things

" What made you so afraid of people getting too close?"

-H.Asteid

"Let's just admit it. When we break a person's heart, we break a little too."

-H.Asteid