I Am A Former Choir Singer And A Former Church Guitarist. I Feel Inspired To Compose Music Again. I Have

∅ Hi, my name is Blue! ∅ I drew my first Blue! Aren't you proud of me?

Okay, I can take photographs and do tracings of them.

I think, maybe, it can be inspiring to hear someone asserting their own identity and their self-worth. A sense of identity and self-worth are the basic psychological needs that I am working on.

∅ Hello, I'm Blue! ∅ I put the letters in different quadrants this time. I'm so clever!

My self-esteem was based on my job But it seems I am too mentally-disabled to work I guess my self-esteem is based on my art hobby now

You know, I really hate my community a lot. It felt good to cause a public nuisance by panhandling at an intersection for a couple of hours. I hope that I caused a lot of annoyance for a lot of people. I didn't make any money, but that's not the point. My relationship with my community is now one where I go around asking as many people as possible for money, to express my displeasure. I hope everyone who drove past me at that intersection gets a flat tire. Screw you, everybody in my hometown. Screw all of you and give me money!

Affirmation of the Day: My name is Blue, and I am a nice person.

I need to work from home because I get panic attacks. Making music is my best chance at earning a living online. I have depression. I have to start writing the sheet music now, while I'm not feeling well. The mental effort will slowly improve my mood as I work. Waiting for the depression to go away never works. The depression will always be there. The only way to improve the depression is to summon the willpower to be productive. I know that the music will be good enough to earn donations. I just have to have faith and trust the process.

So, as an agender nonbinary person, I usually try to avoid gendered language. I chose two staves, "Men" and "Bass", initially, to describe a trio to be performed by myself. These are the options the program provides. "Bass" is already gender-neutral. But I thought it would be more gender-neutral to describe the two higher voices as "Low Voices" instead of "Men." So that's what I did.

Okay, here's a rainbow compass. I've made a lot of progress on my self-esteem. I think maybe now I will start working on my sense of gratitude. Today, I am thankful for my delicious cup of coffee.