I just feel like ill always be stuck. Stuck in the middle of a goodbye. Never feeling that pain, but never feeling that closure. Never feeling the certainty that somethings gone and is never coming back. I will always be frozen in this one time frame. Never wanting less, never having more. Im just stuck.
I will always cherish what you have given me, and what i have learned from you, but its time to let go.
it was a present from my sister. I can never forget what my first bracelet looked like. green, black and yellow zigzags, all glued together to make the string seem almost, unreal. I never took it off. I loved the feeling of wearing something and never taking it off. I guess that's why people didn't notice when I started wearing more and more bracelets, and 4 years later, my reasoning for wearing it became more of a fashion statement, but a cover up. some days, I 2oild feel brave enough to take them off, just to see if anyone would notice. they looked, they acknowledged, but they never said a word to me. not even an "are you okay?" but just an endless nightmare of stares. God, life was so much simpler before she gave me that bracelet. that one bracelet isolated me, and built a mental barrier between me and happiness. unachievable unless I was willng to pay a price. sometimes just one, sometimes 100.
"Theres still beauty in the darkness, if you look hard enough"
-My Midnight Thoughts...
Why am i trusting him with my body if i cant even trust him with my mind?
Why am i never enough for anyone?
What happened to me...
Reblog if your SICK of these things:
FAT thighs
FAT stomach
FAT arms
FAT face
FAT hands
FAT calves
FAT knees
FAT hips
FAT EVERYTHING.
I just want to be skinny…
I wanna be with someone who understands my scars. Someone who wont try to change them, but understands why. I need someone whos equally or more fucked up than me.
I just wanna get away from it all, ya know?