Well, Mom Now Knows About The Scars On My Upper Arm (which Are Deep Styros And Barely Baby Beans) And
well, mom now knows about the scars on my upper arm (which are deep styros and barely baby beans) and oh yay.
she seems these as "too far" (she thinks some should've had stitches. like no? they weren't deep enough for that)
i had to explain to her that I don't care how this affects others (like, you're not being physically cut into so like, why should it matter how it affects you? emotionally? try again, I don't care about that)
I had to "promise" not to do that deep again (I will) <-but will have to be careful because I dont want to be strip-searched.
downside, I have some deep ones on my forearm and near wrist that she doesn't know (that might cause a strip-search if she sees those, which fucks me over because my thighs are the worst place)
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vaguely religious thoughts are back, drop all friends when school is done, break up with partners, (try to) get a job, kill self before 2026.
my thoughts when someone says "I love you" is just
ha ha. no, you don't. you just love the idea and perception of me that I have given you. you don't love me.
i can't get you to understand a single bit. so why bother trying, why dont I just leave again, and not temporarily this time.
when you are very bad for years, people no longer worry.
you become invisible, a ghost.
I can leave now, everyone has forgotten me.
found out bf now has a tumblr through my other blog (he followed it)
better hope he never stumbles onto this side and find this account
I swear so much has happened these last 3 days that nothing feels real, and it's not even bad stuff, just very eventful days and it's leaving me very floaty and confused
it feels like I haven't stopped to take a break or take in anything fully
wonder how he'd feel if he knew and saw the extent of my cutting and scars.
he should leave me. i don't want to be cared about. (he doesn't care about me anyways, made that clear)
i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person
if anyone has reblogged my posts, can someone tell me? i would like them back (you don't have to)
i was rotting-in-the-forest
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